立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
Had a slight argument with a friend. I think some things are really better left unsaid, then saying it so straight in their face. But since I've given him enough time to change, yet he still persist in doing it things way, I've had enough.
I've had enough of his fucking idiotic ways of getting things he wants, claiming that he's right in everything, that he is better at everything. Like he's on the top of the world, while others are always, forever, below him.
Dirts like him should learn a harsh lesson. Harsh enough to bring him back to reality.
Everyone has rights. He must know that. If not, he's toast in this society.
Believe in fate, believe in your destiny, what does this mean? Does it mean that you entrust your life to fate and destiny, and let them bring you to where they think you should be? I think this is not true.
Whatever you do, whatever you choose, whatever you think, it's done by yourself. You chose your future, you chose your options. The only thing that we can't get to choose is, our parents, our siblings, our family, our name.
Believing that you're better than everybody else, believing that you're superior that everybody else, believing in such fleeting dreams, I wonder what type of confidence is this. But get this straight.
In this world, there is always someone better than anyone. It's just that, you didn't meet that person yet.
In this world, what you have to do, is just do your best in everything you can, you could.
I remember this...
"I never regret for anything I've done. I'll just say, I totally messed up big time for that."
I did say this before, yet I didn't really manage it.
I do mess up big time sometimes, yet...it always ends up like.
I can't salvage it at all. Leave it in pieces instead.
That's me. It's me. The me that I didn't want to be.
But I know, I have to try and like myself. That's life. You can't be someone else. You're always stuck with yourself.
First and foremost, sorry Si Lei! I actually asked you to wait at 8, but I went out till 2am in the morning...I smsed you but you never replied =x, did you receive my sms? o.o"
Today, happy things happened in a row (:
This afternoon, before going to the Toy and Comic Convention fair at Suntec City, ems speedpost came! *high*
The package (:
The game in bubble foam package!
The nice cover (:
Ohh ohh! Two Discs!
Shiny number 1.
Shiny number 2.
The fair is a total letdown. Ok, it isn't that bad, but it mostly features western animes. (: Batman, superman, spiderman, etc. You get the idea. =)
Some pictures that I take. Man, it was crowded. I didn't know That much people is into animes. I even saw aunties there ._."
Look. Such a cute bunny. It's dead right?
Some unknown animals/living things.
Oh.My.God. iPods!
Look. Smexy right? Haha.
Eerie.
The cool looking lady doll.
Is the one at the right a boy? I wonder.
Looks sooooo freaking cool!
Warrior and maid? Perfect combination? There's freaking more, but the crowd pushed me out. Haha. Ok la, it's too crowded till I'm lazy to take. =)
Tofus and egg shell aliens? o.o" Some bears too (:
Balloon-nish dolls?
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Look at the crowd! Wait, I think I know why...because..
See? FREE COMICS! Ok that's rude. Maybe most people are there for it though...because I heard this conversation...
Guy A: "Wah, come here so many free stuffs." Guy B: "Wait, you come here just for the free stuffs?" Guy A: "Why not?(Or smth like that.)"
*Both guy walks into the huge crowd.
Kawaii girls xD
Gacha Gacha! Chibis!
Super cute! I love cute stuffs alot. (:
Wow. Airport control tower?! Lego-lised.
Dance dance revolution in a fair.
Angry bear.
Hey look! It's the murderer cute wabbit from happy tree friends!
This kitty is damn precious ok! I took the picture den a guy walked towards me and said : "No pictures."
Puzzled. You already placed it here for "exhibitions", yet no pictures allowed? Ironic.
Look at it in the dark, at night. Eeriness guaranteed.
Gundam version of Three Kingdoms.
Number 2!
OMG GUAN YU! YOU BECAME A ROBOT?! How can a robot have beards!
Astro boiii! Woosh!
Mister QQQQQQ!
Remember ok? This booth doesn't exist.
Yay. The Nightmare Before Xmas!
I super love Zero. Uber cuteness!
I WANT THIS. *cuddles*
LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!
Haha, after that, went to sakae to eat. Found something uber yummy.
Curry Katsu Don! OMG I LOVE THE CURRY. But too less gravy. ):
Need to go collect some stuffs I ordered later ._."
dbl sweatness. I'm lazy. I dun wanna go out. I wanna just lie on my bed and sleep larrrr. Haha. No dinner for me. Must go out and buy >_>" sian-ness.
In cabal, my guild de "mummy" apparently got banned for botting, I think. If I ain't blind and saw the ign correctly. Haha. Hope that I see wrongly.
My mum is forcing me outta the house to buy food >_>" ARGH.
Fine. I'll go bathe and get out now. Phew. Bummer -.-"
Addicted to Love Story by Katharine McPhee. Sounds so much like Nanny McPhee. (:
I think it was the summertime When I laid eyes on you I didn't even know your name Somehow we'd end up in the same room It never crossed my mind I never saw you like that I should've listened to my best friend She knew it would be a perfect match
[Chorus:] It's a typical love story Started out as friends We met way back when This is just a typical love story The boy you never wanted just steals your heart I never saw it comin' 'til I fell so hard
I always made up some excuse Saying you that weren't my type Didn't want to face the truth Didn't want to cross that line 'til one day I saw you Out of the corner of my eye You were flirting with some girl And inside I thought I would die
[Chorus:] It's a typical love story Started out as friends We met way back when This is just a typical love story The boy you never wanted just steals your heart I never saw it comin' 'til I fell so hard
Can't believe its happening When I least expect it My prince under disguise How you fooled me with those eyes When I feel like letting go In your arms is where I know I am wrong From the beginning we always belong
Love Love Story Love Love Story Love Love Story (Love) Love Love Story (Love Story) Love Love Story (This is my) Love Love Story (This is my love story) Love Love Story Love
This is my love story
[Chorus:] It's a typical love story Started out as friends This is how it ends This is just a typical love story The boy you never wanted just steals your heart I never saw it comin' 'til I fell so hard
It's a typical love story Started out as friends This is how it ends This is just a typical love story The boy you never wanted just steals your heart I never saw it comin' 'til I fell so hard
Been troubled by certain stuffs which I don't wanna reveal due to my utmost privacy. (:
Couldn't get to sleep, and I magically found something in my laptop. Adobe Photoshop Elements 6.0! I got soooo excited and started installing it.
Sad thing. This version of photoshop didn't have LIQUIFY! I couldn't really know how to do much without liquify. I just did some sharpen, gaussian blur and text.
Decided to use KH as my blog header again. (: I'm soo into KH lately. Dunno why. ):
So, I made 3 of it in a hurry. Lemme show the other two!
Ok, and the third one is now my blog header, I just practically stripped of my blog title and place it in the header. Haha. I even changed the template.
It's time for some darkness baby! (:
Ok, I'm gonna hang around awhile, and get a slight nap =)
I ain't a robot. And I'm having a tummyache that I can't sleep D:
Edit:
I'm on the green shooting outwards o.O
I exchanged my SSAF(UB) for SSAF(K). Kawaii-ness guaranteed. My Kooh now looks like a brigade member with cat hairbands XD.
I went out today to get the storybook, "Thanks For The Memories" by Cecelia Ahern. I think I'm turning into her fan. Her books is really good. Examples would be : P.S I Love You and Where Rainbows End. The description of the story seems nice, that's why I bought it xD
Here's the description :
How can you know someone you've never met?
Joyce Conway remembers things she shouldn't. She knows about tiny cobbled streets in Paris, which she has never visited. And every night she dreams about an unknown little girl with blonde hair.
Justin Hitchcock is divorced, lonely and restless. He arrives in Dublin to give a lecture on art and meets an attractive doctor, who persuades him to donate blood. It's the first thing to come straight from his heart in a long time.
When Joyce leaves hospital after a terrible accident, with her life and her marriage in pieces, she moves back in with her elderly father. All the while, a strong sense of deja vu is overwhelming her and she can't figure out why...
Seems real mysterious. And that's why it attracts me (:
Wooooo. KH2FM+ is coming. (: I can't seem to find FFTA2, and MGS4 and comics connection costs a whopping $98. Too ex for my taste ):
Oh well. In the end I decided that I will go to M'sia. It's time to take a break. I mean it, and I need more that kitkats to take a break.
Dedicated to Evanecence fans. My Immortal.
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me
You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have
-There is just too much that time cannot erase, and cannot heal. So, let's leave it like this, and don't even try to salvage it.-
I do really wonder, is being a bird better than being a human? I do think such things. As what I can see, humans actually do suffer more. In certain perspectives. I just want to feel like a bird, being able to fly where they want whenever they want to. They do not have to worry about monetary problems, education problems, tax problems, etc.
They just have to worry about getting food, finding a place to stay, avoid hunters. It's just that simple.
Simplicity sure is beautiful, and nice.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today received a call from YH. She asked whether I wanna go to M'sia a week with her anot. Since she knows that I'm on deferment, she asks whether I wanna go relax and have a change of mood and environment. I'm seriously thinking about taking her offer, since I do feel like escaping Singapore for awhile, but if I really do take that offer. I would be leaving on this Sunday. It's quite rushing, I have to pack up, check passport by now.
But I want the chewing gums! I want the new environment! I wanna get outta Singapore!
HOW!!!!!!!!!!
Oh yea. Cabal is fun. I get losta chaos lamps ._.
-Winter stars, looking at the distant future, what do you see? Salvation, or oblivion?-
I've started writing a diary again. It looks better (: Heh.
12/6/08 Chocolate Underground [13 episodes] Don't seem interesting, but I might try.
21/6/08 Telepathy Shoujo Ran [26 episodes] Seems interesting. I love telepathy.
1/7/08 Ultraviolet Code : 044 [12 episodes] If it's not mecha, I might try.
2/7/08 Seikirei [The website seems interesting. (:] Slayers Revolution [I didn't watch the first slayer, so I'll skip it?] Mahou Tsukai ni Taisetsu na Koto ~Natsu no Sora~ [Sounds magical, maybe.]
3/7/08 Seiyou Kottou Yougashiten ~Antique Bakery~ [12 episodes] Seems interesting. BREAD! Hidamari Sketch x365 [Provided I can finish Hidamari Sketch. I find it boring somehow] Strike Witches [12 episodes] Mahou!! OMG!
5/7/08 Yakushiji Ryouko no Kaiki Jikenbo -Ryoko's Case File- [13 episodes] Seems like supernatrual detective cases. I love such genres!
6/7/08 Gakkou no Kaidan Anime Special [4 episodes] It looks kiddish. I think I'll skip. Zero no Tsukaima ~Princess no Rondo~ [13 episodes] Maybe I'll watch this. Seems like comedy]
7/7/08 Natsume Yuujin-chou [Seems like horror to me. I will watch this.] World Destruction~Sekai Bokumetsu no Rokunin [13 episodes] RPG adventure-like. <3
Here comes the episode 10 of Junjou Romantica. Featuring the final couple, Shinobu and Miyagi! Lol. The title is, Boys, be ambitious!
Okok, some of you might say why am I skipping episodes. Actually, I have already done most of the screen caps, but I am just plain lazy to rewatch it now. Since there's new episode coming piping hot from the oven, I will do the new ones now, and the old ones later. Sorry about that, but I'll do the old episodes soon. Real soon, I assure you.
Starting of the show, shows a shocked Miyagi. Apparently, he's being confessed by...
That's right, Shinobu! With a rather gloomy face though. (Since you're confessing your love, at least look a little happy or shy will you!) Okok.
So, shinobu here says that it's destiny for him to fall in love with Miyagi.
This has to be said from what happened three years ago. Shinobu, who is being held up by some hooligans, asking him for money. He retorts by saying who would do such stuffs now, even if he has money, he wouldn't give it to losers like them. He even spits on the floor while saying that.
Of course, the hooligans were super pissed off by his attitude. Hence the hooligans wanted to give him some physical torture...but...
Miyagi to the rescue! He prevents the hooligans from punching Shinobu, and even calls the police reporting the incident.
A shocked and blushing [Slight blushing, if you notice it] Shinobu just stands there and sees the whole incident. The hooligans, after hearing the conversation of Miyagi reporting the police, runs away.
In the end, Miyagi asks Shinobu where's Teito hotel.
It seems that Shinobu is also heading to the same place, hence they head for Teito hotel together. In the end, they were even heading for the same direction, and the same room! Eventually when they entered the room, There's people complaining that they're late.
In the end, they were officially introduced to each other. Miyagi is the fiance of Shinobu's sister, which means that he's his future older brother-in-law.
Talk about shock.
What's thought to be destiny, in the end...
Turned into a heartbroken scene. This concludes the end of Shinobu's crush towards Miyagi. Instantaneous shock.
Miyagi finally remembers that there's such things happened during the get-together of both of his and his ex-wife families three years ago.
Shinobu sees through it and knows that he actually had already forgotten about such things actually did happen before.
Well, Miyagi shifts the topic, asking him why did he come back suddenly, since he's studying overseas in, erm...Australia. Shinobu had to tell him where he studied in. He says that it's holidays over there, and he heard that Miyagi divorced with his sister. It's destiny. Hence he came back.
However, Miyagi says that Shinobu came back because being in a far off country, where you don't speak the language and you don't like the food, hence it must be tough, so he came back.
Shinobu says he like Miyagi once more.
Miyagi tries to shift the topic again. Shinobu asks him not to mock him anymore. Seems like he's pissed off.
Therefore, Miyagi ask him is he trying to fool him? Since he's 35 years old, in addition, he a man. Shinobu tells him that, does he think that it's his hobby to fly all the way back from Australia just to pull a prank on an old man?
Miyagi asks what does he want him to do?
It's simple. Take responsibility. Miyagi admits to himself that he don't understand what kids these days think.
The headmaster of the school where Miyagi is teaching in, which is his ex-wife father, is going away for work for two weeks, hence, he wants Miyagi to take care of Shinobu while he's away. Miyagi asks is there any inconvenience to let Shinobu stay at his own house?
Apparently yes, as his ex-wife is bringing her new boyfriend home to stay. Miyagi tries to find excuses saying that he has loads of work, and he wouldn't be home until past midnight. But due to the headmaster pleading, asking him to pass all the work to Hiro.
The headmaster doesn't know why Shinobu wanted to come home suddenly. This causes so much trouble for him.
He doesn't know that the reason for his son coming home so suddenly, is just standing in front of him. *laughs*
Miyagi thinks that, it's such headaches that he hates most. He had to accept it.
And so, here comes Shinobu the invader into Miyagi's house. His first impression was, pretty tidy for a widower.
Shinobu takes out a knife, forcing himself onto Miyagi. Shinobu decides that he'll be cooking stir-fry veggies
Welcome to Shinobu Cooking Guide!
Here's the methods in cooking Stir-fry veggies :
Note : Adult should always be nearby when using this method to cook.
And now, the product :
Including a very embarassed yet shocking face.
Guys. Heard that! MAKE A MANLY MEAL IF YOU'RE A MAN!
Okok. Miyagi insists on eating, while shinobu actually wants to throw it away. Miyagi asks about stuffs in Australia, in addition, he asks whether did Shinobu had a girlfriend in Australia.
Stepped on a landmine. How can you ask a person who just confessed his love towards you whether does he have a girlfriend? >_>"
Shinobu insists on wanting Miyagi to take responsibility. Miyagi says that both of them are men. Shinobu says that can't two men be together? Miyagi says that he's his ex-wife brother. Shinobu replies that both of them are divorced, and they aren't blood related anyways. Third excuse! Don't you think a seventeen year age difference is a little much?
Shinobu says, it's a little too much, that's why he wants him to take responsibility for having him falling for him. Miyagi asks what's that "responsibility". Shinobu says...
His responsibility is to fall in love with him. Miyagi finally sense that it's bad. He's stuck with a serious pain in the *insert here*. In the end, he still thinks that Shinobu is fooling with him.
While thinking, Hiro walks in. Miyagi rushes towards him and hugs him. LOL. Complaining that his life is in a mess.
In addition, he says Hiro is his source of comfort, while Hiro replies saying when did he even give him any. Miyagi asks is it well between Nowaki and him.
Hiro asks why did he ask this out of the blue. Miyagi says because Hiro skin looks very smooth lately. It is noted that it is often said that having sex is good for the skin. ._."
Hiro says that there's no "well" or "good" or anything, and gets panic. Miyagi says that playing with Hiro never fails to amuse him. Miyagi thinks that guys like Hiro are easy to handle as they would both know exactly how far they can go before it becomes too far. As both of them are adults.
Relationships are all about keeping the proper distance. That's the foundation of all peace. Then all you have to do is take a hint, read between the lines, all he wants is just to stop Shinobu from trying to enter his life.
A vision appears, and a lady is seen saying "Thanks for loving me." It's apparently a flashback I suppose.
Miyagi reaches home, and it is seen that Shinobu is reading cooking books. Miyagi asks whether which university Shinobu is aiming for. He says Mitsuhashi, which is the university Miyagi is teaching in. Miyagi asks which section, Shinobu says probably literature. Miyagi says that it's always good to know another person who likes literature. Shinobu says that he is not really interested in literature.
Miyagi lectures Shinobu, saying that it's not right to choose any department for fun.
Shinobu admits that because he's in the literature department' that's why he chooses it. Miyagi seems shocked, and says he's flattered. He adds on that, Mitsuhashi is no pushover, with such a half assed motivation, it's hard to get in.
Shinobu says that he is not having a half assed motivation, and further more, most people aim for schools which have their favorite lecturers in it. It's normal. Miyagi says that Shinobu has a ulterior motive, it's not normal at all. In addition, if he thinks that literature is just a stepping stool, he does not deserve to be accepted at all.
Miyagi asks why does it have to be him. Shinobu says because it's him. Miyagi reaches the breaking point. Saying, why does he keep doing this, keep trying to step into his life. Either he has some weird kinks, or why does he keep messing with him?
Miyagi says since Shinobu should be popular, as he's smart, good looking and rich. If he's looking for someone to fool around, why don't try someone else. Or is it because he figured that it's a thrill to sleep with a guy once.
Miyagi starts to do *ahem* with him, and after that, he plans in his mind that Shinobu, who gets his fingers burnt, and trembling in anger, would punch him twice or thrice, and leaves for his own home, case closed.
When he saw Shinobu crying, he knows that Shinobu is serious. Finally he did get that fact into his head. >_>"
Miyagi takes his briefcase and wants to leave. Shinobu holds him, saying that he never tries hard in class or sports, he just kind of did them and he was pretty good. *Screams. Give me your powah!* And with his family, he doesn't have to worry about money. That's why there's nothing he really wants to do, or wants to be.
But he's found one thing that really gets him crazy, which is Miyagi. He says is it that freaking bad to chase after that one thing? Miyagi avoids the question, and walks out.
The same flashback appears again, however this time the girl says, "Miyagi, thank you for loving me." It seems that it's an event happened years ago when Miyagi is young.
Miyagi wakes up seeing Shinobu starting at him, while in the midst of...stripping him. Miyagi says that why is he here? Shinobu actually figured out that if he's not coming home, he would be in his office. Miyagi says that a minor should not wander around at night, not noticing that it's already morning and classes have already started.
Miyagi got to his senses and act serious, saying that he's a man, Shinobu is also a man, and very sorry but he doesn't swing that way.
Shinobu asks whether did he did it with a guy before. Miyagi says no. Shinobu says then don't say that he doesn't swing that way since he didn't even try before. LOL.
Miyagi says that Shinobu have very bad taste, since he chose him. Miyagi picks up a call, and is heading for a used bookstore. Shinobu wants to follow, but Miyagi gives him a very stern warning, which is not to interfere with his work.
He lectures Shinobu that he should actually work hard since as a student, what's important is studying for the exams. If someone couldn't even that get point, he's just a kid, and he hates kids. And he asks him to go to school.
Shinobu asks whether Miyagi loves Matsuo Basho. Miyagi says he love it. Shinobu further presses that Matsuo Basho is a ninja. Since Shinobu means "nin" in ninja, Miyagi is allowed in falling in love with him! Lol. Warped reasoning.
This is the conclusion of Miyagi thoughts about Shinobu. Lol.
Ok, sorry for the lesser and lesser screen caps, I noticed that if it's purely screen caps, it would be quite messy I think ._. 51 screen caps in total...maybe I should add more or reduce.
