立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
800th post! I wonder how long has it been since I created this blog to blog about my daily life. Well, I'll still strive harder just to reach 1000, and not just by posting one sentence post everyday. [Though I'm kind of tempted to do so.]
Tomorrow there's a Pangya patch, and apparently there's a leak! :D
So I guess I'll be dumping pang into papel shop just to get Devil Tails D:
Recently other than doing some work, I've been rewatching anime. So my current anime is Saiunkoku Monogatari! Damn nice, but I guess I'll rewatch Honey and Clover too. -sigh- [seriously need money for my 1TB hard-disk.]
It has been 3 days since I started the a word a day project, so here's 3 new word that I've learned! :D
Hypothermia:
Noun, that means "abnormally low body temperature."
Premeditation:
1.The act of speculating, arranging, or plotting in advance.
2. Law The contemplation of a crime well enough in advance to show deliberate intent to commit the crime; forethought.
Montage:
The technique of combining in a single composition pictorial elements from various sources, as parts of different photographs or fragments of printing, either to give the illusion that the elements belonged together originally or to allow each element to retain its separate identity as a means of adding interest or meaning to the composition.
Just finished editing this whole template made by Yiling of animeskies [credits are at the bottom of the blog, heh.]
Wanted to go back to the original blogger template, but am not supposed to do so because I'm trying to learn how to edit HTML. And it's too difficult to edit blogger's template. [And I don't particularly love their template, so...you get the idea.]
Header picture is done by me, which I find it...quite satisfactory lolz. I need lozenges. Sore throat...sigh.
Ohoh! Before I update what happened a few days, weeks ago, here's a MV that I loved!
Today's 5-4-3: ~~~~ When I wake up, another day has pass by.
Sometimes, I wonder can time slow down? It passes by way too fast. Yet somehow I wished that I could be abandoned by time, not aging. How I wished I was still a kid. ~~~~
Zhifang came to my house today. Lol. It was raining so heavily and seriously, having an umbrella doesn't even help. After scanning what she wanted, I went to collect...
Star Ocean: The Last Hope! ^^ *swoons*
But no guide book wtf. Star Ocean series is the only game so far that I really find that I need the guide book. GROWL.
I went to my usual bloghopping sites, at Sweatlee found an application called poladroid, I downloaded it and gave it a try, couldn't find any nice pics of ME! Sad huh.
So I used the above picture to make a Polaroid picture.
I photoshopped the vines into it la. Haha. It's damndamndamn fun.
Oh! I am in love with one of Jennifer Love Hewitt songs. It's called How Do I Deal. ^^ It's nice! Apparently some of her songs are nice, while some is too slow...
-Wish I could float away, to some other day.-
Here I come Star Ocean~ ^^ Oh. Changed blog header. Finished this...it's Ayumu from Spiral. March theme. Maybe I should edit a little more...
December. The month of spending. This is very very true. No rebuttals! 2008, worst spending year ever. It's not even the mid of December and I'm already quite broke. [Partly because I've saved alot of money for the upcoming games, although someone kind sponsered two for me! ^^]
Saw this v.v. cute pic at deviantart done by lylia-chan! It's lovely complex themed, and it looks like it suits chirstmas, therefore I'll be using it for this month! Time to plan another header for 2009, and my resolutions. (Gosh I hate making resolutions but I want to make one to restrict myself!)
Life seems to be v.v. okay now! I'm okay! I'm fine! REALLY! Hahahaha. Who am I kidding I wonder. Sore throat and slight fever. Haha. I should be in bed. Yet I just woke up from a nap? I wonder what's with the constant ironically stuffs happening in my life.
So, no one planned christmas yet. Haha. I wonder what will happen this year? Last year was bbq at Andrew's house! And I remember the molopoly in hell (which was never-ending), and it lasted for about 4hours. But it was funnnnn. Stacked all the cash under free parking, whoever gets it win. LOL.
I think there's really quite little to say about my life? HAHA. Reading and drawing. What a recreational lifestyle. Which uses 0% of my energy hahaha. (Except for the constant erasing of the picture?)
Okay I think I'd better get some sleep now.
WHEN CAN I WATCH 4 CHRISTMASES?!
P.S :Can anyone tell me if you saw the dvd/vcd of "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time"? Greatly appreciated. It's the anime version (2006), not the live action movie (I found out there's a live action one when I saw wiki.)
I dunno when I'll blog here again, so check back if you want to!
Just some final things to say, since I'm not coming online that often anymore I suppose. Er...to my poly groupmates who visit my blog..thanks! I've gotta tell you something, if you manage to see this...than great...but after all I'll be sending an email to you too! But it'll be tomorrow. I'll be deferring for this semester again...so I won't be seeing you peeps until when all of you come back in 3.2, while I think I would be in 2.2.
Thanks for being my classmate, and I really liked this class alot! Sigh...
And...even though I applied for deferment, but if you peeps need any help, please feel free to call me okay? I'll try my best to help...ain't making my life any harder, but I just wanna help out if I could.
So...that's all.
Somehow I realised that being away from the computer does make me less prone to overuse it. Wowwwwwww. Last blog header change before I go weeewooweee ):
Everything is as it should befalls apart. Hmm. I saw it somewhere so I decided to kope that phrase you knowwwww. Hahaha. Okay I'm so gonna go cause I bought La Corda Doro DVD for $9. LOL! 25 episodes 9 bucks. Hahahahaha.
Half. I'll half my expectations for my wishful thinking that it'll happen. That the miracle would happen. One of my wish will happen. That I'll be happy at the end of 2008. I'll wait till then.
Let's just say, I'm assuming that there's no miracles already.
There are no miracles in this world. There's only the inevitable, and the coincidences.
So that's why I decided to half it. At least when the time comes, I wouldn't be that disappointed, and I'll still go into 2009 with a better mood! ^^"
That's what I think (:
I'm starting fresh in 2009! ^^ I'll change my attitude toward stuffs. Maybe my personality too heh. I've already started things I wanted to try, things that I never wanted to do. [For instance...exercise.] LOL!
In life, you've gotta try everything at least once! Heehee! ^^
Oh! I changed my blog song again. White Mage's Theme from chocobo racing. This song is nice...it's quite soothing. And for me...there's a scent of nostalgia and tint of melancholy in it. Maybe that's why I like it?
-I know...what it's gonna happen. Because it will never happen. Let it die down...since it's been so long...so long.-
-The jealous trouble others, but they torment themselves.- <- saw this in a book. Maybe I should buy that book. 36 ways to heaven or something like that. DAMN MEANINGFUL book. ^^"
After the previous events, (Laughing,crying, freak thingy...) I've been having recollections of the past. Whew damn scary. Childhood times is so so so scary. Traumatised.
Okay lemme try to go on a happy mood a little. I've some overdue gifts that I haven't give to anyone yet.
Fantuan! I bought 2 shana boxes with nothing! Okay la. there's something in there but I dunno what's it. And...a lucky star gachapon...(I wanted more but no coins and I dunno how to say change haha.) With the specky class moniter inside ): Forget her name...Mi something one. =x Not inclusive of the sushi.
Hahaha. Next up is...
My birthday pressie from mt and jh. Thankssssss. I'm still trying to find a longer chain hahaha.
What I've drawn when in bed. (:
What I really really want now/christmas/lottery prizes/whatever that makes people give me stuffs:
Okay this is so so so not fair. Why Last Remnant is out in xbox360 yet not ps3? It will be released at a later date. With no damn announcement on when it is. Pfft. Why every game I wanted came out on xbox but not ps3? [Eternal Sonata (out), Tales of Vesperia, Infinite Undiscovery, Star Ocean 4, Last Remnant.]
Final Fantasy Dissidia. WOOTS.
DJ Max Portable Black Square! I just wished club mode isn't that tough.
Persona 4 English version. Hahaha. I completed the wacky jap version and I wan english nao to understand the story hahaha. But it's fun (: Damn fun. Hard too. Peesh.
Twilight by Stephenie Meyer! I still haven't got my Breaking Dawn yet ):
Brave Story!! Since I'm lazy to watch the movie, (Or should I say I totally missed it and I don't want to buy the movie...) I decided to pick it up in novel format.
OH! OH OH OH! Anyone wanna watch this? 27 nov. ): Changed blog song to Aioi by Juned. <3 Junjou Romantica 2 Ending hahaha.
Rewatching Lovely Complex. Very nice and funny hahahaha. It made me feel happier (:
Nuff said. I want it. Just saw the trailer...and guess what? The graphics is damn better than the online version, and in this psp version, there's no *cough* cheaters *cough* hackers *cough* If it's not online, but if it is, there's *cough* CWCheats *cough* Sighhh. But nevertheless, it seems to be quite a high-end game to me, considering that I've been playing to many 8bit games. Star Ocean anyone? =p
A pretty bird flies by...
Salpin and Titanboooooo. Kooh <3
Scout and Salpin (: <- I prefer the psp version scout.
Kaz...
New character, not Lucia. It's Cien! <- Looks hawt.
VS mode.
Vs conversation much I suppose.
Tour mode?!?! Maybe.
Settings, minigames, I presume.
Look at those maps. Btw, I think it's only until season 3? Because the trailer doesn't shows Lost Seaway. ):
Shop, tourney prizes? It's hard to say.
Kooh =)
New caddie? Or new skin?
I want this if it's a caddie!
*drools* Arin...*cough* I think it's the shop. *cough*
Hatred rising. Paps shop >_>"
I think maybe Ntreevsoft loves swordsmen/women. Is that a katana?
If this is Cien, I don't mind. Looks so breula-ish.
That's all. This trailer has made me damn happy. That I forgot...I have to eat antibiotics now. The inflammation is not gone yet. Sighhhhhh. Oh well. Another game for me to enjoy. Pangyaaaaa. Btw. Header changed again. I'm just so fickle. Hahahaha. Sighhh.
-We have to make our own choices. When we asks someone else to make the decision for us, when things go wrong, who's to be responsible. Ultimately, it's still us.-
Did some not easily noticeable changes in my blog...mainly, shortening the list of my "Anime Checklist" and..."Goals and Desires". I deleted those completed animes...(After all I only need to check in for which one I stopped watching at which episode), and the goals that I accomplished and find it quite weird to keep putting it there...(After all I need more goals too what...)
Haha...that's all for me to report in. (I hate it. Sitting down sure takes its toll on me.)
Oh I forgot. This could be quite a new thoughts for me.
After experiencing so much for these few months.(Deferment, Family problems, Japan trip, My 18th birthday, going back to school and find out that...only wl remembered my bdae OMG THANK YOU!). I actually experienced something quite hard to explain, yet I felt the need to. (I wonder why???)
If I had a choice of cleaning all of this for a (Who fuckingly knows?) better or worse past few months, maybe I'd still stick to this one instead. Because all of these made me who I am today. (:
After the Japan trip, I finally noticed...how less I've seen, how less I've known. There's a whole wide world out there, yet I've only seen so less, so little. And you know what? If there's any chance in traveling, who knows? Maybe I'd just grab it. Hahahaha.
And yet, I also noticed that after that family problems stuffs, I've grown more immune to quarrels and strife. As in, if someone wanna quarrel with me [WTF], I think I'd ignore them, provided that it's rational to do so.
WTH can. If you quarrel with me because of a teeny-weeny problem, I'd really dun feel like bothering about it. I also realised that, I'll reply someone with a super irritated voice when I'm concentrating in doing smth and u disturb me. (:
I also know...who remembered my birthday and who didn't. (: OKAY FIRST I SHALL SAY. [I ain't bearing grudges. Since I also forget most of your birthdays *whistle*.]
Maybe I shouldn't remember anyways (:
But nevertheless I remembered.
7th - mt 20th - rilynn 22nd - fang 24rd - cheryl
Hahahaha see I got get any of it wrong anot. Maybe I did. =p
Happy birthday Nicole! (: But I dunno will you see this anot lah.
P.S: I changed Cheryl's bdae date alr. Pspspspsps.
It's just a false alarm. Inflammation. So I'm happy happy now. (:
To think I was down till I didn't bother to pick up calls, reply sms, turning on my comp. Oh. Due to emo-ing. I did this new header. Might as well use it right? ^^
Inspired by ef ~A Tale of Memories~.
What images appears when you hear this phrase? "A station where no trains arrive?" First image for me would be...what's a station for if no trains would arrive. With no arrivals, there would be no departure. With no meetings, there would be no partings. Isn't this a life of a loner, where one won't get happy meeting new people, where one won't be sad because, he won't part with anyone.
It's the best situation one has, or a worst situation one is in.
"You won't get hurt, yet you won't be happy either."
It just made me realise...with happiness, comes sadness. With meetings, there would be partings. With success, there will always be an opening for failure. With friends, there would always be foes.
With one, there would comes another.
Yeah digressing hahahaha.
So I'm happy now, in the mood for studying. But the inflammation sure hurts alot. OW.
「Too late, two choices...to stay or to leave. Mine was so easy to uncover, he already left with the other. So I've listened through the silence.」 - Sara Bareilles - Between the Lines.
I saw this song by Kyla at plurk thanks to the recommendation of eggiines (:
It's If I Were You by Kyla! It's my blog song muahahaha.
I look in the mirror, with you in my arms And I see a reflection Of a smile that says you believe in love And just for a moment, I drifted away But I couldn't stay cuz A hint of love, a bit of fear I'm tryin' to say
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are I wouldn't come near this broken heart Just turn around and leave here And find someone who won't hurt you Make sure that she still believes in love Cuz I think my heart has given up If I were you, I wouldn't be here Ooh yeah
I'm tryin' to protect you From the lies that your heart tells Even though it says that you love me All I see is pain and misery Seasons may change But I can't forget the days of old My heart ached when you walked away I said I'd never love again
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are I wouldn't come near this broken heart Just turn around and leave here And find someone who won't hurt you Make sure that she still believes in love Cuz I think my heart has given up If I were you, I wouldn't be here
The days go by And I feel that you could make me happy Time goes on And I feel that love is at my door And though I tell myself that you're the one Who said those words before Thought it hurts too much I can't trust in love Again Again
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are I wouldn't come near this broken heart Just turn around and leave here And find someone who won't hurt you Make sure that she still believes in love Cuz my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are I wouldn't come near this broken heart Just turn around and leave here And find someone who won't hurt you Make sure that she still believes in love
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are I wouldn't come near this broken heart Just turn around and leave here And find someone who won't hurt you Make sure that she still believes in love My heart has given up Can't be here
If I were you, I wouldn't be here If I were you I would stay right where you are Cuz my heart has given up If I were you, I wouldn't be here Ooh I wouldn't, if I were you I wouldn't be here Oh oh oh
I actually heard this song in Japan, Shibuya 109 (:
I find it nice after listening it to 30minutes straight? Haha.
Kurage Nagareboshi by Otsuka Ai.
Lyrics taken from Lyricsmode.
Romanji: Tooi kono kyori Maiban no you ni Aitakutemo aenai Atama no dokoka ni aru
Sukoshi zureteru nokana Kono hoshizora saemo Anata mo onaji you ni Omotte kureteru no?
Kurage nagareboshi mitsukeraretara Anatano namae wo omoiukaberu yo Donna iyana toko shitteiru noni Anata no koto konnani sukidayo
Koishiteiru Sonna fuu ni yobu kana? Wasureyou to sureba suru hodo hoshiku naru
Sonnani anata to atashi wa chigau no? Doushitemo futari ni hanarenai
Kurage nagareboshi mitsukerarezu ni Anata no kotoba mo wasuretchai sou dayo Tatta hitotsu shinjiteiru tuyosa ga areba Kurushiku suki de irareru nokana
English: So far apart Just like we are every night I want to see you, but I can't Just somewhere in my head
Maybe it's a little strange If only, this starry sky You see it and think The same as me?
If I find that special falling star Your name will float into my mind Even though I know I don't want it to I just love you that much.
"Falling in love" Is that what it's called? The more I try to forget, the more I want you Are you and I really all that different? No matter what, I don't want to break up
If I don't find that special falling star I might forget your words With only one last belief and strength In such pain, can love still go on?
I decided to give a try on Plurk (: It seems fun! It's a website that provides communication with friends all over the net! It even provides a tagboard like widget to place your thoughts and feelings! And you can get responds too. Although you must sign up too la.
Lalala~ so I placed a plurk on my sidebar for my thoughts and stuffs like that, that's too short for a blog entry. (:
Woooo. I love this song by Duffy, called Warwick Avenue.
Completed watching P.S. I Love You at tudou yesterday, although they changed the story completely (Leaving some parts the same only), the movie is still nice. I cried at some parts. Sob. Poor Holly. ): Overall, it's a nice movie, but too short for my liking...
The movie is soooo nice. I love what Gerry wrote for his last letter!
"To me, you're my everything, but to you, I'm only a chapter of your life." Someday, we would have to get over some things, and move on with life. It's just not like, when something ends, your time ends at there.
Okok gonna stop writing about this movie. Later too emotional again D:
I woke up so late!! And I failed to pack my room today D: I shall try tomorrow (Argh I hate using tomorrow). Later going to see doc...and it's raining.
Oh! I decided to change my blog song to Warwick Avenue!
-Somehow, sometimes, I wish that you could just skip the honest bullshit, and lie to me to make me feel better.-
---- Guess what? I finally know my real christian name. Jeremy is the short version, I remembered why I cut it short. Because everyone keeps calling me the long version, and I think it tires them alot I suppose. So I'm used to others calling me Jeremy, to the extent that I forgot how to spell my christian name.
And, so...my christian name is Jeremiah. According to my mum's friend, Jeremiah is really counted as a christian name. While Jeremy isn't. ----
Decided on this autumn header.
Picture credits is to pyromaniac from DeviantArt. He draw those cute pictures damn well. I totally respect him.
Autumn is the season of reminiscent of bittersweet memories, coupled with the falling maple leaves, it leaves a very lasting image in my mind.
Maybe I'm the only one who thinks that autumn is the season that suits reminiscent of memories, however, it suits bittersweet memories more.
Decided to change my blog song to something instrumental instead...still finding the suitable song though. (:
The rain started, stopped, and started again. Now it has stopped once again.
Yet...
The rain in me haven't stop.
The nightmares in me haven't ended.
My life can be described as...
Eternal rain.
PS: Omg I finalyly found the liquify function is Photoshop Elements. KEWL!
Changed header to this. Trying out my photoshop elements skills. This one is quite not nicely done I suppose.
Picture is from deviantart, credits to Christine YK Chong. If you managed to read this and dun allow the header, I'll take it off (: Just tell me. Thanks!
Anyway, I'm trying to find different headers to use before I find an autumn themed header and skin. ):
Give comments on this header please?? Thanks!
P.S: I think I used too much gaussian blur and lighten ._."
