What's with the you're supposed to teach me tone? Hello?

When you wanna ask for help or something, please at least be polite.

And, I also have my stuffs to do okay! It's not like I have the time of my life...I also need to study one lor.

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A few hours later there's a lecture quiz on the most dreaded module ever and I have 2 and a half more topics to go while it's already 1am. >_>"

I wanna sleep but I need to study!! ):

On a happier note, starbucks was flooded when I'm in there studying. gg luh.

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You want me to stop? After all of this, after all this freaking mess, you want me to stop?

No one stops. Not until everything is over. It's too late to stop. No one stops. NO ONE.

Once you drag me into this mess, you'll never ever get to stop until it's over.

Capiche?

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Yeah. I have a project discussion on monday, and it's about Bioethanol Production Technology. (:

So, I gotta do some parts of the project! Mainly, everyone is doing the Introduction and Literature Search, and we're gonna compile our research details on Monday. (Today is saturday, and I'm still having a little sore throat and fever.)

Kinda rushing the introduction and research, so that I can get as much rest as possible. But I'm trying to perfect the rush by skimming and taking important parts, but I guess it's not working as intended. ):

This is what I'm supposed to do:

-Briefly describe the Kyoto Protocol in terms of its objectives and key features, linking it to climate change.

-Briefly describe biofuel as a renewable source and how it can help reduce global warming and climate change, in particular, for bioethanol.

-Discuss the first generation bioethanol technology and its negative environmental impacts.

-Describe the various technologies for second generation bioethanol production.

-Your search should address the following points: biomass feedstock, products, pre-treatment/post treatment and resource utilization and environment impacts etc.

): ): ):

So many stuffs and I'm only doing the second part now. I sure hope that I can finish everything by 4pm ):

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Any tips in doing that? Already spent 3 hours lying ard and couldn't get to sleep.

Sigh, I wanna sleep!

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Things I did today to keep my mind in a state of peace:

1.Immersed myself in reading.
Phase 1 - Notes...couldn't even make it.
Phase 2 - Novels...can't find one to keep my attention on.
Phase 3 - Manga...same as above.
Phase 4 - Forum chats...managed to make me read attentively for like 30minutes and that's it.

Spacing out the whole day with fearful thoughts.

2.Hunt for pictures,videos,music.
Didn't work out as well, and got me frustrated. Thanks to megaupload.

3.Pangya Lucky Pouches.
Roro told me she got kitty ring in my taggyboard. Now I'm emo-ed. I'm willing to trade Nuri and Max's Snowflake set for it ): Me wants extra bonus gauge and pretty effects ):

4.Anime
Managed to watch one episode of Hidamari Sketch, and I've decided to pick up Umineko and watch it again.

5.Games
Logged into pangya. 5minutes later, out I go.

6.TV
Only managed to keep my mind off when I'm watching 想握你的手.

And all these still couldn't keep myself from the fear and anxiety I'm feeling. Maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe these things that happens doesn't indicate anything, but now, at 1.35am, I'm still sitting here, unable to sleep.

I know, it's weird to be not able to sleep when the next day you're going to do a blood test + checkup, but...I just tend to have the fear in me. I know I should be afraid when I get the results, but I am afraid now and I think I'll still not be able to go to sleep before the day the results come out.

I just can't find myself spilling out my fear and anxiety to anyone, so I'm using this blog as a medium to get these thoughts out. Maybe after that, I'd feel better.

Maybe, just maybe, I should stop thinking. But I just find it weird not to think about anything at all. Maybe that's just how my mind works. Just can't stop thinking for a moment. Ha. Talk about a weird characteristic.

Oh well, I guess I should just go and bathe and try sleeping. Better than stilling here, staring at the computer I guess.

There's something that kept my attention for 3 hours. This game. Below.

Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep Opening

I'm ACTUALLY tempted to spill out my savings for a new psp just for this game.

Because I can't play it with a custom firmware. Even if I have the UMD I suppose.

Imagine not having a patch for this game even when the English version came out. I'll be so BAWWWWWWed.

Recommend you to watch this video if you're a KH fan :D But I bet most KH fans have already watched this video.

I actually liked the remix version of hikaru/simple and clean better than the original version.

Hmm. I've actually thought of future jobs I can do. I actually like kids now. In the past I'll cringe when a kid is around me. But now...I actually find babies and little kids cute. Maybe because I'm envious of their innocent ways.

Once you grow up, I guess that innocence does fade away. Because you'll understand stuffs that you wouldn't when you're a kid.

I am trying to find out can a diploma in Chemical Engineering get a job as a teacher?

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Life isn't sugar and rainbows...

Life isn't exactly as harsh as a famine or a drought...

But life is just as suffocating as I feel.

It is so suffocating.

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Just went to catch Couples Retreat with ben and junhui, and 2 hours later my mountain bike was being stolen. Wtf. I shall curse that person who stole my bike, that he'd wish that he'd be better off dead. (:

It's only 4 days old you know! Went home, and cried. Sigh.

Only comforting thing that happened later is that...

I told my mum I've saved enough for...the FF13 PS3 bundle. (:

250GB :D YAYYYYYY. Best xmas evah! Sigh. I'm getting sleepless over the bike though...

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Splurged on this 2 items! Assassin's Creed II is definitely fun! It's seriously a great stress reliever. Today, had a great day of helping to choose Karilynn's present. Karilynn! Enjoy your present okayyyyyy??! :D

Fang! I'm seriously sorry that I remembered your birthday wrongly again...why do I keep on mixing your birthday and Cheryl's birthday up?!?! T_T *uber guilty*

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Be forewarned. This would be another one of those sadistic post, that might get some of you irritated and all, so don't read it if that's what you'll be feeling in the end.
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Ever heard before, a proverb called "ignorance is bliss?"

Well, just for those who don't know what that means [well, very little chance of that happening.], it's a saying that means, "Not knowing something is often more comfortable than knowing it." or, "What you don't know can't hurt you."

So, I totally learned what does ignorance is bliss meant today. I just wish I could forget what my mum told me, but I just can't. Because, it's just so important and so...sad, to know it.

She said that my dad might not be able to drive anymore in a few years time. That's what got me into thinking after dinner. It's time that I should plan out my future, for better or for worse.

I guess if I do graduate, I suppose I might go to work instead of pursuing my studies anymore. Because, who knows what would happen? I live my life by preparing with my best resources while expecting the worse outcome of every thing. I dare not to hope for the best for it will never happen when I think like that.

When I imagined the worst, well...I practically did, it was definitely not pleasant. My mum just told us now to think too deep, but is it possible not to think too deep, when it concerns about money?

It's the basic necessity to live in this country, or should I say, the world?

So I guess I'll have to cut down on everything, and anything that costs too much...but no matter what, I'll still keep the promises I've kept.

Makes me wonder when people says that "rich people have their own problems too..."

What other problems would be so much worse than having no money at all? At least it covers your basic needs. Fuck those rich people.

And, I guess kindness doesn't really begets kindness after seeing all my evil relatives getting richer and richer, and being snobs against us.

Seriously, why should we suffer when they're the ones that should? Can someone just tell me how does this fucking world works?

P.S: I won't be online too much now, so just try to contact me via hp. Sry if I didn't reply anyone messages today, because I seriously was not in the mood to.

P.P.S: I guess it's true that I think too much, but that's how I work. Sigh. I guess more hair dropping and less sleeping is going to happen for these few weeks.

P.P.P.S: I still want to watch 2012 and Gokusen, btw.

P.P.P.P.S: I think playing games to take my mind off matters isn't working as good as it is a few years back. Why?

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2 things happened today that made me go WTF twice >_>"

1. Stupid Pangya decided to have an database network problem when I'm in a pretty good luck today in getting -30 in Blue Water. Before I could get to press that facking Tiki Report, I got dced. DAMMIT.





2.Spent 300k and get a red bag with no tails. FACK IT.

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October is a month of spending. November is a month of more spending. December I shall stay at home for xmas already lolz.

current games in my "want" list ><"

-Uncharted 2 (PS3)
-Demon Souls (PS3)
-Cross Edge (PS3)
-Dragon Age Origins (PS3)
-Magna Carta II (Xbox 360)

Sigh. BROKE LE LA. BUDGET PLANS AREN'T WORKING AT ALL!

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Literally. Mentally and Physically.

Sigh. Why am I damn moodless during this month?

P.S: Thanks mt for the Skip Beat bk 1-5! ^^

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I'm seriously having a bad mood right now, where even a slight hint of irritation would cause me to flare up and get all pissed off.

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Yeah. Apparently, I still could not find any nice, high definition pictures for my header (yeah yeah, after seeing how HD stuffs look like on tv I fell in love with HD picture okay whatever la.)

So, I print screened off a HD picture out of a HD video in youtube which apparently still looks crappy. ):

Clickity click.

The picture is from the previous Tales of Vesperia OP video I posted [If you do bother to look at it.]

So I spent 30minutes, yet 30minutes to spoof it up better a bit to use it as my header.

Final result:

Clickity click click.

Which I made it look a little more dreamy-like with the blurs and brighter contrast. I think I've lost touch with my photo-shopping skills. Recently I'm in a state of:

"I want to do my best but I don't feel like it at all."

Maybe it's because I get swayed easily by my mood and my emotions. Whenever I feel gloomy, sad, lonely, emotional, I just don't feel like doing anything. And it just feels like everything doesn't go my way.

Every little mistakes makes me feel mad, every little interruptions make me flare up.
Every little disappointment becomes 10 times bigger, every little happiness becomes 10 times smaller.

Yeah. I'm such a pessimist.

So, this post:

Started with how I found my blog header,
to how I improved it, yet still looks like crap,
to how I don't feel like trying my best in everything,
to how emotional and bummed up I feel right now,
to how I complain about those crap around me,
to how I'm such a pessimist,
to now I'm feeling less better than just now.

Even getting -32 in lost seaway doesn't feel that nice ):

Oh well. Gonna get some sleep, and hope that with a new day, I feel better than today. (Which is still today, cause it's past midnight. Oh bummer.)

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What the hell is wrong with these people?! It's my grandmother funeral, and they act like...what, two sects? It's fine if you don't wanna talk to us, but please. At least keep it in discreet.

Do they really think that, it looks nice to people, when they see such scenes? The atmosphere is so awkward. For goodness sake. Can't you just put all those personal feelings away just for a few days? It's a funeral, something important you know!

Bleedin assholes. Sigh. I miss my grandmother.

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tan A = sin A/cos A
cot A = cos A/ sin A = 1/tan A
sin(A-B) = sinAcosB - cosAsinB
sin(A+B) = sinAcosB + cosAsinB
cos(A+B) = cosAcosB - sinAsinB
cos(A-B) = cosAcosB + sinAsinB
tan(A+B) = tanA + tanB/ 1- tanAtanB
tan(A-B) = tanA - tanB/ 1+ tanAtanB
cos A = 2sin(A/2)cos(A/2) = 2cos^2(A/2)-1 = 1-2sin^2(A/2)
sin A = 2sin(A/2)cos(A/2)
tan A = 2tan(A/2)/1-tan^2(A/2)
sin 2A = 2sinAcosA
cos 2A - cos^2 A - sin2A = 2cos^2 A - 1 = 1 - 2sin^2 A

God there's still more and I'm sick of proving identities already. Hmph. Shall have a swim tomorrow to calm myself down T_T. I'm stuck with maths, physics and chemistry...and some electricity...

I definitely need the motivation I had during sec 3 and 4, but where is it? It's time to find it again. (:

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