立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
Okay...after a good bath, I feel less fiery and more calm.
Woke up, watched the usual "household" drama, (GOD HOW I WISHED NOT TO EXPLAIN TO ANYONE ANYMORE)and today it's a buy one get one free day! So in total 2 drama.
Alr quite pissed off and frustrated, I went out to watch Disaster movie with mt.
After watching Disaster Movie with mt(where the movie is total epic lame-ness just like the previous movie Meet the Spartans.), I went home, with happy happy mixed feelings because I'm going to pack my luggage. (As if I'd be happy.)
When I entered the household, guess what happened?
Because of my sis, I got dragged into a nagging session which I dunno why also. So please make that double pissed. Then since my mum declared that she would also help in packing the luggage today, I started to take the luggage out. IN PISSED MODE.
I started to pack stuffs in, and she said..."I'm tired today, tomorrow den I help you pack. Keep the luggage."
I'm thinking, I don't need you to help me really...and since she gave me a tomorrow, tomorrow and another tomorrow already, I FEARED another tomorrow will happen, with the effect of a pissed me, I said something bltantly rude.
"Everytime say tomorrow, what if you tomorrow say tomorrow again? Then by 25th I just bring myself go can alr. I can pack myself.
Then she went into........................super saiyanthe unwilling mode.
Then she say can wear covered shoes to Japan anot, den no nd to wash. I say ok. She remembered that I have to board the plane at 1am, den I'll surely be sleeping.
"Wear covered shoes sleep v.v. uncomfortable. Nvm I help you wash." "Nvm. I can wear go sleep, no need wash *With the intent of not wearing her out saving her trouble*" "Nvm I say I wash means I wash..." -And goes the loop with arguing voices-
You get the idea. ARGH sometimes I wonder why I need her help while I don't want to trouble her. ARGH JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA.
And no nd hand carry bag alr. I found the chan brother one. Hahaha. At first I tot v.v. small, open up ah...another case.
And here comes my mixed feelings while packing the bag.
1.With me not ard, I fear that mum will quarrel with her more. 2.With me not ard, sis will surely be v.v. ridiculous.
I really don't want my mum to feel so tired. ARGHARGHARGH.
Damn it. How I wished everyone in the world that tires my mum WOULD WAKE UP PLEASE. *Including me*
Somehow, leaving would be full of pros and cons.
OKOK I MIGHT SOUND EXAGGERATING BECAUSE IT'S ONLY FOR 8 DAYS BUT WTF. I DO CARE FOR MY MUM ARGHARGHARGH.
Pros: 1.No nagging session 2.At peace (No household drama for 8 days WTH ITS GOOD) 3.JAPAN! 4.AKIBA! 5.MT FUJI! (BETTER NOT RAIN) 6.First time taking plane! 7.Independence day?
Cons: 1.I'd miss home (ALL except household drama.) 2.No one to wake me up. (I fear my mighty alarm clock wouldn't wake me.) 3.Somehow I have doubts that I could be that independent.
Fever's down, major sweating >_>" I've never let out so much sweat since...sec sch pe lesson hahahahahahahaha.
Although bones still quite stiff. (Symptoms of fever = including stiff neck etc.) But I've gained back my strength. For the past two days, I need, 30minutes to get up from the bed. Today I only need 10mins. Improved so much. *pats myself*
The fever's gone, however the flu + cough still remains. Sighh. Better get well soon. *pfft*
*Inserts: I want Eternal Sonata!*
Ok continue...later maybe going to shop for jeans. Because I've a shortage of jeans, and the weather in Japan really don't seem too merciful for berms.
Gonna go rest after I've shopped for jeans. Tomorrow still have to pack luggage.
Saw this at Yahoo! News. ---- Expert says Singapore not completely immune from tsunamis.
SINGAPORE — Singapore is not completely immune from a tsunami and should prepare for the possibility, an expert on coastal areas warned Friday.
The island—state can be hit by a tsunami generated from three locations and the waves could damage key coastal infrastructure without being too high, said Professor Wong Poh Poh of the National University of Singapore geography department.
"It’s not that we are totally immune. No, we are not immune," Wong said.
He was speaking at a news conference to launch a report, by the aid and development organisation World Vision, on the impact of climate change on poor people.
To cause damage, waves hitting Singapore need not be as huge as the ones that devastated Indonesia’s Aceh in December 2004, killing 168,000 people, Wong said.
Aceh was struck by a wave about 10 metres (33 feet) high.
"We don’t need 10 metres. The problem with Singapore is... we have a lot of infrastructure on the coast. All you need is a very low wave to just come in and hit certain areas," he said.
"Changi Airport will be very vulnerable," he said, adding the man—made island of Jurong which houses a sprawling petrochemical complex is also at risk, and urged the government to commission a study on tsunamis. — AFP/vm ---- Now it just proves that Singapore isn't totally safe from natural disasters.
This game is to be released on Oct 21 in US version...on ps3!The jap ver is out, but there is no english subs...sighhhhh. I find the Jap dubs nicer luh! English dubs sucks!
Apparently it's a remake of the XBOX360 ver (OMG why xbox360 get so many nice rpgs?! Fuck that. I want a XBOX360 now luh!) *Prays some kind soul drop $600 on the floor for me to pick*
Description: On his deathbed, the famous composer, Chopin, drifts between this life and the next. In his final hours, he experiences a fantastical dream where he encounters a young girl facing a terrible destiny and the boy who will fight to save her. On the border between dreams and reality, Chopin discovers the light that shines in all of us in this enduring tale of good and evil, love and betrayal.
Developed by Tri-Crescendo and featuring the music of Chopin, Eternal Sonata for the PLAYSTATION®3 computer entertainment system delivers amazingly detailed 3D graphics, a captivating storyline, an innovative action battle system as well as new playable characters, quests, music and more.
--- Big booooo! To XBOX360 owners! Got new char in PS3 *Sticks out tongue* Muahahahahahaha. *Actually I'm still pissed off abt FF13 being released on XBOX360*
PS3: 2 new characers, Serenade and Crescendo.
Characters name v.v. cute. It's all related to music:
Allegretto Allegretto - A form of tempo.
Beat (OMG He's the cutest char *screams*) <- sign of shota-con? o.o" Beat - Basic time unit of music.
Chopin (The famous pianist/composer, seriously can you imagine Chopin fighting?)
Claves Claves - A percussion instrument.
Falsetto Falsetto - Vocal register above the modal voice register.
Jazz/Jitterbug Jazz - Genre of music
March March - Genre of music
Polka Polka - A type of dance, genre of music.
Salsa Salsa - Genre of music
Viola Viola - A form of instrument.
Crescendo Crescendo - A passage of music where the volume gradually increases.
Being first is good? Being second would be better? Who knows? I only rmb fang saying this during sec 4...
"Being second would be better than being first. Because, you know you can still advance to first."
True enough. If you're being the first, the top, how do you know you've improved, or go beyond yourself? Since you can only compete with yourself. Although it's quite agreeable that constantly being first is good.
Being first in everything isn't good. At least that's what I know.
The "first" in "first love", have it's purposes. That's what I know. Without me actually explaining, you should quite understand.
It's the "first", but it doesn't mean that it's your "last" too. So, being first in everything isn't good. Yet, humans still vie for superiority. I wonder why? Maybe because they held the meaning of "first", "best", "top" too strongly?
Yeah, maybe because in Singapore, the mindset of being the top, being the first is very important for LIVING. True enough. You can see it in everyday life.
Like, getting the top in examinations [Be it PSLE, O's, A's Poly, Uni], would get you short popularity, get you all the choices of schools in Singapore, getting top in University, getting first honors, etc, could already net you several interviews from the high-end companies in your area of expertise. Although I'd also give credit to luck, and personal relationships.
Want more example, I could give you more! Actually it's not only happening in Singapore, it's happening worldwide! It's like, celebrities? You know, being the most popular nets you more benefits.
Winning the best *insert* award gains you recognition in the society.
Winning the *insert* medal in the Olympics, would be doing your country proud, but hell yeah, it's still all about winning ain't it?
Although I wouldn't say that I disregard the sportsmanship is still present, and the athletes (sp?) is just trying to break their own record [to tell the truth, I admire them sometimes, giving their best to do their country proud.]
But really, when "winning" is being labelled into something, it just seems that everyone is just doing their best to win, and it doesn't sounds patroic (sp?) or anything good. I know winning is good, but when it starts to go into the unhealthy area, it's bad.
Sometimes, why don't everyone just try to stop and think, is being first, is being the best, is winning, really everything in your life? Why not think, isn't being happy, being blissful, much more important? Why must you be held down by the illusionary term of best, first, etc?
Like a chinese term, whatever you do, there's always someone better than you in that aspect. Argh. Just give it all you have, and you should actually be satisfied already. (Although sometimes the result you get doesn't really make you feel good.)
For me, I'd rather live a happy life! Than being so bothered over the term "first". Sometimes, being "first" can be a bother. A real bother.
So, this message is to yes, if you know it, you. *Shows the best smile I can give*
If you wanna be first, fine, take it.
Not like I give a damn. Since you can't be first, please don't take it out on me you bastard. It's not I who snatched it away from you, it's your inability to take it from yours truly.
So, heed me. Work harder, and please, don't bother me with your little jealousy. Stop bugging me! I think you're too bothered over by being much more...well, to not put it that harshly, inferior than me.
Yes, that's all I can tell ya. Give it your best and be contended already.
I decided to give a try on Plurk (: It seems fun! It's a website that provides communication with friends all over the net! It even provides a tagboard like widget to place your thoughts and feelings! And you can get responds too. Although you must sign up too la.
Lalala~ so I placed a plurk on my sidebar for my thoughts and stuffs like that, that's too short for a blog entry. (:
Met mal for lunch, and after that, headed to the community centre in Bedok for a karaoke session with dang, fang and k. Hahaha it's one hell of a fun session...After that, had dinner at Botak Jones, the wait is hell. 40minutes plus for the food to arrive!! In the end, went home at 9 plus, rushed back to simei to buy food for mum. Wanted to take the bus and sleep but...>_>"
I'm gonna summarize it just like this! And I won dang in dj max hohohoho! Ok, gonna think of a wishlist...but don't I already have a wishlist at the sidebar? o.o"
Well, I really do ponder about this because I heard JN asking me, "How nice if I'm as rich as *insert here*! Then I can be happy and with no worries!"
Maybe it is true. If I had money, I can do alot or stuffs that I can't do now!
I can travel more often, I can buy stuffs, do stuffs, without having to ponder over it for days/weeks/months before giving up on buying it. I can actually go overseas to get my degree after this diploma without worries. [Actually, I'm now panic over the 3.8GPA for local uni ok?!] I can get a bigger house, bigger room, more books, furnitures!
Most importantly, I wouldn't have to ask money from my parents! Whenever I ask money from them...the guilt hits me. Dunno why.
Hell yeah money does make me feel so happy now. But as what this phrase would say, "Everything has two sides of view." Being rich, to the point of envy, admiration of others, doesn't mean that you could be happy.
Why? Simple. You wouldn't really know friends around you are really friends or not. Oh I've seen alot of cases where...you're rich! I'm friends with ya! You're in a hard patch now, ciao babeh! Since when are you my friend scenarios. Money can't buy love? In this current society, money can buy love. But it isn't really called "love" anymore. When love comes to be involved with monetary issues, it'll be so touchy and....you get the idea that it wouldn't be called "real/true/destiny/fate" whatever.
Yeap. Money has it's pros and cons. But for now, the current state, money = happiness.
Maybe the future it'd be not, but who knows? --- Have you ever felt bad when you did your best in everything, yet sometimes, the result you get back just doesn't felt like "You've really done your best?"
Grr. I'm feeling this everytime I did my best, and I didn't get the results expected.
One example: A.Maths. I did so much, yet I didn't get the result I wanted. Damn it. Everytime I get back A.Maths paper I always feel so depressed. Because I know I give it my best, yet my best is just like that. Borderline.
But nevertheless, I felt happy that I got B3 for my O's. Rawr. I almost wanted to strangle myself when I get B3 for E.Maths. WTH can. I feel more depressed when I see the TPJC students maths result. I'm the only one with B3 for A.Maths and E.Maths. The rest is either A2/A1. WTF. It's that point where I realised I'm in a place where I shouldn't be in. I've stepped into a wrong territory. It's like a Lvl 20 char stepping into a Lvl 70 area. Total mismatch.
The standard doesn't suits me. I can only score A's for chem in there. And it's sadistic that I am a know-it-not-all when using graphical calculator. Others use 5mins to complete one question, I need 30minutes just to know how to use that fucking calc.
Oh please let me be smarter in using gc.
I hate itttttttt. Give me the expected results when I tried my best. Argh. Maybe it's this characteristic that makes me feel bitter when I see geniuses around me. Ok la not bitter, but more of a, "I know you're smart but please stop the oh-I'm-high-and-mighty-and-better-than-all-of-you attitude."
I can't stand these type of people. Just makes me feel like strangling them over and over again until they vomit white stuff out and their eyes pop-out.
Oh well. I've vented my frustrations.
I've also decided on one colour. Light brown, or maybe a little dark red?
Bon Voyage to Phaddeus who's flying off tmr to Shanghai for 8 days.
Does that sounds weird? Haha. No one accompany me go starbucks for 8 days. Sob. Why oh whyyy!!! D:
FF8 is fun~ Gonna chiong finish Disc 1. (Actually, already completed 70% of it >_>) I love the New York Cheesecake! Yummy. CHEESY. That's the best! Gonna buy a jacket from IP Zone tomorrow maybe. I need one. Urgently!
有时候，总会觉得，遥远的梦想，才能算得上是真正的梦想。因为，梦想不可能那么容易就实现的吧。
回忆，总是那么的甜蜜，又那么的心酸。
-I saw you smiling at me, was it real, or just my fantasy?- Eyes On Me - Faye Wong
Haha. Wallie definitely sounds better than wall-e =p
So I went to watched Wall-E with Phad yesterday (Gosh I'm so fatigue yesterday), and overall, it isn't that boring, yet it isn't that exciting too. But it sure brings a very important message to the viewers! And yes, after that Babylon A.D. movie, I am more prone to sleeping if the movie is boring.
Save the Earth!
Basically, this show only have less than 30minutes of conversation going on! The most two words I've listened to in this movie is...
"Wall-E" and "Eva". I'm amazed is that, how can Earth's population be that less? Yeah, it's full of mystery.
Sum it all up, it's worth a watch.
Story: 4.5/5 (Why not! Save the Earth!) Acting: 3.5/5 (It's only full of animation, and it's well done. I like the short flim "Presto"! Visuals: 4/5 (Graphics is damn nice, just like previous Pixar's movie.) Sound: 3/5 (Apparently better than Babylon A.D.) Overall: 4/5
Hahahaha. In the end instead of acting indifferent, I actually blasted off at him! Yeah...even though harsh words do get exchanged and both of us was hurt by those words, but that's what makes everything better afterwards. I guess.
Did anyone felt that screaming and shouting is actually a very irrational act?
I do, because, for me...being rational = being calm. Yeah, that's surely a weird definition.
At least we started talking today morning. (: But sigh...who knew that his constant complaints about his life could make me feel irritated even though I actually wanted to not care, or should I say, I don't really give a damn? as it's like "everyday matters" to him.
And he even disturbed meeeeeeeeeeee when I'm playing FF8 at 2ammmm. Even called somemore >_>"
RAWR. Complaints couldn't really solve anything.
Oh well. At least he now knows that I don't give a damn about his life. And yeahhh, we're still friends but he knows I hate what he does now, so I feel better.
Yay *Goes back to play FF8*
Anyone knows where can I get a suitable present for girls? That isn't that expensive?
That's the way I am now, before I do something irrational towards you. It may seem cold and cruel, but that's to prevent me from doing something to hurt someone.
Haha. This is a male and he looks like a female! Maybe because all the previous drawings I've drawn are females?!?! Haha. Nevertheless, I'd give him a name! 祐魅! Although I not sure the romanji is what~ but heck care!
I think I'm really addicted to amatsuki >_>" The eyepatch is from the idea of tokidoki...clothing is the other ayakashi...lunch! Byeeee!
Hahaha. Collecting passport is damn fast. And the new passport, the cover feels so hard now. The identity page is like a card. But I still prefer my old passport. ):
After collecting the passport, dad drived me to a noodle store. Ok la, the noodles is nice, sauce is full of the smell of mushroom, but the fatty meat is quite bland. Overall, it's still yummy. Then I alighted at Eastpoint, and after buying some pencils...stoned outside the book rental shop, and saw Fang and Alicia.
In the end, went back to ccss to slack and waste time. The dnt office is still as comfy as ever! And the school provide the dnt staff teachers a new tablet pc leh! White in colour and cool. Makes me want a tablet pc too!
After that, accompany fang with Alicia to makan, saw Iman and xq on the way. Then we waited for nz to arrive, then walked home with Alicia while Fang and nz went to their F1 training.
Next monday or thursday going to kbox. Haha.
I'm still contemplating! About the semester...sigh.
What should I do?
I wonder how ,I wonder why Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky... And all that i can see is just a yellow lemon tree.
Went to catch Babylon A.D. preview screening with mt, cheryl and her friend. Cheryl also won the tickets! And it's thanks to nuffnang that we got the tickets. Free seating somemore! (:
But apparently, the movie isn't that interesting. I slept during the starting and the ending. And guess what woke me up actually? The starting engine of one care inside the movie >_>" I didn't really get to enjoy the movie because:
1.It is too cold (comfortable) 2.The movie sound effects is way to exaggerating. (Imagine even starting of a car engine is loud enough to wake me up.) The machine gun/missle scenes is also too loud. I actually felt like using my hands to cover my ears. 3.The ending of the movie is abrupt. It just felt like, the story could be explained more, yet they ending it quickly, till I didn't really understand it. (Although it's partly my fault because I slept.
But there's some things I really do enojyed.
1.The sci-fi factor. The buildings seems damn nice with the advance of technology. Not mentioning the house Toorop, Aurora and Rebeka stayed in NY. 2.Action is as usual nice, but it isn't that thrilling or exciting. 3.Storyline isn't good. It's just, escorting Aurora to NY, with an abrupt ending to top it all off, which makes it worse.
So overall, I thank nuffnang for this movie screening, and yes, I only recommend this movies to Vin Diesel fans, or maybe, action film fanatics.
Ratings: Story: 2/5 Acting: 3/5 Visuals: 3.5/5 (I only like how NY looked, and omg the movable map!) Sounds : 2/5 (Too loud to be enjoyable. Maybe it's the theatre's fault but...) Overall: 2.5/5
Yeap. That's my score for this movie. Actually it's the lowest in all of the action movies I've ever watched.
Fact's I've found:
>Mos Burger milk tea is freaking nice. Mos Burger meal is good! I love the sauce. >Isetan supermarket is good! You can get Japan instant noodles there. >The bakery in the supermarket sells yummy chocolate coronet! The chocolate sauce in it is so chocolaty! >Bread is not recommended to put overnight without proper care. I went to the toilet thrice after consuming it. T_T
Went home and immediately slept, waking up facing the wrath of my mum. Haha.
Ok, gonna stop here, going to collect my passport, and dad will be fetching me. *jumps* Yay...no need to cram in the train, and I'm still quite tired. D:
Secondhand Serenade songs are actually quite good. I've lent the cd from my sis, and placed all the songs into my laptop (:
So far the song I like most is Why.
The buttons on my phone are worn thin I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in. But I've broken all my promises to you I've broken all my promises to you.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me?
A phrasing that's a single tear, Is harder than I ever feared And you were left feeling so alone. Because these days aren't easy Like they have been once before These days aren't easy anymore.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me.
I should have known this wasn't real And fought it off and fought to feel What matters most? Everything That you feel while listening to every word that I sing. I promise you I will bring you home I will bring you home.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me.
---- Because everything aren't the same anymore. And I'm always waiting.
I've realised why I hate odd numbers. Because, there's always someone extra. And that makes it unbearable.
Sometimes old animes is always the best. Damn. Woke up quite early, so I managed to watch Fushigi Yuugi Episode 50! Haha. I like the last 3 episodes of the main series...then I remembered there's a total of 3 OVA (Although I don't like the last OVA.).
So I went to watched all of the OVA's at tudou, and currently downloading Fushigi Yuugi OVA 1, 2 and the main series for keeping. Think gonna take days to complete.
Ahh~ It's the only anime that includes romance/fighting that really makes me want to rewatch, and no matter how many times, I still won't get sick of it! Really recommended for you to watch!!
I wanted the OVA's DVD, but it's kinda out of print already. Yeahhhh. Ancient. I only watched the final OVA 2 years ago. Heard that there's a Fushigi Yuugi game coming out. Wow. But nevertheless, it's a famous anime! Haha.
Favourite character in that series would definitely be Tatsuki and Chichiri! Damn cute la both of them! xD Especially when Chichiri appears with tama! xD
Tada!
CUTE! Hahaha.
Okay...gonna watch rave! HOHOHOHO. I love it when haru changes swords when fighting xD
The swim didn't make me feel better at all. It just made me think about stuffs which I didn't want to know. I just felt like, "Is that too much to ask for?" during the swim. I tried to forget by swimming all the time, yet it didn't work that well.
So, to sum it all up, it just backfired straight right back into my face.
After that, went to have LJS for dinner. Yc had a serious headache. Sigh. He should really take care and sleep early for today.
Went home, too tired, slept.
Being woke up by shouting, screaming, banging. And to top it all, with a severe splitting headache. Couldn't stand it anymore, went out to the nearby playground and sat in the rain. I just couldn't understand anymore.
If you asked me "How was your day?"...I'd just say...
"Fuck you. Asshole."
Argh.
Everything doesn't seem to go my way...everything...at least give me something that goes my way for once...Just once, I really need someone beside me now. I'm ready to bare everything out...I really just want someone to be beside me now...
This is the first time I felt that dejected, the first time that I wanted to cry, yet no tears came out...
I haven't watch camp rock yet. Damn it! Yc is coming to my house in an hour time, so I woke up this early haha. Today schedule is with him for the whole day lolz.
After coming to see my cards, watching Make It Happen again. (Practially half the fault is mine, because of the stomach-ache, I didn't actually pay much attention to the show, rather to my stomach. Ouch.)
Then we'll go swimming at his house! Yeah. The main aim is the pool laaaaaa.
Stress relief is always done in the pool. Heh. Somehow, closing my eyes and sink into the pool is a very good way of stress relief! Makes me wonder why. Maybe it's because you can't really hear anything else than the sound of the water makes in the pool?
Hahaha. I ain't gonna think of anything else already.
Tomorrow going out with mt for the Babylon A.D. screening @ Orchard. Can't wait.
When I seem ok, I ain't ok at all. I just keep all the pent-up stress inside me after all. (:
Haha. This thing happened during a conversation with dang.
::Haru:: 「Que sera sera.」-Memories of you are haunting me.- says: ehhh why not we make one post laaa list out 20 requirements u want ur other half to acceptt hahaha sure damn funn ☆-Secret Code- || http://bittar-choco.blogspot.com 囧 + +~ says: -o-'''' oso can HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
---- So here's my 20 requirements. 1.Reading/watching Yaoi. (Come on, I'm watching, not being one!) 2.Able to forgive me choosing my favourite anime over her (30min only =x) 3.Not lying to each other. (Honesty is the best policy in love.) 4.Not going out alone with a guy. (Of course.) 5.Able to forgive me forgetting to sms her when I'm busy. (But I can MSN her.) 6.Going dutch for stuffs. (I am financially restrained ok.) 7.Not accompanying her 24/7. 8.Carry her handbag. (For goodness sake I'm a guy!) Plastic/paper bags are a-ok. 9.Appearance. (You like me, please accept me for how I look! Duh!) 10.Serious in the relationship. (What for having one when you are not serious at all?) 11.Love and being loved back. (It's the basics right?) 12.Being able to be friends even after breaking up.(Ok depends on the situation.) 13.Watching porn. (Ok I really can't think much after number 11.) 14.Going out with friends without her. (Unless she willing lah.) 15.Choosing friends over her sometimes. (Not all the time.) 16.Listen to me when I explain things rationally. (You can debate with me.) 17.Not saying "I Love You". I can't express that out easily face to face ok! Pish. 18.My family. 19.When breakup, I want a reason. 20.Contacting with my ex. (Not going out alone, cause ex's are also friends.)
And hell yeah, I realli crapped up after 11 except for number 17 n 18. You like me, you must also like my family. That's the basics right? (: ---- Changed song to Je T'Aime by kelly sweet. It's a sweet song indeed. xD
The privilege of being the friend of the one you love : Staying by their side.
Feelings and emotions is just at the lips, yet I can't say out. I can't write out.
There's too much I want to say, yet I can't. Because I know, once I say it out. Everything will change.
So. Fuck that.
Book.
@ 10:09 PM
What happens when you pick up a good book to read?
I actually experience such feelings today while reading Junjou Romantica. I wonder what got to me. Maybe it's those feelings, those emotions the characters felt, the events the characters experience, and some whatnot.
You start to read, and when you're so deep into the book, you continue reading, not wanting to place it down for a break. Yet, somehow in the middle you found out, at the pace you're reading, the book is ending soon. You want to read more, yet you don't want it to end.
Sigh. Contradicting right. But I still read finish 9 books in 6 hours. Because I want to savour the story.
I do regret reading all in one go. >_>" Damn it laaaa. I feel so emotional now!
I hate it lor...whenever I read too much shoujo mangas in one go, I get so emotional. Then I get those sad dreams.
And now you see me, getting so worked up when in relationships. Haha. Maybe because I've read too much, known too much, to feel this much.
From all three stories, romantica, terrorist and egoist, I learned something.
If you want the other party to know your feelings, it's better to tell them straight out. You can't get the other party to know what you're feeling just by standing there.
Rated out of 3 stories: Romantica is the best! (Misaki is cute. Usagi too!) It's a hard decision for egoist and terroist.
But...I decided on egoist for second. Hiro and Nowaki is damn funny when they get together. Their relationship usually ends up at the verge of breakup, but I think that's what make me feel their relationship to be the most realistic out of the three stories.
Egoist is funny, and shinobu with miyagi is well...how to put it...their *ahem* scene is hot. Their relationship is still really, full of fireworks?! (Uh lemme try to revise that next time.)
-Extract from my livejournal- Ask me for password if you want cause most of the sensitive post is locked for my own viewing pleasure.
---- "If you really love her, you would be happy just seeing her being happy."
Yeah, it's one hell of a bullshit. I ain't a great saint. I love her, I want her to be happy, yet...I want to be with her. I want to be the one who could make her happy. I want to be the one who give her happiness. Not any other Tom, Dick or even a Harry! Argh.
Yeah. Love is complicated, and it isn't simple to begin with. ----
Haha. Chatting with mt on msn. She did mention that, "girls think with their brains, men think with their you-know-what." Hence I decided to invent something you know. So fun!
M18 content. Just for laughs. And it's my opinion only, not facts.
Introducing the, hole-for-the rods! One try $2! DEFINITELY SATISFY YOUR SEXUAL NEEDS. BETTER DEN DOING IT YOUSELF RIGHT?! However, the following rules apply: 1.Please bring water to wash the hole after you've *ahem* relieved youself. 2.Please limit yourself to a 5minutes session max. There's alot of lonesome men needing this. 3.Don't go moaning loudly, even though we know you are very satisfied. 4.Please remember to show a proof that you've not contracted any STD, to prevent others from contracting it. 5.It is strongly adviced to use a condom, since some people might not know how to wash the hole throughly.
Anyone who violates these rules shall be blacklisted and doomed to doing DIY for 5 years. Only DIY should be used.
Well, after saying the holes, where will they be available at? The holes would be avail at walls, bridges, if possible, traffic lights! To show the long awaited humping the traffic light. so, remember to fill in the form to get your entry~! to the amazing hole! All the holes have fleshy-like walls to ensure maximum pleasure.
With this invention, maybe there would be reduced crime rates of molestation and raping, or indecent exposure.
Hahahahaha. Laughed till I almost worsen my stomach-ache.
I just won myself a pair of tickets to catch Babylon A.D., nuffnang community screening!
The movie screening will be held on Tuesday, 9 September 2008 @ Lido Cineplex, SHAW (Orchard), 7:30pm!
Anyone wanna catch that movie and is free on that day tell me! I'm searching for someone to accompany me to go!
Yay! Later going to Sunshine Plaza, fantuan says that one of her friend could help her get Kagamine Rin/Ren figurines! I'll try my luck to go there and find her friend. Damn it. Don't you find those twins cute? xD
Okay...gonna stop here...I'm too thrilled for words now!
Making passport is so fun now! Ok la, not that fun, apparently you just need to fill in a form, paste a passport size photo on the form, then go and pay via nets! If you don't pay via nets, must pay $10 more sia. Tsk. Govt fault. Ok forget I said that =p It's only my OPINION. (:
The fun part is onli meddling with the nets machine. (:
Yeah. Confirmed going overseas~ It's just to see which day only haha.
Very tired. After sleeping 7 hours, I still feel tired. Going to sleep soon. Nite.
Tomorrow schedule is so tight:
>>Watching Ghost Whisperer in the morning (Mum help me record, must watch finish tmr) >>Meeting dang in the afternoon to collect my Junjou Romantica Manga! OMG!!! >>Having dinner at 85 tomorrow (Most prob) >>Watching Make It Happen with Phaddie (Maaaaybe onli. His schedule I not sure la...)
The dates for me to fly is confirmed, either Sept 25 or 26, but I still nd to arrive at the airport at 25th sept. Makes no diff right?! Haha.
Amatsuki is nice (:
I'm addicted to reading Pinkpau's blog. I find her vocab and writing much nicer than other bloggers. Try reading it! Haha.
Okok! This is the picture of the forbidden fruit! Yaoi! [Yaoi: Boy/Boy relationship]
You must know, there's a story behind these picture...
Yesterday, dang sms-ed me to slack with her, and I woke up without having my dinner, so I went to meet her at Tampines Mall. When I'm having my dinner at Yoshinoya, she's busy drawing and editing the "I'm-not-drawing-Kanda-but-it's-Kanda" picture.
So after eating, while waiting for her to stop drawing, I turned on my laptop and started fiddling with photoshop elements. Then because I didn't really know how to make one picture prettier...so I look stumped.
Dang went to peek, and she told me her friend made a picture where a guy seems to be kissing another guy...using clone stamp. Then I proceeded to find a render to use, and I found this Sora render. (:
and we just clone clone until the lips touched. And started lol-ing.
So...I decided to finish these 2 pictures. Haha.
Dang. LAUGH MORE HAHAHA.
Nevertheless, I'm amazed that photoshop functions is so good. Gonna learn more :3
Yes. As what the topic says, recently, I've been having sleepless nights and only managed to sleep during the morning. This is bad.
It always happens whenever I have to make huge decision or I'm really, really freaking troubled by stuffs.
And this really messes up my bio-clock till I need at least 5 days to get it back to normal.
I'm proud of the fact that I only need 6 hours sleep and the fact that I can sleep late and wake up energised. But this would be taking a toll on me, and I realised that now. It always feels bad to find yourself staring into the darkness for hours and you can't get to sleep. It's much more worse when my parents wake up and gave me the worried face as "why I didn't sleep".
I didn't want to worry them necessarily, therefore I always lock my door, and pretended that I'm sleeping when they came in. But nevertheless, it always fails as they would know when I get an afternoon nap.
Afternoon nap = never sleep.
That's true for me, and they know it >_>" shucks.
Anyways, I really gotta rant this out!
Now I'm the one reprimanding myself as to why I didn't learnt to sleep early.
Last time I'm proud of staying up late, now I'm admiring those who sleep early and wake up early.
Perspectives and situations do change eh?
*Leg is killin me. It hurts so badly*
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Edit: I revamped my DeviantArt account! It looks soooooooooo much betta xD
I posted what I drew at early in the morning 2.30am on there. Damn at first when I finished the face I thought it's eerie. Dang agreed too hahaha! And hell, it took me an hour to finish the body below the head(You get the idea). School uniform (:
Pitimy commented that :"i think its cool no..i mean...its awesome x3"
OMG I REALLY APPRECIATE IT! THANK YOU! YOU'RE THE FIRST TO COMMENT AND YOU SAID THIS!
Woke up damn early (and only slept around 3hrs !@#$ it.), decided to pack up the room, and I packed till I'm more awake than sleepy. -.-"
Let me dig up a pic I taken and posted last time...Oops blogger don't allow me to post it up. Lemme try again...
---- Practically my internet has disconnected me three times while I'm trying to do this post so I'm so pissed off right now.
Fark. the 4th time again.
Not the 5th time! Man!! I think I better scan my laptop.
Amazingly, I can use msn and download stuffs, but I can't USE the INTERNET to SURF.
Grr.
And the surroudings aren't that nice too me either. So noisy. What's with the noise in the morning argh. ----
After
Ok let's continue.
So, now I have an available workspace for me to do my writing, and another space for me to place my laptop for surfing. Yeah! Multi-tasking! (But too bad, I'm not multi-tasking that often, and I believe it's hard to pay full attention while multi-tasking.)
And, I find it more spacious now. Rather than having four mountains of stuffs threathening to collapse on me anytime. Haha. But now, it's the stack of boxes near my wardrobe that seems to be collasping at any moment. Sigh.
Yes! I've decided to join in this Nuffnang community screening because I missed the previous one D: So here I'm trying my luck (:
Why would I wanna catch Babylon A.D.? Well, first and foremost, I love watching movies![Yeah, I'm lame, but that's the main point in catching movies right?] Secondly, it's an action/sci-fi movie, and action movies are one of my favourites! After watching the trailer, which is full of bombings, special cinematics effects, in a much more technologically advanced era with some scenic environment, I'm more interested in it! Vin Diesel is always a good actor in action movies, which is a plus point! And maybe though this screening, I could get to know more nuffnangers :3 (I do know it seems a little out-of-point though :x)
And yeap, this is my short paragraph of why I would want to catch Babylon A.D. =)
Woooo. I love this song by Duffy, called Warwick Avenue.
Completed watching P.S. I Love You at tudou yesterday, although they changed the story completely (Leaving some parts the same only), the movie is still nice. I cried at some parts. Sob. Poor Holly. ): Overall, it's a nice movie, but too short for my liking...
The movie is soooo nice. I love what Gerry wrote for his last letter!
"To me, you're my everything, but to you, I'm only a chapter of your life." Someday, we would have to get over some things, and move on with life. It's just not like, when something ends, your time ends at there.
Okok gonna stop writing about this movie. Later too emotional again D:
I woke up so late!! And I failed to pack my room today D: I shall try tomorrow (Argh I hate using tomorrow). Later going to see doc...and it's raining.
Oh! I decided to change my blog song to Warwick Avenue!
-Somehow, sometimes, I wish that you could just skip the honest bullshit, and lie to me to make me feel better.-
"When are you going to help me?" -> "Tomorrow." "When do you want to go see the doc?" -> "Tomorrow." "When are you deciding to clean the room?" -> "Tomorrow." "Today, so tired, tomorrow I'll then head out to buy stuffs."
Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, sometimes I do wonder, how many "Tomorrow" do I actually have? Why would I actually use tomorrow as an excuse, yet the next day, I'll use tomorrow as the same excuse to shift it to the next day, and in the end, I never get it done.
It's just like, I can assure that I have a tomorrow. Tomorrow is always available for me. Why is this so? Maybe because it's the laziness, because you know that there's always a tomorrow available. But what I never expected was, I didn't actually notice the uncertainty "tomorrow" brings.
Who knows what would happen tomorrow? Who knows what would happen later, who knows when life would end? Why shift everything you don't want to do to tomorrow, and yet another tomorrow?
I don't hate tomorrow. It's always a way to show that, you still live. You still have a tomorrow for yourself. What I hate is the uncertainty tomorrow brings. Who knows what will happen? Maybe I might get into an accident, maybe I might get lucky, it's the uncertainty that makes tomorrow scary.
Sigh.
How many "Tomorrows" do I have, before I find out that, I can't say tomorrow anymore? It's now then I realised, I have been using tomorrow for these 17 years for stuffs I don't wanna do. I used tomorrow to skip alot of stuffs.
And hell, I regret it now.
I really have to live life as much as possible, taking everyday not for granted anymore. Which is why, I dared to ask my parents for such a demand. I know they'd give me things I wanted, that's why I don't want to impose too much on them, even though I know I'd be loved unconditionally by them. Their love and kindness makes it somehow unbearable, knowing that I can't repay them, makes it twofold.
This is the chance I have, to go out to the world, to experience stuffs I wanted to do years ago. That's why, although it's expensive, I've finally decided to have a overseas trip with dang and her sis to Japan. I want to see more sights, hear more stuffs, experience stuffs and events that I've never seen before.
Yet, taking the first step is hard, after taking the first step would be harder.
That is because... ---- I'm way too sheltered in life.
Just like this picture, I'm like someone, who's inside the ferris wheel cabin (I think that's what I called it.), being sheltered too much. Because of safety, and my illness, I've been receiving too much care from my parents. Till I didn't know what it's like to be outside.
Or like this, where outside is dark, and inside, is full of warmth and brightness. Darkness, is just like the uncertainty I feel. It's dark, even when I reach out my hands, I don't know what I'd feel, touch, or grab.
That's why, I want to take this first step out, and experience everything I want to. ----
I aim to have pleasures in life, even a small tub of mint ice cream can make my day.
It seems like I'm so easy to be fulfilled and happy though. D:
But it's just me! Ha! To prevent excuses anymore, I've decided to clean my room tomorrow after making passport. (: I'm going to clean my table till it's not that messy anymore (: Wait and see muahahaha.
Found out that my room is full of books that are placed in a very, very messy manner. One slight touch could just cause a domino effect.
And that wouldn't be a very nice scene to see.
Must start to clean up a little. Must stop the "pack for what, in the end sure messy again." excuse.
With all the books around, I find my room to be small and cramped. I'm still trying to find the cards YC wanted. Ahhhhhhh.
I thought: "If I plan and actually pack my books and stuffs accordingly, plus some decorations, my room would look better and comfy, so that I won't really feel sick of it.
Gonna start packing tomorrow, find somemore boxes already. I'm going to revamp my room with some new stuffs I suppose.
But first, get some sleep and plan the stuffs. Haha.
Yippe! Got my Disgaea 3. Gonna start the "dood" fever again. >_>"
Been sneezing the whole day. Must be someone cursing me the whole day. pfft. :3
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How far can I go, without looking back?
Not far.
If I'm planning to go further, I must look back.
The mistakes,
The experiences,
The memories,
Are all needed to drive me further.
That's my way of life. (:
Yet...
Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again?
