My situation isn't getting better...sobz...the doc say maybe bad news are comin...hais...maybe life's realli over? Just hope that it isn't anything serious...

Went out to chill with Rilynn and Dang, and giving her some help on Chemistry. Joked ard with them...hahas. Did some quizzes thingy...laughed frantically when I heard about what dang said about Rilynn. Tomorrow is ccss sports day...dunno wanna go anot...maybe going, maybe not. Now I worry more abt my situation ba...just hope that wun end up in the h-o-s-p-i-t-a-l.

I miss my old life, I miss my friends, I miss my old school...I miss everything in the past.

Can everything just come back into place...?

I wonder...

Currently hearing this song...When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne...intro ppl to buy her album. She Rawks. Here's the lyrics:

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

We were made for eachother
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah all I ever wanted was for you
To know everything I do i give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel here you with me Yea...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

I miss you.

I miss everything in the past. I want everything in the past. I want everything in the future too. Am I really that selfish to ask for that much?...I dunno...hais...

Treasure it. When you have it.

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Life's unfair. That's what I would totally agree on...if someone said that. Sick again! Never went for the orientation bcos of that. Hais. Totally frustrated. My friend say that.."Life's only fair at one time, which is death." I dun agree, as I told him some die early, while some die later. But his reply is so funny. "It's fair, bcos, those hu die early no nd to suffer, but those hu die later, need to suffer more." Total lol-ness. -.-"

Kinda semi-quitted pangya, and changed my nick to Crux.Toya``...this nick realli that bad mehs? =.=" and now roro called me toto xD...nini called me Toyota -.-""...and says that I owe him Toyota AE86 (Reminds me of Initial D)...

Sick. Stoned at home for 3 whole days. Almost completed Shadow Hearts : From the New World. Left some sidequests never do onli..On tv...watched mtv, keep on seeing Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend MV, and Hilary Duff - With Love MV...realli sian 1/2 lers. Top Video of the Week in MTV is Katharine McPhee...OVER IT! This song realli rocks...hahas.

Song of the day is by The Fray - How to Save A Life...here's the lyrics:

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Save someone life, before it ends too late for regrets. Treasure what you have, and work hard for what you do not have. Gtg now, cyaz!

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Went to meet Kai Keat early in the morning, to go to school to collect the official O Level result strip. (Big one, laminated nicely :) ) After that, went to the dnt block walk walk...chat chat with the teachers...den the security guard uncle chased us out. -.-" so...went back to eastpoint and went to the arcade while waiting for Yann Chang, when he arrived...we waited for him outside eastpoint while he went to school to collect his result strip.

After that, walk with them to the coffee shop, den took a train to Tampines to meet the rilynn and dang. Reached le...saw rilynn teaching her, can faint. Their tution finish liaos, went to watch Mr Bean Holiday. Not realli a nice movie...because not that much funny parts.

After that, went to Bugis with dang, den walked ard, till Jun Hui arrives, den walked around, went to the wallet shop to buy a wallet that cost $39.90. (Money fly... T.T) After that, Mei Ting arrives, den went to yoshinoya to makan~ after that, dang have to go lers, den went to bugis street...bought a sling bag...which costs $32 (More money fly T_T). Den went home, veri veri shag...went online, chatted with chan...tmr still need to go buy food...realli can faint le lars. AHHHHHHH~ I need a damn vacation. Just bring me outta SINGAPORE. (Sentosa aso can.)

Currently listening to this song...veri veri nice...called Over It, by Kathering Mcphee. Changing this song to my blog music bahhs...here's the lyrics =)

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me
When you knowI'm not OK
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin' me
I know
You're not alone

Oh
And that's why
Your eyes
I'm over it
Your smile
I'm over it
Realized
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Tryin' to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt

Oh
And that's why
Your world
I'm over it
So sure
I'm over it
I'm not your girl
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over

Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it
I'm so over it

Woo-oh-oh

Don't call
Don't come by
Ain't no use
Don't ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more
Cryin' in the rain

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-wo-wo

I'm so over it
Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it
I'm so over it

I'm so over it
Wanting you
To be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over
I'm so
Moving on
And it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
And now I'm so over
So over it

Maybe, it's time...to realli get over it...and move on =) this is what I have learnt frm this song...cyaz!

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Went to hand in my enrolment envelope today...den went to Funan IT Mall to collect the internet security thing...den went to bugis to buy something awhile...den went home...had dinner..stone in front of the tv. Went online, bloghop to karilynn's blog...saw this thing http://paulgoldinresearch.com/cg...it's very, very accurate. This is my profile :

At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.

You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.


This is true, I need a VACATION! I'm so stressed that I'm on the verge of breakdown. Gonna stop here...cyaz!

Quote : If tears could wash away pain, if tears could wash away sadness...if tears could wash away love...if tears could wash away hate...there will be no tears in this world...

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