Woke up with chest wall pain...super pain la...

Read up on the net...saying with rest...should be ok...but ah...

Hope so ba...realli hope that it's nth serious...lol...

I'm being too optimistic, isn't it?

I don't care how long I can live, I don't care when I will die, I onli care about...

Did I live my life to the fullest?

Did I live my life the way I want to?

Did I totally "be myself" when I am living?

Will the people around me be sad when I'm gone?

Aren't these even more worrying?


-I wish for the same thing every night before I sleep, I dream of the same thing every night I sleep, yet every time I wake up, it is a different morning. I can't see where is my future...-

Labels: Daily Rants

Movie Synopsis:
The movie is set in ancient China when countless kingdoms battle for supremacy. A Princess, together with her loyal Warrior, is thrust to defend the country when their King is killed in a battle. When her evil cousin tried to kill her in order to take over the kingdom, she was saved by a mysterious man in the woods. The Princess falls in love with her saviour who gave her a new life. With the fate of her kingdom in the balance, she must choose between her duty and her dreams…

Personal Comments:
I don't really like Kelly Chen's acting. Totally too unreal. Her acting and speech is too stiff. Can see is totally fake out, and not being acted with true feelings. The screening time is quite short, and even though some people says, you can love someone in a split second, falling in love within three days seems too fast and too real to happen. The action scene is exciting. You can see carriages being crashed, spears piercing through the throat, arrow being plucked out with blood splashing, spears being plucked out from a person's body.

Even though I'm not an action fanatic, and I've really never heard before Donnie Yen, but his fighting scene is really damn nice. It's like watching a real life version of Dynasty Warriors. Where one person deals with a huge crowd of soldiers with spears, and killing alot of them before he dies. Wowness. Like a spartan on steroids!

Plot is predictable, and it just depicts that, a woman can discard wealth, status, power, just for love. But, in exchange, what does she get? Ok...shall stop before I give anymore further spoilers for those who haven't watch the movie yet?

Overall Ratings : 3/5

Labels: Movies

Labels: Personal Opinions/Stories/Poems

Went to catch this movie with jh, mt and chan to celebrate jh's bdae. Crows Zero ne.

Fight fight fight! Lol.

The mega-hit comic, CROWS, about feuding high school tough guys, has sold over 32 million copies in its eight-plus years. This feature length movie version of "CROWS" depicts the never-before-told origins of the story as "Episode Zero".

The Suzuran Senior High School for Boys, nicknamed "The School of Crows", is the poorest achieving, most violent school in the country. The students are called "crows" and they band together in factions, battling each other for influence and power. But they all share a common goal ... one that has never been reached in the school's history: unification. No one faction has ever reigned supreme.

Oguri plays the role of Genji Takiya, a transfer student who attempts to take over Suzuran Boys High School and is mentored by old boy yakuza Katagiri (Kyosuke Yabe) as he faces off against rival Serizawa (Takayuki Yamada).

Haha. After seeing that much, what attracted our attention is not these. I jus saw one comment and told them:

"Drooling Factor." <------


Hahaha. So went to watch.

It's a typical violence high school story, where one guy, Genji, wanna conquer the school, to succeed his father, and when he does it, he can succeed his father's yakuza.

Since that school is a violence school, he gains men thru fighting the most powerful person in that class, and some guys joined his team due to his attitude and never-die spirit? Lol.

Ohoh. Jh and mt commented that Izaki, the third guy frm the right is the most handsome in the movie. Aiyarh. I nvr care. I onli notice ruka. HOHOHO.

But nevertheless, let's continue. In the end, they fought until left two big factions, Genji and Serizawa. These type of story, in the end u know who win de la.

Need me to say spoiler out? No nd le la! Lol

5 star rating, I'll give it 4. Super love the fighting scene. *drools* I should go and learn aso hor? Haha.

Ja~

P.S GO AND WATCH IF U CAN! =)

Labels: Movies

Was searching bdae presents thru the net...den chanced upon this...



darn it~ if can I wanna chop off that mickey logo. LOL.

So nice lo...but I decided to give the cloud sword necklace ba...thx to jh. (And I'm currently crapping with her.) =)

Thanks fantuan for reco me that website. Got alot of stuffs I wanna buy there liao la~

Tomorrow dunno still going out anot. Sian leh.

Think I going to slp soon. Shagged.

Firefox prevents me from visiting blogspot blogs, yet allows me to post. weird.

OC is ok.
TD is ok.
PIPC2 is er...ok.
AM? I dunno! Fweak!

It's like, 11 more hours to the paper, and I still dunno how to calc ANOVA. Shit de lor. Pray hard tmr will be ok la. Last paper, dun make me feel so sad lehs. Sob.

I'm practically still mugging while dl-ing DJ Max Portable. Eeks. Guess I'm sleeping ard 4.30am bahs. I'm so hardworking ne? Hohoho. Self praise. LOL.

I am uptight with cash flow now ._. sob. Going to need money soon~ real soon~

I find the gap between me and iTouch is further....hais...my iTouch ah...how I desire u to be in my hands now T_T

Oh well~ Guess I've slacked enough. Back to mugging. After tomorrow, I'm fwee I'm fwee!

Might be going overseas nxt week...hahas. M'sia trip~ ^^

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I've not contacted my best friend for 10 years. We've broke up as friends just because of a minor dispute. Guess both of us are busy with work and our families. However, I wouldn't want such a rare friendship to end. 10 years of non-talking to each other seemed enough.

I told myself, "I'll contact him tomorrow." today. Tomorrow, I'll tell myself the same phrase again. It didn't struck to me that, how many "Tomorrow" must I have before I could find the courage to contact him?

It was then, I received a telegram. Saying that he passed away. I've regretted that I didn't get to tell him that I wanted to be friends with him like the past, where we laughed together, we cried together, we shared everything in our world together.

It is not how many "tomorrow" I had. It's how many "tomorrow" he had. It's due to my coward nature that I didn't contact him, and gave myself another tomorrow to contact him.

Why didn't I get the courage I wanted, when I needed it the most?
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-Is it real that once we've separated, we could never return to where we were?-

-I'm feeling all out of elements.-

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Looking back, it's been a few years since you left me. I regretted for not telling you that I love you so much, and blamed myself for being so dense, not knowing your feelings towards me.

I remember telling you my dreams and aspirations, I aspired being a lawyer. I remembered you told me that you wanted to be a professional pianist. The last words I heard from you was...

"You're like the sun, always being carefree and happy..."

Now I've become a lawyer, the days with you just seems to be a sweet dream...how I wished that you would appear beside me the next day, and we could be together...I would be brave now. I would confess my love to you. However...it's impossible.

It's been 5 years...

Since you left this world.
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Yosh~ TD is good! Next is PIPC2. GAMBATTE!

Labels: Personal Opinions/Stories/Poems

Ok. Today I'm going to diedie RECOMMEND you this movie. Sky of Love!

Today went to watch this movie with Si Lei, haha...walked into the theater with a predictable storyline in my head. But, HELL WITH IT MAN! So what if it's a predictable storyline. As long as the acting touches me, I definitely think that it's a nice movie. Hehs.

The actors feelings is sososo like genuine de lor. Haha. I bet, if u give this storyline to some other country and ask their actors to act, it wouldn't get it to me that hard. Japanese romance movies really aims to squeeze those tears out of your dear eyes.

I cried thrice in this movie. Damn paiseh lor! Haha. But who cares? I find it sad that, in the end, they have to part.

I totally recommend this movie to couples~ and singletons too. Cry for their great love! <3

I found the Part 1 chinese novel at kinokuniya. Dang it. NO MONEY TO BUY. RAWR. Going to go down somehow this wk to go buy. Lol.

-If I didn't met you, I would not have such pain and sad memories, but...if I didn't met you, I wouldn't know what happiness and sweet memories are.-

MY GAWD! Juz bcos of this movie, I'm really turning into a...person who only wants such true love. AHHHHHHHH.

The only insert song in this movie is nice. It's called Heavenly Days by Aragaki Yui.

Lyrics :

Romanji Version:

Heavenly days

mezamashi ga na ru mae ni oki te toki wo tomeru
omoidaseru no wa mou nantonaku da kedo kimi no koto
ichi okubou no kimi ni ae ta kiseki nanka mo
itsu no ma ni ka wasure chau ka na
wasure ta koto sae mo kitto wasure te shimau no
heavenly days

mune no poketto no heya
kimi no kie ta nukumori wo sagasu yo
mou nidoto kimi wo omou koto wa naku te mo
mada sukoshi atataka ano hibi ni kagi o kake te


aruki tsukare te suwarikon de tohou ni kure te
kanawa nai yume yu'ni toka futari nara ie ta
kaisatsu guchi de ie nakatta ii takatta
' arigatou'tte kotoba wa tabun
' sayonara ' yori mo kanashii katoba ni omou no
heavenly days

umaku warae te ta ka na
saigo no kisusu kurueru kimi no te o
nigire nakatta namida sae ochi nakatta
hitoripocchi ni nari imasara afure dasu yo
heavenly days

mune no poketto no heya
kimi no kie ta nukumori wo sagasu yo
mou nidoto kimi wo omou koto wa nakutemo
te o nobashi te mi te mo koko ni wa mou i nai yo
atarashii hikari no shita aruki dasu yo

English Translation :

I turn off the time to wake up before the alarm clock ressounds
I don't know why but I can already remember you

I wonder if, before I know it, I'll forget
even the miracle of being able to meet you for one hundred minutes
Will I end up forgetting even that I've forgotten?

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
I'm locking up those days that are still a bit warm

Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me
We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream's fate

I couldn't say it by the ticket barrier, I wanted to say
That I feel "Thank you" are maybe words
much sadder than "goodbye"

Heavenly days, I wonder if I could smile properly
At the scene of our last kiss, I couldn't even
grasp your shivering hands, not even my tears fell, ah
Now that it's too late, they overflow when I'm alone

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
Even if I stretch out my hands, you're not here anymore
I'll walk on under a new light

Credits to http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/6989//aragaki-yui/heavenly-days.html

There's the video there! My gawd. Actually, I like the lead actress in this movie. So kawaii ne~

Ok, going to revise for TD liao. Ja mata!

Labels: Daily Rants, Movies, Personal Opinions/Stories/Poems

Ok~ I was LATE for the paper. OMG CAN. The freaking lift is so....!@#$

I went into the lift with 3 person. My destination is lvl 5. I was late already. Den I pressed 5. Another person pressed 4. Another one pressed 3! WTF.

Wait wait panic panic. Finally reached lvl 5. Couldn't find classroom! Finally found. Was sososo late la. Alot of ppl reach liao. Sat down and started to writewrite like there's a writer possessing me liddat.

Ok, OC2 is not that difficult, but the question phrasing really cmi. That's what I can say...just hope that my grades not that bad ><

Went home and felt uber shagged.

Couldn't get the umbrella club. MAD! Argh.

Bought the checkered skirt for arin~ <3

Ok, still waiting for my cousin to buy the cookies for a18. Argh. He buy le, I still have to wait for 7 days to receive the cookies. MAD la! Wait so long T_T

Later sem break finish liao still cannot play a18. YOU SAY LEH! ><

Listening to pop star by Hirai Ken~

His song is sooooo. Hyped up~

I wanna be a pop star~ pop pop star~ popopop star! Lol.

To relax~ gonna anihow write something I thought of!

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We both believed in forever.
We believed that our feelings will last,
Our hands will be joined forever,
Both of us will walk the same path together, forever.

But, what can I say?
We started to go into the mending stage,
Breaking, patching, breaking and patching, it's like a never-ending cycle.
Everything seems fine, but with every patching up, another scar is being added to the clean slate.
Sooner or later, we will part.

This is true. I predicted it will happen. It is just...
Who will initiate it?
Who will feel sad about it?
Who will mourn over this failed relationship?
It is either me...
Or you.
This is just a test of who will not stand this situation any longer, and just wished to end it.

Alas, the day had arrived.
It was I, who couldn't stand this stagnant situation anymore.
Yet, you agreed nonchalantly.
I was not shocked, yet happy that you realised it too.
Why bother to hold onto it, while both of us will suffer so much.
It's much more better being friends right?

And yet, deep inside me, I wanted her to at least say no, or at least fight or reason it out.

Everything is over. It's time to move on.

Moving on, another pain-enduring phase to go through.

Yet what waits ahead, is unknown.
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Happy Good Friday to everyone~ (Even though it's early.)

Labels: Daily Rants, Personal Opinions/Stories/Poems

Got tagged by Cheryl~ gonna try this now...

How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?
Xi Huan Ni - (Forgot singer's name, gonna check later...lol.)
I miss her so much today >.< I feel so lost today...after doing my supp papers. Dunno lei...relaxed I suppose? Not yet! 3 more papers leh!!!!


Will you get far in life?
Speechless - The Veronicas
I aso dunno leis. That's y speechless? But I know what I want! =) I wanna get far in life!

How do your friends see you?
I Will Remember You - Ryan Cabrera
Remember me ok!

Will you get married?
4 In The Morning - Gwen Stefani
I will get married in 4 in the morning. Hahahaha. Dunno leh. This song sounds sad. Let's make it righttt. Marry! Lol. It all lies in the future.

What is your best friend's theme song?
Angel - Cai Mei Yi
Woo. My best friend's theme song is angel leh. So innocent! Haha.

What is the story of your life?
Xing Dong Xing Tong - Liu Geng Hong & Shi Hui Xin

Wow. I get touched and I got hurt. Ow. I don't want my life to be like that lor. Happy abit can anot! Haha. Although I feel a lil sad now ._.

What was high school like?
He Wasn't - Avril Lavigne

Huhh? My high school is not what I want? Haha. He wasn't~ but...my high school is not a guy! I like TP life aso leh. So...exciting der.

How can you get ahead in life?
Natsu Matsuri - Whiteberry
I get ahead my life like a summer festival, full of memories and fun xD

What is the best thing of your friends?
Look After You - The Fray

They look after me! So nice rite! ^^

What’s in store for this weekend?
When I'm Gone - Simple Plan
Me disappearing? OMG. Hahaha. I'm not gone! I'm juz revising for tests ><

Describe your grandparents.
Yi Yan Wan Nian - S.H.E
Time pass quite fast for them. That's what I can say using this song ._.


How’s your life going?
Nolita Fairytale - Vanessa Carlton
My life is like a nolita fairytale? Wow.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Kiss Goodbye - Wang Lee Hong
Aww, dear guests, please kiss me ok? Haha. Remember to say goodbye...or I'll come find you! XD

How does the world see you?
Ren Zhi - Zhang Hui Mei
The world see me as a hostage in love ._. That's quite true. I'm bad at love la! T_T

Will you have a happy life?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
Like a tattoo, I will have a happy life like a tattoo embedded on something~ Meaning for a long time~ Haha!

Do people secretly lust after you?
Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood
No. They lust for me because they want an "ever ever after"...be careful for what you wish for! Sometimes an "ever ever after" is not good at all.

How can you make yourself happy?
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Kissing myself! OMG that's totally weird! It's like kissing a mirror lor! EW EW EW!

What should you do with your life
Built To Last - Melee
My life is built to last, so I can do alot of stuffs with my life~ Yay!

Will you ever have children?
Ghost of You and Me - BBMak
What?! Ghost of you and me as my children! OMG. This is so !@#$. Cursing me before I get married already...

What song would you strip to?
Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
Erm, I strip to such a sad song? No way! But I might strip for eu, the "special" eu =)

What song will be played at your wedding?
Me and You - Cassie
Erm, playing such a "underlying" sexual song at my wedding? Should I shout....
KEWL! or EW! Haha.

Now for the "you're tagged!" list :
1.Chan~
2.Mt~
3.Jh~
4.Dardar~
5.Karilynn

Good Luck to myself~ and to the others taking supp papers soon!

*Prays*

Ok going to go revise and going to grandma hse latr liao. Siannnnnn.

Keep it short~

-> Went too early.
-> Kenny called to ask for directions.
-> Phad came last min.
->Played pool with Royston and yc.
-> Kenny arrived with Reen, Sq, Vivian, Sharlene, Dominic and Travun.
-> Finshed playing pool.
-> Went to bowl.
-> Had losta fun. Phad arrived.
-> Went to have dinner at the hawker centre nearby.
-> Waited a hell long time for a seat.
-> Had, chicken wings, satay, 2 cups of sugarcane juice, 1 bowl of ice kachang for dinner.
-> Walked a hell long way to the bus-stop.
-> Slept on bus.
-> Walked home.
-> Slept 2 hours later.

Conc : Shag but enjoyable day.

Update: Pics!






-It was now that I realised something.-

He just stood there waiting, she just stood there watching.

No one is taking the step forward. Yet they like each other.

I wonder what the hell are they doing? Hahas. Amazing leh~ These type of plots.

Saw this song at mtv~ addicted to it since =)

Sara Bareilles - Love Song.

Labels: Daily Rants

74 words

Speedtest

gogo try!

Labels: Quiz

I'm sorry. I know you've heard it alot of times...

I blame myself for,

not being able to go to you whenever you're lonely,

not being able to stay with you whenever you're sad,

not being able to console you whenever you're unhappy about stuffs.

I wonder am I really that good for you? I wonder why does things always like to happen at the same time.

I'm just so fed up and mad with myself. Why couldn't things work out just like what I've thought?

You said it is not my fault, but I am at fault. This is true. I'm wrong.

I'm just so not responsible.

-Why do I only try to salvage things when everything went really wrong?-

*emo*

Labels: Daily Rants

Rawr...

There's revision session on nxt monday and tuesday, gonna go and MUGMUGMUGMUGMUG liao.

I'm sooooo trying hard now ): So please, let me make it!

Tomorrow got Chen lao shi treating lunch. YAY!

-I'll alwaes love you, even though I don't say it. Cause I don't know how to express it well.-

Canon in D major rawks~~ ^^

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I am officially sick of your antics. Thank you.

Thank you chan for listening to my rantings~

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CHAN HONG YU!

Haha. Big enuff? lolol!

Ok, so met chan and mt to go to T3 to walk around. Serious. Walk around. Haha. Was late. Sorry!
So, we went to loiter around until 3pm. I went to the toilet before that, and I found a hp inside a cubicle. Lol. Didn't take it~

So we went to sakae sushi to have the sushi buffet. Ate too much >_>" till I'm so stuffed -.-" The tuna mayo so **** nice! And I tried the salmon thingy that taste like baby octopus o.o

So after that, went into a shop called "The Rainbow Caravan". Bought jelly beans there. It's hard to find jelly beans in sg. Surprisingly, they have the assorted flavours which is like...70++ flavours? Random pick luh.

And that we took the skytrain -.- That skytrain is sosososososo slow. In addition. HOT. Like totally no air-con at all.

Finally, reached T3. Picture taking session starts ^^.



The ceiling!



The trolley is arranged so neatly. Good service?



Left : Mt Right : Bdae girl




Shit from unidentified animals. Nah. It's chocolate coated jelly bean. But the jelly bean inside is hard to chew >_>



Rude! LOL.




Supposedly there's raindrops. But my cam couldn't catch it. Sad.



The exit to nowhere >_>




Couldn't find the "down" button on the wall. And it's right....infront of the lift.




Toilet is at the top...ok this is cold.



I"M PRACTICALLY LAME ENOUGH TO TAKE PICTURES OF THE FLY IN THE URINAL.




Larger scale of arranged trolleys. My my, aren't they so free? =p



I juz can't get enough of this ceiling. So nice.



It doesn't look like a coffee to me. Two person kissing instead =p



Classic cartoon! But it sells chicken and biscuits. LOL.



Coconut tree in airport? LOL. Not coconut tree though. If not dangerous liao.



Side view of the lift. Don't look like to me though.



Why do they build such things in the airport? Don't understand.



It is sure a MULTI-PURPOSE place. Lol.



And finally, the nice nice fountain where I couldn't get the image of the water halfway in the air. Grr.

Ok, that's all for my T3 tour. Lol.

In conc, T3 is a multi-purpose and kinda quiet place. Suitable for muggers to be at, since there's supermarket too. Headache still can go clinic get medicine. Lol.

After that, went to TM to watch movie.

PLEASE EVERYONE.

WATCH STEP UP 2 : THE STREETS.

SUPER NICE. COOL DANCIN MOVES! Haha. Must watch it ok!

He's coming back soon~ gonna go airport with parents to fetch him~ Can't wait for his gifts ^^ It' ALWAYS amaze me. Haha.

Labels: Daily Rants

Doesn't anyone understands that...

->I'm certainly NOT a morning person.

->When I'm uber sleepy...I'm very EASILY agitated and irritated.

->I get mad easily when I'm SLEEPY.

Lacking sleep sure makes me a bad person =.="

Ok, time to write a lil more before meeting mal...MORNING AHH!

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当人们说，若离开是最好的选择，你又何必坚持说。。。
“他迟早会知道我的好，而选择和我在一起的。”

我只能跟你说，这种童话故事的结局，根本是找不到的。
不是说我否认会有这种事情发生，只是我要你想想看，

这种事情真的有那么容易发生吗？
对，我知道你想抱着那么一丝微妙的希望。

我只是不想你再浪费没有必要浪费的时间。

所以，朋友啊，不要再执迷不悟，坚持下去了。

Eng translation :

When they say, "Since leaving is the best choice...",
Why do you have to insist that..
"One day he will know I'm the best choice for him, and he will come back to me."

I can only tell you that, these type of fairytale ending won't happen.
Not that I don't believe it will happen, I just want you to think.

Does these type of ending happens so easily?
I know that you wanted to hold on to even a little strand of hope that you have.

But I just don't want you to waste any of your time holding on such meaningless things.

So, my dear friend, stop being silly, and being such persistent in your thoughts.

Labels: Daily Rants

前意识作祟。。。想着想到失眠。。。

Labels: Daily Rants

Zhu ni kuai le~ ni ke yi zhao dao gen hao de~

Went out yest to watch Meet the Spartans with hy and mt. It's full of sexual humor. Yeah, laughed till I can't stand up from the seat ahs. That's quite exaggerating le. Okok.

After that met jh and we went to City Hall. When we reached there, we saw losta ppl cerry IT stuffs. Den rmb got IT Fair. Bleh. Went to Marina Square to...

KBOX! Haha. Damn high luh. Keep on holding the mike XD

Bu yao qiang wo de mai ke feng!

After that went home to have dinner, and slept. =) Shagged.

-Thank god everything is ok.- =)

Labels: Daily Rants

Tried out s4 today, and got an e-card (like gacha in pysea), and I got the rare item for kaz >_>, realli lucky or not? Lol.

Ok, short update. Revising for lotsa stuffs. Who wanna mug during sem break? My gawd lols.

Ok, gonna go out to watch movie nw! Ja~~

P.S : Changed blog music to Free Loop by Daniel Powter. Love the bg music. Make me feel happy. =) And yes, lyrics!

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't
leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it
suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need
someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah

And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

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This is what I got from my friend's blog...it says...finding what you like and your views on stuffs.

What you like in these areas:
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Music : Generally anything music that sounds nice or soothing, I will fancy them. Don't realli prefer any genres, but dislike Heavy Metal and Techno.

Movies : Romance, comedy, mystery, adventure, anime and action. No horror for me.

Books : Any prologue that catches my interest. Or diary-entry type books.

Comics : Shouldn't this be categorised into books too? Prefers bittersweet romance, comedy romance, fantasy action/adventure. Or daily life comedies too! But any storyline that catches my interest, I'll get em!

Clothing : Anything that feels comfortable. Don't really go for style =)

Games : RPG, RPG, still RPG.

Drama : Comdey, romance, mystery.

Pets : German Shepard! Don't you just find them cute?! ^^

Accessories : Anything that is craved nicely, or with a tint of silver ._.

Celebrities : No such preference. Aren't they also normal people? ><

Sweets : Every kind. Chocolates too! Especially mint!

Drinks : Honeydew juice! LOVE EM LOTSA!

Food : Sushi please? ^^

Ice Cream : MINT MINT MINT MINT!!!!!!!

Hangout : My bed. Airport! ^^

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Friendship : Trust, share of feelings. Nothing much to say.

Love : Trust too! Don't you get that everything builds on trust? Hahas...and. Nothing last forever, I can give you promises till my lifetime ends, but I will not give a dillusional promise such as forever...

Own personality: Ok this kills me. Willing to go all out for things I want. Clumsy. Don't remember things I don't want to. Good at giving advices to others, but not to myself. Real bad in relationships. Introvert to strangers, extrovert to friends. Real quiet when next to someone...I love~ and...whatever I think appears on my face. LOLS!

Your room : Messy. I don't clean up that often. Bed is messy too. Books all aroud my room. First to die when my house catches fire.

Family : Average but happy family! Even though we don't talk about serious stuffs that often, but we show how we care in an "indirect" way =)

Overall lifestyle : Trying to change to a better one. First is..I really need to lose weight ><

Your ideal bf/gf : There's nothing ideal, but one thing I need for my other half would be...outgoing ^^. I really tend to keep REAL quiet when I'm around the person I like. So please...talk and interact with me more ^^"

Persons you wanna tag this: Anyone who wanna do it, can do it! ^^

Yay~ finally finished. Lol.

-Once bitten, twice bitten, in the end, still got bitten.- DAMN MOSQUITOS.

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Thanks sq~ Hahas...for telling me there's class gathering.

And when I saw the email...dun habbs my NAME leh.

Aww, so I'm not in 3e2/4e2 leh. SAD.

RANTING LIKE MAD NOW! I dunno whether izzit u dislike me, or I'm juz plain NON-EXISTANT.

Labels: Daily Rants

When we started, I know you loved me, and I loved you deeply too. We shared our items, our secret, and our lives with each other. I can sense you, and find you within the crowd, and you could do it too. Everyone said that we were meant for each other, but, don’t they understand that “love do fade over time?” I prayed that this would not happen between us.

Soon, we started to quarrel. I do know that in the end, we resolved the problem, and we got together again. Everything seems to be fine, yet, I started to find something different. Our relationship is just like a shattered mirror. Even though you place the parts together again, there will still be scars that could be seen after mending.

And, the day I feared happened. You started to become cold towards me. You send messages to me everyday, but now, I only received your messages twice per week. Every time I called you, you would abruptly end the call within minutes, saying “I’m busy. I’ll call you later.” But you never called back.

Whenever I asked you out, you’ll say, “I’m busy. Perhaps other day?” Last time whenever I asked you out, you’ll shelve away all your stuffs. I know that I’m comparing the past and the present, but, I can’t seem to stop being insecure.

One day, while I’m out with my friends, due to you saying that you’re busy. Guess what I saw? I saw you holding hands with a girl, acting intimately. I didn’t have the courage to go up to you to settle it out, yet I know, every part of me has started to crumble. I started to become listless, restless, senseless. I see to transformed into a lifeless zombie.

I hoped that you would come and find me, console me, telling me that everything I saw is an illusion. But, you never came to find me totally. You have not contacted me for weeks.

Until one day, you called me, asking me out. I held my hopes high, and went out. The first thing I heard when you saw me is…

“I’m sorry. Let’s break up.”

I pretended that I did not listen what he said, yet he held me down, and said it again, staring into my eyes.

Tears start to well up, and all I could mustered up is an “Okay.”

I walked away, not hearing out what he had to said. Everything is over. Nothing lasts forever. Our love is just so brittle.

Since then, I started my days with tears, and ended my days with tears. My friends didn’t know how to console me. They knew what happened, but I just brushed it off with a smile in my face. I was smiling, yet deep down inside, I was wailing.

“You light my life up, and you took the light away…”

Whenever you walked near me, I ran away. Whenever you call me, I refused the call.

“Since you want a breakup, why can’t you have a clean breakup with me?!”

Life seems to go the wrong way, why not end it before it went crashing down?

I stood infront of the school's toilet mirror, and smashed it.

"Goodbye, world."

Blood came dripping down my wrists, it seems to be never ending.

Just then, I saw him rushing in. He held me, and called for help.

"Why...why do you still come when you personally threw me down the cliff with your words?"

I heard him called my name for the last time, and then, my body felt heavy, and I can't hear any sounds, I can't see anything. Everything is over...

I thought I left this world...when I opened my eyes, I saw bright light...

I was in the hospital.

My parents hugged me when they found out that I regain conciousness. A pang of guilt suddenly hit me.

"Why did I do such silly stuffs? Why didn't I think about the feelings of the people that I left behind?"

"Sorry.." was the only word that came out of my mouth before I cried.

When things became calmer, I noticed a letter by the bed.

It was from him...

I read it, and...

To Be Continued.

What ending do you want? =p

Wrote this out due to boredom =x It's morning man!

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