Moon River...
Sunday, August 31, 2008 @ 3:42 AM
Moon River - Andy Williams

Moon River, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
You dream maker
You heartbreaker
Wherever you're going
I'm going your way

Two drifters off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end
Waitin' round the bend
My Huckleberry friend
Moon River and me

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Nice song.

I just made 2 winter header, with totally opposite meanings, and dang said both of them are not nice at all. Sighhh. Mebbe I should work harder in finding better pics.

Showing it here first. (:

Bokura ga Ita theme:


Honey and Clover theme: (Used as blog bg before.)


Here's the most saddening one, yet the quality is not good. Pfft.





For most of you who didn't know, Rika (Girl in Pic) is the character I find really sad in this anime. Her husband died in a car crash, while she's driving, but only she survived. She wanted to die after finishing the business projects her husband left behind...but I think she changed her mind after what happened between her and Mayama in season 2.

-Treasure what you have, for you never know when it'll be gone.-

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Haha.
Saturday, August 30, 2008 @ 11:43 PM
Been there did that...legs on strike again!

(:

I'm tired of all the stuffs happening. Having slight fever and flu now. Legs are sore. Mebbe because I walked 1hr and 30mins before reaching home. Didn't know walking could make my legs go on strike.

Tomorrow gonna hunt for Disgaea 3 again. Oh I want Wild Arms 5 now.
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Friday:
Went back to CCSS, met up with some teachers, talked with some friends, gay-ed awhile with Andrew(we're just friends haha.), then because of hearing some *not-so-good quality* concert, left early with k and fang to 18chefs to have lunch! And we saw signatures galore man! Haha. I spotted some signatures that belongs to people we know!

Oh the Tangy tomato with sausages baked rice is nice. Lemon tea is just lipton tea with lemon in it though D:

After that, went home awhile before rushing to cs to find no more Cyborg She, den met mt at mrt station platform, went to downtown east to buy tickets, then acc her to have her lunch, then called dang to meet at Tampines mrt platform and we headed to Tiong Bahru for Cyborg She.

Movie is quite lol and touching at the end, but it gets quite confusing for the time travelling part, but I understand it (: At least in my way of interpreting, it's still nice. End.

Acc dang to Eastpoint to find her illustrator, but it's not in stock, and never will.
(Makes me rmb of Disgaea 3, in stock, but not on shelf.) Pfft.

Went home, slacked, had the best dinner after months, went out again at 10. Slacked at the superdog (I think) at e-hub drinking iced mocha(Recommend it, the choco taste is quite nice.), while reading "By The Time You Read This". It's damn nice. (:

Met mt, jh and her friend, Vanessa to watch the movie. Bad experience. screaming fangirls behind us.

Walked-home. Reached home at 3.30am. Slept at 5am with the lights on and damn it. Why can't the lights off themselves when I don't need it? =p

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Junhui story:

haha! so nice! anyways i tell you story! A likes B but B and C are together. however, A doesnt want to give up, and starts to make lies abt them being together. and in the end, other people such as D, E and F found out, and they laughed. so the qns is, how desperate can A get? LOL!
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Note to myself: When watching Jap movie with hot/good looking guys in a theater with fangirls, bring some popcorn or throwable stuffs. Those freaking fangirls behind me while watching Hana Yori Dango F was squealing and talking all the time.

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Funnn. In some sense?
Friday, August 29, 2008 @ 1:27 AM
Well, today stoned at home for most parts of the day, because I'm waiting for dang to sms me wad time to meet. Upon waiting till 2pm, I panicked. So I smsed her...spammed her msn at 3pm...and called her at 5pm...oh! She finally picked up the phone! And she said call me back in 5mins time.

So I waited...and she smsed me say cannot go alr. Because she forgot her mum is going wif her to challenger to buy ps + illustrator. Bummer. 她放了我的飞机。

Haha. So I'm quite 不爽 for awhile while chatting with her. humphh. In the end, she asked me to go out to slack at 8pm. Hahahahaha. So I met her~ and went to check out see whether Disgaea 3 is out already anot.

Well, apparenlty it's out, but it's hard for it to appear on the shelf. So I only bought the guide book. Apparently I have the guide yet I don't own the game now. Boo!

After that, slacked at mac and tried my 2nd drawing using proportions. Turned out ok only. -.-"

Oh! And fang smsed me and I told her dang missed her and she's beside me at the mo.

And we crapped like...

F:What are you two doing outside at this point of time?!
M:Doing something you shouldn't know...
F:You think I believe you?!

Hahahaha. Ok la. She said that she didn't really feel like going back to CCSS tmr, so I told her to hypnotise herself into believing that a bunch of handsome dudes are waiting for her at CCSS tmr hahaha.

Currently, I'm quite addicted to 蜂蜜幸运草(台湾版).

Apparently, it's much more better than the jap version. First time you know! That Taiwan Dramas are better compared to jap version (Provided they make the same series). They actually do follow the storyline (Partly)...and I think that the characters look quite the same (Morita still do the silly stuffs >_>"). But one thing I didn't like is...

They didn't really brought out the bittersweet part of this series. As in, those sad scenes, I couldn't really sense the sadness you know...or the bittersweet relationship between Mayama and Yamada.

But nevertheless, it's still really lol, especially they included the part where Morita is singing...Haha! Recommended to watch for laughs, but not for tears. HnC did made me cry, esp the r/s btwn Mayama, Nomiya and Yamada. Damn it! It's complicated.

Woots. Although it's hard to say since I've only reached the 3rd episode, but I love their OP. (:

Ok, gonna go back to watch HnC Live Action. Ciao!

-There's no place like home. As if.-

P.S: Dang's new nickname. 卷卷! Hahaha. Cause she told me that her hair if nvr reborn is natural curllllll. Hahahahahaha.

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Breakdown. Tears. Feelings.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 10:09 PM
After watching Money No Enough 2 with dang and phad, really had alot to think about. Haha. Anyways, reached home. Did some talk with mum, about family, friendships, problems. I really felt better.

Mum did give me a choice...since because of what's happening in the family, I wasn't in the mood of doing anything at all, and I really wasn't in the state of going back to school. (Trust me on that, I'm having real weird mood swings.)

I dunno what to choose, but I certainly know what's happening in the family wouldn't end even when it reaches 2009. Even though mum did promise me, I doubt her, since what she have promised me haven't even come true. (Believe me, it already happened more than 10 times).

I'm really satisfied with my life (not current one), for the past 16 years.

I don't need any special stuffs, I just want to have fun in my life, I don't need all of my parents attention, their care, etc. What I want is just to enjoy life, complete my studies in peace, get a job, and it goes on and on. But...

I just couldn't complete my studies in this state.

What should I do?! *screams*

If these dull emotions could just dissappear without a word...
It would have been easy...

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Well...
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 @ 1:22 AM
Que Sera Sera.

-Whatever happened to fairytale endings?-

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Hate it hate it hate it!
Monday, August 25, 2008 @ 9:22 PM
Long post.

What can you do when you're mentally tired? It's a different case from physically tired. Rest, and you're up and ready again. You can't really rest due to mental fatigue.

And that's what been going on lately. However, being metally tired is bad. It makes you physically tired too.

What's more, what happened just now irritates me further. I went to see the doc, and not surprisingly, kids are around. Yes, kids. I don't have any dislike toward kids, I like their cuteness and being innocent, it's their privilege. But what I hate is noisy kids who goes crying, screaming, shouting in the small and cramped clinic.

Imagine the noise, the irritation of people trying to relax, once or twice the screaming is ok, but that fucking idiotic kid went screaming once in a few minutes and the parents didn't even really try to stop them from doing it, and I actually glared at the kid.

Nevertheless, kids will always kids. They dunno how to shut up. Bummer.

In addition, before my turn to go in, two teenagers went in. Apparently, I doubt that they're really sick. You know why? Because they actually ate packets of cuttlefish before going in. Who in the hell that's unwell would eat cuttlefish?! I think they just went in to chat with the doc. Although, if you'd like, you could give them the benefit of doubt.

Yeah. That's what made me more mad today. Currently in a bad mood.

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I did have some crazy thoughts.

What if, love have transformed into a business trade?

Scene: Let's take 2 people, B and T.

B and T went into a love trade. In layman terms, B gives T the love T needs, and T gives B the love B needs. If anyone finds it unsatisfactory, they could just stop it easily with no strings attached. (:

Isn't it better like this. But after I told JN this, he laughed and say...

"If you made it this way, how can love be considered as love?"

True. It just don't seem to be love it's like that, right? But somehow it makes love seem painless.
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Been thinking about this, pondering about this for days. But I ain't letting anyone know, but who cares, now I'm just typing it out.

Everyone in this world is just looking for love, peace, happiness, satisfaction right? I'm just one of that person too. But I'm not as normal as everyone is.

Firstly, I ain't attractive.
Secondly, I'm not good at conversations as others are.
Thridly, I'm not good around strangers. All you can see is me standing at one corner by myself until someone talks to me.

Most important point. I am super introvert around strangers. Cause I'm quite afraid that I might be bothering them or something like that.

So generally you can see that from all these points, my social circle is surely damn small!

I've already lost contact with a number of friends, and sometimes it's due to them just patronising me for most of the time. I hate patronisers. Haha.

But what I can say is, if I'm in a relationship that I'm sure about, I'd give everything. And of course, I'd also like the other party to give everything. No doubts, all of the trust.

I'm a guy who needs love. That's what it makes me hard to accept others that easily. I know that's a very bad point, but who doesn't need love in this world. Even those people who always say "I don't need love, I'm good being alone." also does need love. Stop being so aloof and denial about love! <- recently learnt to accept that.

So basically, if you like me, I'd expect love. That's most important right?

But if it's opposite, I'd not really expect that as it's me asking for a relationship right? So I doubt that you'd get to like me too. But if it's mutual, then it's a different case right?

Basically, if I can't actually find a tint of love in a relationship, I'd hesistate real badly. I don't wanna give hopes, yet I don't know how to say it. I don't know how you feel at all! That's the point where I start to hesistate, escape, avoid. I'd like to go into the topic, yet I don't know how. I don't want it to drag too, and it'd strain it more further in some sense.

The most important point is, if I can't find love in a r/s, I can't get committed and I can't find anything to hold on further. Committment is a problem for me, it always is. I always need a breather in a committment issue. Haha. But be assured. I'm always fainthful. (: Am not playboy materiallllllllllll hahahahahahahaha.

Heck, I can even quit 50% of my otaku-ness for love. Haha. Sacrifice alot le ok! =p

Most importantly, I can't be avail at your beck and call. Must see timing all those also. I can't hang out with anyone everyday, I have my stuffs and problems to settle too. Especially recently.

So, if you find it hard to accept, then I advise you better not to. Because I'm me. I can't change for anyone, I can't accodomate everyone wants and needs.

Haha. I still rmb what JN asked me, what if I see my gf hanging out with other guy intimately, very happy with him, just the two of them. He actually say I'm cold blooded you know. pfft. hate it.

Me: You give me the scenario is whereby I am walking, and I see them walking intimately/looking v.v.happy/enjoying themselves, and she looked more happier than being with me right?
JN: Yeah.
Me: Okay. *Thinks*
JN: *Stares*
Me: *Thinks more deeply*
JN: *Stares*
Me: Oh. Simple what. Look once, to confirm izzit her, den, walk past them, ignore them luh! Den from that day onwards, dun contact her already.
JN: WTH? You so cold blooded arh...you also dunno izzit she's cheating on you for the second case...
Me: What cold blooded? If she's much more happier being with HIM than with ME, what for should I hang onto her? If she's AFRAID that I get the wrong idea, she'd be contacting me, not me contacting her. If she didn't contact me at all, then I'll take it as she's cheating on me.
JN: *pause* ok.

And that ends the abrupt question posted by him. Apparently he's also under a "cold war" with his gf. Haha. Dunno why la. They have cold wars so often that if it happens between countries...imagine the catastrophe it would cause.

But it's true. I'd ignore and stop contacting. Maybe because if she's happier with him, why not let her be with him then? Haha. Maybe I'm just plain selfish in protecting myself. I'd just say that I'm not up to her expectations. :D

But overall, I'm looking for love, not to the extent of the one and only true love. (:

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Paradise Kiss
@ 6:39 PM
Finished watching 12 episodes of Paradise Kiss in 2 days. Actually I watched 7 episodes yesterday, but went to sleep after that. Haha.

Overall, it's quite nice. With all the fashion stuffs going on along with relationship problems, I find the show quite entertaining.

However, the story progresses too fast till I'm quite irritated by that fact. They should at least drag 2-4 more episodes. Ending isn't that satisfactory as...they only spent one minute on the "10 years later" part >_>" Didn't really actually spell it out what happen...

I have to take some time to figure out though. But nevertheless, the anime is nice. But if really wanna compare, I'd put it as on par with Myself;Youself because of the same abrupt ending part.

Next I'd be hunting other anime...couldn't bear to watch Antique Bakery ahhhh. Wonder why vista can't use tudou. Now I couldn't dl ParaKiss. >_>" Veoh have that series yet it's all in french, spanish, italian. Grr.

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LaTale!
@ 1:05 AM
Tried out LaTale. Apparently there's a 2 weeks of Open Beta for all players. (: Before they close again, and official open the game on 18th Sept.

You get to choose ur job immediately, hence, I chose Explorer for the heck of it.

Just to say, when you level up, your stats goes up normally. You don't get to choose to up which stats. But that's quite generalized though. Its exp system is also like TW, where when you level up, the exp you get from the same monster decreases.

Prologue:


Tutorial...the naked me (:


Got whacked by a cute monster D:


My new beginner gear (Which used Ely(Currency in LaTale) to buy)


You crouch to shield damage! Apparently that guy is weirded out by me crouching >_>"


Maido~~!


Aiming the monsters...


Mobbed! Use Rain Arrow!! With wide opened mouth.


Doing a weird emoticon...looks like dancing to me...


FusuHusu seems shocked to see me D: It wanna spit on me! +.+


When you level up, you get smacked by the fairy with a "lvl up" hammer.


Ouch. I cried.


I went to a place called Temple of Pluton to train when I reached lvl 10 :D


The Bird Hunting skills made me almost fall D: Unbalanced.


And tadah! I'm at lvl 12 and I changed into a whole new gear (:


Gonna continue till lvl 20 before I stop~ since the account would be wiped. Dun wanna waste too much time (:

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Ahh~
Sunday, August 24, 2008 @ 7:11 PM
I still dig D.Grey-Man Ep 93 insert. Damn nice. Credits to Gendou.

Hiragana:
そして 坊やは 眠りについた
息衝(づ)く 灰の中の炎 ひとつ ふたつと
浮かぶ ふくらみ 愛しい横顔
大地に 垂(た)るる 幾千の夢
銀の瞳のゆらぐ夜に 生まれおちた輝くお前
幾億の年月が いくつ 祈りを 土へ 還しても
ワタシは 祈り続ける
どうか この子に 愛を
つないだ 手に キスを

Romanji:
soshite bouyaha nemuri ni tsuite
ikizuku haino naka no hodo o hitotsu futatsu to
ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao
daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume yume
gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni umareochita kagayaku omae
ikuoku no toshitsuki ga ikutsu inori o tsuchi e kaeshite mo
watashi ha inori tsuzukeru
douka kono ko ni ai o
tsunaida te ni kisu o

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Forget about the previous post. Thanks.
@ 6:11 PM
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Guess what? I finally know my real christian name. Jeremy is the short version, I remembered why I cut it short. Because everyone keeps calling me the long version, and I think it tires them alot I suppose. So I'm used to others calling me Jeremy, to the extent that I forgot how to spell my christian name.

And, so...my christian name is Jeremiah.
According to my mum's friend, Jeremiah is really counted as a christian name. While Jeremy isn't.
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Decided on this autumn header.

Picture credits is to pyromaniac from DeviantArt. He draw those cute pictures damn well. I totally respect him.

Autumn is the season of reminiscent of bittersweet memories, coupled with the falling maple leaves, it leaves a very lasting image in my mind.

Maybe I'm the only one who thinks that autumn is the season that suits reminiscent of memories, however, it suits bittersweet memories more.

Decided to change my blog song to something instrumental instead...still finding the suitable song though. (:

The rain started, stopped, and started again. Now it has stopped once again.

Yet...

The rain in me haven't stop.
The nightmares in me haven't ended.
My life can be described as...
Eternal rain.



PS: Omg I finalyly found the liquify function is Photoshop Elements. KEWL!

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Header changed.
@ 5:41 PM
Changed header to this. Trying out my photoshop elements skills. This one is quite not nicely done I suppose.

Picture is from deviantart, credits to Christine YK Chong. If you managed to read this and dun allow the header, I'll take it off (: Just tell me. Thanks!

Anyway, I'm trying to find different headers to use before I find an autumn themed header and skin. ):

Give comments on this header please?? Thanks!

P.S: I think I used too much gaussian blur and lighten ._."

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Rainy days.
@ 4:09 PM
It has been raining for these 3 days. Had superb sleep during these three days. Yesterday it's raining while I went home, had a long walk in the rain. Somehow, I didn't care whether my laptop is going to get wet or not.

Although thank god it didn't get wet, nevertheless, I enjoy the walk in the rain. Didn't feel that good since ages. Somehow, walking in the rain calms the soul, seeing the raindrops falling feels melancholic. The rain is just so nice.

"Seeing the raindrops falling, it seems like it's cleasing the world." Saw this quote in an anime. But it really sounds true. In addition, taking pictures in rain have a additional effect too.

I have slight flu already. Must be walking in the rain. Haha. Who cares. The rain is so nice to walk in, although I only dislike one fact.

When I raise my head, the raindrops somehow loves to land into my eyes. Ouch.

->Paradise Kiss is nice.<-

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Natsu Matsuri.
@ 12:20 AM
Be warned. This is going to be a long post and picture post too.

This morning, because mum need to go to the bank, dad drove us to have breakfast. It's at this place called Killiney Kopitiam.



Trust me. This place sells uber nice french toast and mee siam. Had to even wait for minutes to get a place! And it's damn crowded. But the food sure taste good. Worth the wait. The french toast have the strong fragrance of egg and the mee siam taste is quite good, sour with a tint of sweetness.

While waiting for the order to arrive, I looked opposite. Oh! It's singtel office!





Looking closer, I saw a freaking long queue. Yeh. You might have guessed it. Everyone over there is queuing up for iPhone. (: Gadget freaks People queuing up for iPhone scene is so nice.

After that, dad dropped me off at Orchard first before bringing mum to the bank. Bought losta stuffs. Decided to sign for the membership card for kinokuniya since I shop for books there quite often. Maddening. They dun allow orders for manga. How unfair. The reason they gave is: unregular shipment. Grr. Now I have to order from amazon or go to US kinokuniya to buy. Pfft.

After that walked to HMV to buy cds. (:

So in total, these is what I bought.






Nabari no Ou 6, Brave Story 2, 穗乃歌Lv.Up! 2, Paradise Kiss 1 (I wonder why I bought this too lol. But oh well. It's nice for me.), Rust Blaster, Monochrome Factor 3, By The Time You Read This and Chemistry Life Goes On Single.

And trust me, all these stuffs cost a huge hole in my pocket.

In addition, I ordered Junjou Romantica whole set (Thanks Dang) which cause a whopping $71.10 ._."

Ok, I really needa stop. AHHHHHHHHHH.

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After that, met Phad for lunch. Was late because of some communication breakdown hahaha. (Actually it's my fault la.) Den slacked at starbucks while waiting for dang and jy. And so, we headed to The Japanese School for the summer festival thingy.

Some stores.



Yukata. Apparently, the girls couldn't get any number and the yukata loaning is closed. I got a number and it's a whopping fucking 61! Haha. So decided not to wait and I gave the number to a guy (:


Dang and JY got tattoos. Omg. Delinquent! Haha.


This drink is FABULOUS.



And here we see phad trying to hook up a water balloon yoyo haha. It's quite fun.


Ooooooo. The balloons that we got.



Apparently there's more, we tried the scooping toy (Instead of goldfish) and I got a stitch model (: OMG IT'S SO CUTE.

Then we tired ball tossing too. Got one ball in, and guess what I got? Snoopy pencil, eraser, and lead. Haha. Then tried the tikam, got a plastic inflatable pirate sword.

The atmosphere there is quite in the mood, and it's very, very, crowded.

Didn't stay long though, after that went home, took laptop, went to starbucks to slack with phad, dang and jy. Actually wanted to watch Cyborg She, in the end didn't hahaz. Reached home, dl latale, and currently it says it need 16 hours?!

Dl-ing Tales of Eternia too. Try try. Ohmigosh. The no vocal version of Life Goes On sounds good! xD

Yeah. Gonna stop here. I'm very, very, fatigue and feel like sleeping but I can't get to sleep mode. D:

-Why does happy times seem to end so fast, and sad times seem to hang onto time and pass so slow?-


We're hanging onto a thinning thread.

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Accept it.
Saturday, August 23, 2008 @ 12:08 AM
Life's harsh, shitty, cruel, depressing, sad, pathetic, hopeless, lifeless.

Life's full of joy, happiness, bliss, luck, hope, fairness, smooth sailing.

Yeah.

Too bad the first sentence happens quite often.

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Sudden Decision
Friday, August 22, 2008 @ 6:55 PM
Haha. In the end, me and phad decided to watch movie tonite outta boredom.

Meeting him at 7.30.

I think I'm catching a cold. Because I am sneezing and feel so cold now.

Argh. Boredom kills. But when I'm too busy, it also kills. So contradicting yet true. Maybe half bored-half busy would be the best? I suppose. But when you're busy, who the hell would bother whether you're bored or not? True wad...

Ok, gonna stop here. Since I don't know what to blog aso. There are some things I wanna say, yet I can't say. That's what happens in blog. You really gotta stop saying some things that might hurt people. So you hide it in yourself. (:

Nothing matters.
Everything is in me.
It's always gonna be.
I'm afraid of hurting.
So in the end, I'm always the one who get hurt.
Sometimes I unknowingly hurt others too.
That's life.
You can't get everything, without sacrificing something.

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Anticipated.
@ 6:33 PM
Gakuen Alice chapter 101 is so damn short. Only abit of Mikan's mum past is revealed. Omg she's so poor thing...kind of like being sold to Alice Academy because of the money the academy would provide..Sigh.

One thing though, I wonder how Mikan's dad would look like though...maybe it's quite handsome as the High school principal. Hahaha. Their past is definitely tragic. Can't wait for chapter 102!

Mangafox is so slow. I read it at 17kk. Although it's chinese. Haha. There's even BL there ok.

Mum's in a good mood today, so she brought us to sakae to have sushi buffet. Stuffed now xD. Just maybe will be watching movie with Phad later...didn't went to Orchard today...since dad driving me there tomorrow, save time, and money too haha.

Found this song by Splender. I Think God Can Explain.

There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes

It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it in the end

The scent of vaseline in the summertime
The feel of an ice cube melting over time
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry

It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it in the end

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed

It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get off of your back

I think God can explain, I think God can explain
I think God can explain

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Nope. God can't explain.



The world seems bigger than us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry.
Why?

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Ohh! Life's so uninteresting.
@ 11:26 AM
Like everyone doesn't know that. To call life as interesting, in my way, it'd be travelling the whole world. That's what makes life fun and interesting!

Did a separate post. Out of boredom. Thank you.

Recently been sleeping very early. Maybe I'm sick. I guess I'm sick. Haha. Waiting for SY sem exams to be over, den I can take her UO notes keke. Currently reading mangas and novels. I think I've taken a liking to chinese novels. They do give a feeling where english novels couldn't. I wonder why though.

I can't believe I cried because of a story written in chinese! Give me the story in english version and I can't cry at all. Haha. That's weird. >_>"

I can't stop watching tear-jerkers movie, yet I don't wanna drop my tears. Ha! I'm contradicting myself.

Later gonna travel down all the way to HMV to check out whether Chemisty's single is out yet. Bleh. I hate travelling far alone in Singapore. It's just plain boring.

Ohh ohh! Tomorrow is the Summer Fest thingy at the Jap School! I'm so excited and thrilled about that thought.

Let's just pray that there's female wearing yukata. In my dreams, Phad said.

Can't you let a guy dream?!

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Death Race - To kill or to be killed.
@ 11:14 AM
Caught the movie Death Race with Phad yesterday. Before watching the movie, I'm damn scared of those gore scenes. [I remember watching the trailer where a guy's head is being knocked off by a car.]

Death race 2008 (Apparently it's a remake of Death Race 2000), is describing that at Year 2012, USA economy declined, employment rate is way too low, crime rate is way too high. The prison is already at their breaking point.

Death Race is being produced as of people being bored of normal races, where they wanted to see more exciting stuffs.

The story is about a guy, Jensen Ames, is being framed for killing his wife, and he enters the prison. Henessy(sp?), the Prison Warden, is the judge, jury and executor of the prison.

Jensen is being offered a choice of entering the Death Race. Win 5 games, and you get the ultimate prize. Freedom. The offer he has taken is to wear the mask of Frankenstien, who's already dead on his last race, with 4 wins, all he need to do is win one more game, and he's free.

Of course, winning ain't easy. And some people won't stop to prevent Jensen A.K.A Frankenstien from winning, because of profits.

It's a race where either you kill, or you get killed.

But after watching it, I'm more excited and thrilled about the car racing, till I forgot about those gores, (but I still closed my eyes on some gore parts.)

It's a nice movie, where it is also shown that because of money, a guy is being framed for nothing.

If normal car racing ain't your thing, what about normal car racing, included ammonution, traps, sexy navigator beside you? Give it a try!

The graphics and sound effects is sure damn good.

Go try! Although it's NC16 =p

Next movie : Meet Dave, My Girlfriend is A Cyborg.

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Traumatized.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 @ 7:14 PM
Traumatized!!!

I played till chapter 3 of FF2 you know!That's one hell of a good achievement for me already! By far, the best looking spirit is that platinum-haired guy that's been locked up. How can you locked up such a poor boy! Sob.

Trickiest photo taken. Chasing butterflies. I gave up after around 10+ tries ._.

During playing that game, when I hear a slight sound, I'll turn around and see got what. Meh. Really traumatized already la.

Dinner. ):

Enies Lobby Arc rawks! Luffy gogogo! Although I prefer Nami D:

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Ctrl+Alt+Del = Task Manager?
@ 12:14 PM
Ctrl+Alt+Del

Just found this website. the comics seems interesting (:

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Good old days, yeah.
@ 11:25 AM
When you're in a bad time, don't you always think...
"Ah, in the past...how nice."
Well, it's not really applicable to everyone, but people with better past.

Well, I'm neither born with a bronze/silver/gold spoon in my mouth, nor having a bitter and miserable family, and I'm born in a middle type family where most people belong in, but now I'm here, standing and screaming, the past is definitely better!

Yeah. Presently, I don't feel good at all. The present now sucks badly! Heh.

But I've thought through it. Really. I swear upon my sister's hamster life that if it's not true, I'd have a bad hair day everyday!

I can't believe I thought about that. Bad hair days always brings along bad mood.

Yeah. Even now, I wanna scream, I wanna open a volley of vulgar words to someone that irritates me, punching someone that angers me, I just don't wanna do it. You know, what people say by, don't mix personal affairs with work? It's the same sense as, I don't wanna spill my anger at some innocent people who just bothers me for some stuffs. But somehow, I'm always tempted to scream "Fuck you dun bother me now." But I won't. Cause I'm nice rational and won't do that.

The past is good only for reminiscing, and for applying a job (Work experience, qualifications, etc.). I'm trying to remind myself that I'm in the present, not the past, whatever is done is done, whatever is gone is gone, it's not coming back anymore.

So I've decided to go through this fucking present, and look for a better future >_>"

Yeah (:

Whatever is past is past, whatever feelings I have lingering for the past is gone. It's a brrrranddd new me.

Although I say so, I'm not brand new, I'm already used for 17years and 8months and 20 days.

Yeah. Be happy you know! I'm used for so long, and I still wanna keep going on and moving forward. So I've decided to go for the doctor's appointment.

I'm getting normal day by day. I found out that for the past few months I've been too abnormal for my own good. D:

Argh. Fatal Frame 2, here I come.

Sidenote: Did you ever experience this before? Whenever something doesn't goes your way, you make more faults that you ever did? Everything doesn't go your way? Even little stuffs could irritate you? =) I did. And to say, it's not fucking one time.

EDIT: Is it just me, or does ricola cranberry flavoured sweets taste like blackcurrant?

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Training.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 @ 9:43 PM
Did this post seperately. (:

Woke up quite early today (6am), so heck, why not start exercising today? So after doing some warm-ups, and with a weird motivation, I went to the park. Since it's the first time where I really ran (I didn't really run after the last gym session which is aeons ago.), I decided to just go for 30minutes.

After 30minutes, I reached home panting. It really is hard to start running so much when you've stop doing vigorous exercise for a long time, and with a hungry stomach, the area around the appendix (Or something like that), hurts so much when I ran too long, so I have to stop some time with brisk walking instead.

I've learnt my lesson. Begin moderately, and after eating (but not immediately), or at least consumed something hours ago. Do enough warmups too. My legs went on strike when I reached home ._."

Worst mobbing of the day:


Fashion fever:





After that, I went to do GoH (Grave of Heroes) with dang.

Grave of Heroes: (Totally kickass bgm)


After a whole damn time spending on the quiz, reached floor 10 (rest area):


Floor 20! The boss! I did the hiding, dang did the attacking lol:


Reward! Couple ring with uber effects and a gold herb:


Apparently the couple ring give a boost in exp, which is a plus point, able to teleport to the other party immediately, uber plus point, which earned me tons of wrap memo. Third plus point, it can be enhanced 3 times by doing GoH again. (:

Yeah, my sivelin got to lvl 35 xD First time you knowwwwww.

----
Yes, lengthy enough, last part. I am addicted to One Piece currently. Because ch56 is airing One Piece again! And this time, it's the Enies Lobby Arc! OMG it's damn nice watching them fight! That's why I'd rather buy shoujo mangas then shounen mangas. Because shounen mangas usually have fights that are oh-my-fucking-god awesome! While shoujo mangas are usually about romance, which is so-much-better reading than watching. (With the exception of Boys Be...) <- watching makes it more worthwhile.

Yes! Shounen is the way of life for anime. Not really, but I find watching them on screen is better! Especially one piece. Flashy fighting moves that is beyond reality. (: Elnis lobby arc is the best for me! Nice to watch...and omg I get to see Nami use her rod again! Her rod is by far the best can! Meh you can disagree all you want but I will hold on to my truth! :3

And one more plus point for me drooling over the Enies Lobby Arc is the OP! Damn it, so far all the one piece OPs that I've listened to and I love all of em, this one is the best. Best!



In high quality at youtube somemore! Sigh, how nice if I can put this in my iTouch. Hahaha.

Ryoko Case File subbers vanished. Couldn't find ep6 subbed. Nabari no Ou too. Damn it. Ep19 is all SPANISH SUBS. PISSED OFF CAN! EDIT: Sorry, but when I check veoh, suddenly every latest episode popped up.

I promised myself to stop watching Antique Bakery. Cause whenever I watch one episode from that anime, I just can't stop watching and desire to watch the next one, but the next one isn't released. Pfft.

PSP games galore! Guilty Gear, Phantasy Star Portable and another game which seems interesting that have hot guys and sexy cute girls for me to enjoy (:

Too bad it's all in jap. So I'll just chiong the storyline.

How nice if I can find CwCheats for those games. Cause I don't really enjoy a game where I can play, yet I don't understand the story. D:
Oh well, summer is this for me (: Warm and sweaty with a huge passion for anime. =p

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Fatal Frame 2 - Crimson Butterfly
@ 9:30 PM
I tried out the first part. It's damn hell tough and scary at the same time.

Tough part - the controls.

Walking/Running: The main character does not run by default. Basically, you still have to press the square button for it to run, and if not, she (Mio/Mayu) will only be walking.

Viewfinder mode (Camera mode): The basics of all, the toughest of all. Basically, to activate viewfinder mode, you'll have to press circle. That's the easy part. Let's see the tough part. You know, in viewfinder mode, you'd need to walk + change camera angle at the same time, and take pictures too. 3 tasks is feasible, it's the control that makes it not-so-feasible. Left analog to change angle, right analog to walk, X button or R1 to shutter.

For most of the RPG games, left analog is to walk. But in this game, during viewfinder mode, it's walking for the right analog button. For me, that's a huge disadvantage since I'm already used to using the left analog button to move.

Fear: You know, for a person who's scared of horror movies, to play this game, it takes a huge chunk of damn courage to actually play it. The starting is ok, since I have my sis chained onto the sofa beside me while I play sitting beside me while I play. When the spirits appear, the damn controller vibrates. Yeah. So it's fearful. And the introduction and cutscenes don't make this better. It's whole chunk of face shots of the spirits.

Now, let's come to the nice parts ok?

Capturing spirits: It's quite easy for those with nimble fingers to play this game. Especially when it comes to having a Zero Shot(A.K.A Fatal Frame) on the spirits. I've killed the first spirit with 3 consecutive shots of zero shots. *smirk* Haha. It's fun to actually exorcise something that scares you D:

So overall, the first experience is thrilling, and yes, I will never ever play this game at night. It's damn scary and freaky.

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Fly away (:
@ 8:36 AM
This song is so cheery xD but the lyrics have a tint of melancholy for me, dunno why, just sensed that.

Clearance delay for my FF2. pfft.

Fly Away [Full Version] (Anime- Mahou Tsukai ni Taisetsu na Koto -Natsu no Sora- OP) - THYME

Fly Away - Thyme

Romanji:
Good night days, Good old days
Kaeranai to chikatta hi kara Nemuraseta kioku
Ah knock on the Days, Good Old Days
Eitaku nara nante kyoshikatta tsugatteta no ne
Tsuiteku Up and Down Koko de sotto yori michi see you again

Ano saka o nobitteru mieru keshiki Natsu no drive sukidatta
Kaze no nioi mo BGM mo subete ga ima mo kioku no naka

Kake deshita sakamichi de sabita「closed」koe fly away

Good night days, Good old days
Kaeranai to chikatta hi kara Nemuraseta kioku
Ah knock on the Days, Good Old Days
Eitaku nara nante kyoshikatta tsugatteta no ne
Kokoni tateba mieru Yume kakuita aoi canvas see you again

Akogare no basho senjou toiu shinjitsu KOWAI kao bakari na no
OBUJE mitai ni kousou BIRI kakomu ki ga shikatanai tte waratta

Tobu deshita ano machi wa attakai kioku no mama kana?

Good night days, Good old days
Kaeranai to chikatta hi kara Nemuraseta kioku
Ah knock on the Days, Good Old Days
Eitaku nara nante kyoshikatta tsugatteta no ne
Tsuiteku Up and Down kokode sotto yori michi

Tatta hitotsu kibou deke tsume kominde kita bag
Soredake ja tarinaitte koto shitta no
Omotakunatte taoretatte
Hanasanai no wa ano hi…

Good night days, Good old days
Tobitai to negatta hi kara tsuyokunaru yakusoku

Good Night Days, Good Old Days
Kaeranai to chikatta hi kara nemuraseta kioku
Ah knock on the Days, Good Old Days
Eitaku nara nante kyoshikatta tsugatteta kedo
Mata saka o nobiru Yume kakukou aoi canvas see you again
Tsuzuiteku Up and Down kokode sotto yori michi see you again

English:

Good night Days, good old Days
Since the day I swore I'd never come back, I've put my memories to rest
Ah knock on the Days, good old Days
Though I've come to miss you, I regret that I had pretended to be strong
Continuing up and down, I'll quietly drop by to see you, see you again

When we go up that hill, I can see the scenery of the summer drive I loved so much
The scent of the wind, the background music, all of it is in my memory, even now

I ran up that hill, past the rusted "closed" sign and flew away

Good night Days, good old Days
Since the day I swore I'd never come back, I've put my memories to rest
Ah knock on the Days, good old Days
Though I've come to miss you, I regret that I had pretended to be strong
If I'm standing here, I can see the dream I painted on a blue canvas, see you again

The place where my desires are is actually called a battlefield, full of nothing but evil faces
Objects like skyscrapers surround the trees, "It can't be helped" I laughed

Is that town that flew away still a warm memory?

Good night Days, good old Days
Since the day I swore I'd never come back, I've put my memories to rest
Ah knock on the Days, good old Days
Though I've come to miss you, I regret that I had pretended to be strong
Continuing up and down, I'll quietly drop by to see you

I'm stuffing only my one desire into my bag
I know that just that is enough
That day is becoming heavy, it's collapsing
But it hasn't separated

Good night Days, good old days
Since the day I wanted to fly away, I promised to become stronger

Good night Days, good old Days
Since the day I swore I'd never come back, I've put my memories to rest

Ah knock on the Days, good old Days
Though I've come to miss you, I regret that I had pretended to be strong, but
I'm climbing the hill again, so I'll paint my dream on a blue canvas, see you again

Kanji:
good night Days, good old Days
帰らないと誓った日から 眠らせた記憶
ah knock on the Days, good old Days
会いたくなるなんて 悔しかった 強がってたのね
続いてくUp and Down ここでそっと寄り道 see you again

あの坂を登ったら見える景色 夏のdrive好きだった
風の匂いもBGMも 全てが 今も記憶の中

駆け出した坂道で 錆びた「closed」越え fly away

good night Days, good old Days
帰らないと誓った日から 眠らせた記憶
ah knock on the Days, good old Days
会いたくなるなんて 悔しかった 強がってたのね
ここに立てば見える 夢描いた青いキャンバスsee you again

憧れの場所 戦場という真実 コワい顔ばかりなの
オブジェみたいに高層ビル囲む木が「仕方ない」って笑った

飛び出したあの街は あったかい記憶のままかなぁ?

good night Days, good old Days
帰らないと誓った日から 眠らせた記憶
ah knock on the Days, good old Days
会いたくなるなんて 悔しかった 強がってたのね
続いてくUp and Down ここでそっと寄り道

たったひとつ 希望だけ詰め込んできたバッグ
それだけじゃ足りないってこと知ったの
重たくなって倒れたって
離さないのは あの日…

good night Days, good old Days
飛びたいと願った日から 強くなる約束

good night Days, good old Days
帰らないと誓った日から 眠らせた記憶

ah knock on the Days, good old Days
会いたくなるなんて 悔しかった 強がってたけど
また坂を登り 夢描こう青いキャンバスsee you again
続いてくUp and Down ここでそっと寄り道see you again

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Slacker.
Monday, August 18, 2008 @ 8:28 PM
Today slacked at home, and during lunch, watched 王牌大眼睛. Their topic on 劈腿 is damn lol! Recommended to watch. They were saying how guys felt when they get 劈腿 by their girlfriends. It's so funny!

Recommended to watch sia!

After that, I went to order FF2. (: Coming soon! xD Can't wait. After that, chionged TW till lvl 31, then watched tv, play p4, game over because I lazy to heal D: Now at starbucks with phad. Life sure is slacking for me today. =x

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Testing my hiragana ._."
@ 7:16 AM
Well, dang recommended me to try memorising my hiragana by typing the lyrics of a song I liked. Since I've only been listening to Life Goes On by Chemistry lately, I shall try typing the lyrics of the tv version of that song ._. I think I'd get alot of mistakes though D: (Provided the subbers provided the correct romanji >.<)

Both romanji and eng is provided by the subbers xD

English:

At sad times, is talking about my sadness just being weak?
Happiness
At painful times, is it ok if I spill out my pain?
I just got to be
As darkness closes in,
Even though I lost my courage,
You're here with me now
I'll step forth without confusion now
The tears that flowed will surely become shining crystals,
Gently enveloping
I believe you
I believe you
What you told me in that way you always do
So never stop believing, keep on advancing
Life goes on

Romanji/Hiragana:
kanashii toki ni kanshii to tsugeru no ha yowaitte koto ka na
悲しい時に「悲しい」と告げるのは弱いってことかな

Happiness

tsurai toki ni tsurai to buchiakete ii ka na
辛いときに「辛い」と打ち明けていいかな

I've just got to believe

yami ga semari
闇が逼り

ikiba ushinatta toshitemo
行き場失ったとしても

ima ha kimi ga soba ni iru
今はキミがそばにいる

mayowazu ni fumidasu now
迷わずに踏み出す now

nagashita namida ha kitto hikaru kesshou heto kawaru
流した涙はきっと光る結晶へと変わる

yasashiku tsutsunde
優しく包んで

I believe you

I believe you

kimi ga oshiete kureta jibun rashiku arukoto wo
キミが教えてくれた自分らしくあることを

dakara donna toki mo shinjite susumu yo
だからどんな時も信じて進むよ

Life goes on

I predict that it'll be almost like 40% wrong alr. xD

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Pissed off!
@ 6:53 AM
I've really been sleeping too much lately! Grr. Went to take a nap at 6, and I woke up at 3am! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

Maybe I shouldn't call it a nap. Argh.

Oh well. Gotta try to take shorter naps next time :3

Decided on buying FF2 (: FF3 seems way much scarier since it happens in household too :X

TW reached lvl 28 (: Bought a cute face for my character. It looks real cute now...training is much more easier, it's in the situation of either I kill them first or they kill me first?

Antique Bakery 7 is out in crunchyroll but not in veoh! AHHHHHHHH PISSED OFF. Weee~ 3 more days till that single I've been waiting for is released.

And mum asked me, whether I wanna learn piano or violin. I wonder which one should I learn? Since it's only my fingers that are more nimble due to constant typing and using the ps2 controller to play games. xD

Typing speed is still ok, as long as it's the keyboard that I'm used to. And I'm happy that I no longer have the need to stare at my keyboard sometimes when typing. Practically can see the screen while typing with little mistakes ok! I'm proud of myself :3

Oh. Lemme introduce something that's so darn useful on everyone's enemy, the pimple (: I went to NTUC Fairprice(Are you sure the price is fair? =p) to buy a pimple cream due to the pimples aren't disappearing. So I tried this product called Clean and Clear Acne Speed Clearing Gel. They promised at least less swelling in 24 hours.
It costs around 6 bucks you know! So ex.

So I went home, washed my face, and apply it on those areas that are affected. Surprisingly, when I woke up at 3am, I saw that some pimples really do disappear, while those are uber swelled, reduced the swelling a little. So what I can say is, it do works! But I'm not sure about the 24 hour claim though. Try it if you want. It's sure damn more effective den the oxy 5 I used.

I wonder why when I tried oxy 5, my acne swelling went worse. Maybe my skin isn't compatible with that product as compared to this. Bummer. I totally support clean and clear now ok! The facial wash is already good, oil removal wipes too, now this! xD

Oops. I found out that I haven't return my library books. Means I have to go out again >_>"

-It's sure less painful when you get stabbed physically, than you get stabbed mentally.-

After all, who can we blame? It's the brain that signals pain to our body whenever we get hurt.

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Shopping.
Sunday, August 17, 2008 @ 7:48 AM
Went out with family to Newton Circle to have fish porridge since dad have that mood. The porridge quality...decreased. Became quite bland, and in the end, only the fish is nice to eat. Anyways, fish porridge, the main thing is fish right? So it should be ok.

After that, went to Orchard Kinokuniya. The spoils:




Monochrome Factor bk2, Nabari no Ou bk5, Daily Life bk1, Antique Bakery bk3, 窝囊废。

窝囊废 seems interesting. And the book is quite reasonably priced too! So thick and it costs only $12.

I'll be going to Orchard around next friday. To check out whether HMV released Chemistry latest single, Life Goes On. Damn it. That cd is a sure get for me. And I found out Brave Story have it's chinese version manga. Gonna get 1 book to try.

Monocrhome factor is so interesting to read, I think part of it is because of those chibi drawings.

Oh. And antique bakery manga is so damn innovative. At the cover, there's this scratch me area. I went to scratch...and you know what happened? That area that I scratched have the KIWI smell! Damn cool right? If every book have a fruity smell, I think most people will love to read. Lol. Because sometimes after reading, my hands is always full of those "paper" smell, which isn't nice at all.

After buying those books, went home. Read Monochrome Factor, till I slept. Woken up by dad, and I walked to my room, *fall* onto my bed, sleep again. Woke up at 4am >_>"

Meaning, I slept 12hrs for a supposed nap. D:

And when I woke up, I saw 3 messages and 5 missed calls from Phad. Apparently he asked me to go to sb. Ahhhhhh sorry sorry.

Played TW awhile, till I reached lvl 21. Hungry :X




My character looks like a farmer with the hat, and a secret agent with the sunglasses. Sivelin is quite interesting to play, better than Chloe! Levelling is quite fast. Good mob clearing skills.

Am now still contemplating whether to buy FF2 or FF3 (Not final fantasy, it's fatal frame.) FF3 ghosts don't look as CREEPY as FF2. But FF3, you can see ghosts in your own house. That's the point where I'm not so into that series. FF2 seems nicer, crimson butterfly xD

Waiting for Kinokuniya reply...asking them whether I could order something from their overseas branch anot. Antique Bakery book 1,2,4 is only avail in US! Which is a bumbumbummerrrrrr. Ordering from amazon sucks. They only have bk2 in stock now, bk1needs 2-4months shipment, and bk4 is LIBRARY BINDED. WTH?!

Arghhh. Pray hard that they could help me get those books. ): I don't want a library binded book. T_T"

Although that series is ex, but it's worth it for me (: $22 per book. English manga is always so much expensive. D: Gonna cont my P4. >_>" Been neglecting it for days.

Oooooo. 23rd is summer festival at a certain jap sch. Wanna go see :3

Maybe can see kimono leh! why not right?! =3

Ok, gonna go out to buy my breakfast. Hungry :3 :3



EDIT: Just found this (: While digging for something...been years le and the crystals stay crystallised you know. It's still damn nice to look at.

Sigh. I'm been taking alot of naps lately. Hibernating?! xD

-睡醒了,心情自然好多了。我还真喜欢我这种特质呢。-

-当你连自己都不信任时,你还能相信谁呢?-

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Endless Nightmare
Saturday, August 16, 2008 @ 11:21 AM
Changed blog header pic again. This one is better I think. It suits my current mood.

-Verba volant, scripta manent-

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受不了。
@ 9:37 AM
绳子,一旦拉的太紧,一定会断。人也是,忍得太久,有一天一定会发火。这是每个人都应该去了解的事。但是我就是不知道,为何有些人知道了,还是要那样做。我明白你们每天会吵架。但是你们吵归吵,为何还要把我牵联进去呢?你们要吵,我也已经懒的理了。我关门,也是不要受到你们的影响。可以说,到现在,我最受不了的就是人家吵架时,所发出的吵杂声。

而我也不明白,为何我关了门,你们还要猛敲我的门。我不想理,我不想听,我不想懂,我不想要知道任何一件关于你们的事!而且,你们也做得太过分了,竟然,半夜三根还吵!因为一个人把电话挂了,还打到我的手机!你们知不知道什么是“不要来烦我,不要把我牵联进去吗?!”

而且,我也很讨厌,在我吃饭的时候,你们来吵吵闹闹,唠唠叨叨!连吃饭也不愿意给我一点平静的时候。你们是不是,连我在家里,所剩无几的一丝平静也给剥夺走呢?!我实在受不了,你们这一种幼稚的行为。两个人加起来都要一百岁了,还这样!

现在,我不知多么想去们,多么不想回家。家不像家,那回家干吗?大不如在外面,还平静多了呢。你每次说,为什么我选择在下午才睡觉,我也每次相会你一句,“问你自己。”你觉得,我不会累吗?你觉得,我不想睡觉吗?这整个星期,你知道我忍着不睡有多么辛苦吗?我干吗要在晚上睡,然后早上起身,看你们吵吵闹闹到晚上呢?我大不如,下午睡到晚上,至少我耳朵清静一些,也少被你们折磨一些。

再这样下去,不是你们疯,而是我疯了好不好!再这样下去,开学的时候,你觉得,我能去吗?我的精神压力,现在已经到达极限了。再这样下去,我真的不知道,要怎样了。

我想哭,却没有眼泪。
我想喊,却没有声音出来。
我想笑,却是敷衍的笑容。

这就是现在的我。
以前的自己,在你们开始吵的时候,早就消失了。
以前能读书的自己,被你们搞到不见了。
以前看动画是享受。现在,是想拥抱虚幻,抛弃现实。
以前玩游戏,是用来放松。现在,是用来麻木自己。
以前看书,是为了消遣。现在,是为了逃避。
以前开心,是真的开心。现在,开心已经不在我的字典了。
以前伤心,一天就好了。现在,我的生活只有伤心。
以前的开怀大笑,是现在用来掩饰我的悲伤。
以前收在内心的事,跟现在比,根本是差太多了。
以前,已经变成一个遥不可及的过去。

现在,我是活生生的生活在地狱。
现在,我不知道如何真正的笑。
现在,我不知道什么是开心。
现在,我不知道家是什么。

我只要求一件事。但是,也不可能会实现的。
不要再吵下去了。

你们真的以为,我笑,我说话的语气开朗,是真的吗?
你们真的以为,我没有被你们影响道吗?

如果是这样,那我还真会演。

这几个月来,我都是带着一个面具生活着。

有时我会问自己。

如果活着是那么的累,那么的痛苦,寻找解脱,不是更好吗?
存在于不存在,也不只是如此而已。

放心,我不会寻死。
死,也是需要勇气的。
很可惜,我并没有这个勇气。
我也非常能了解,什么是,在面临死亡的那一瞬间,想要渴望生存下去的感觉。

我从不后悔所做过的每一件事。我只会觉得,把这件事搞砸了。

被你们看到了也无差。还觉得好呢。
让你们彻彻底底的知道。

你么把我折磨得多么的惨。

我真的不想在家里说任何一句话。

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Big Windup! Is damn funny.
@ 4:07 AM
Let me give u a proof.





Who would actually scream out loud saying THAT?!

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Template, Header revamp. Life still goes on.
@ 2:57 AM
I'm in the "white" mood now, so I decided to change everything to white! Template changed to minima. I find minima templates are easy and convenient to use. (:

Couldn't really find any nice renders to make, and almost all of the headers I made, the background colour is 101% black. So in the end, I digged in my archives of anime wallpapers, and found a D.N.Angel themed wallpaper. Which is white! Although I already forgot where I got that wallpaper from. So anyone who knows, please leave a msg in the tagboard for me to credit that person :X

The wallpaper theme is winterwind, fuyu no kaze. So I used that as my blog title. Although I know it's not winter NOW, but heck care. I'm a winter lover. xD

So, I changed everythingggggg and now it's so white. (: Although the width of the header is quite short. So obvious. That's why I prefer minima dark though. Because Background black, blog black, everything black, harder to find mistakes :3

Watched Antique Bakery till episode 6. Episode 5 is so sweet. So far, my favourite character in that anime is Chikage. (: Dreamy and Pure. Haha. He cries so easily!! Ono is next! Then Eiji! Then Tachibana. Too bad! I totally see a new side of Eiji. Apparently, he gave all the winnings he get from his boxing matches to the boxing dorm that took care of him. So basically, he's always penniless! He even wants to give his pay to Ono! He really have a big heart ^^

And I get to see that, just wanting Ono to stay in his shop, Tachibana, is even willing to sleep with Ono! Haha.

Episode 5 you can really see Ono change from a nerdy-looking guy to a hottie >_>" If it's that easily to change, now nice is it?

Gonna stop crapping. The anime OP and Ending is the same, did by Chemistry.

OP : Life Goes On ~Side K~
ED : Life Goes On ~Side D~

The opening is nice, and quite new to me. It's paper figures in the bakery. For the ending, it's puzzle pieces being pieced together and taken apart. The ending changes every episode, to be specific, for every episode, a different cake is being shown. xD









Side D is more of acoustic rather than actual pop.

Sigh. Why does nice anime have to end so fast? This anime only have 12 episodes. T_T I still hope that Ono and Chikage can be together. Perfect match :3

I don't mind which version! As long as you have it! PLEASE TELL ME!!! KYA!!! Since Antique Bakery only release one episode every sunday, guess I have to wait. Tomorrow I will go with Big Windup! Baseball. :3

Since I could only find that song at imeem, I'll change my blog song to that. xD

Life goes on~

I PRAY THAT SOMEONE WOULD POST THAT SONG IN GENDOU!

I actually wanted to start the ep guide of Antique Bakery. But I'm lazy...sigh. Maybe I'll get to it someday, somehow, sometime, somewhere.

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