Okay even though I said I will only post after exams are over, I just can't resist the temptation to post more sad stuffs okay?

If I posted these questions, will anyone be able to answer them?

-What I desperately need right now?
-What item do I really want right now?
-What favourite item do I need to get me through right now?

Labels: Daily Rants

Away till the end of time. end of exams.

Well well well I do have a secret blog at blogger, and I've sent invitations out to only 4 person. (My dear, sis, if you want then tell me and I'll add you and only you okay. ;) )

I rarely update at that blog, only when I have things that I want to say yet I can't and I trust these 4 people to never speak anything I write inside to others. Seriously, I trust you guys that you could do this that's why I made this decision.

Okay I do have some doubts but hey, I'll throw caution to the wind and all those mushy stuffs.

(Well only 4 people since those I wanna let them see don't even give a damn about blogs, so yeah.)

It's up to you whether you wanna accept that invitation or not, here's just what I wanna say.

I treasure you guys so much okay?! So I'll place my final and last trust on all of ya! If I find out that this trust is gone, well, I'll never trust anyone ever! (Okay la not that exaggerated but yeah, I will find it hard to trust you anymore.)

I can't give some people the invitation I wanted to give because they are close to someone that I don't really feel good with or something like that. *hint hint* mooooo :D

Labels: Daily Rants

Ohhhhkay. Got back some of my lecture quiz papers (aren't the lectures darn efficient?) It's something that I like and hate about them.

ET: 29.5/30 (0.5 marks gone because I put '=' instead of '>')
EM: 19/20? (Not really that sure cuz Mus had my paper.)
UO1: 16/20 (I hate gauge pressure and atmospheric pressure.)
OSH: ???
IBM: ???

I did the OSH lecture quiz with a heavy heart and a heavy head and the wonders of sleepiness. Oh with the teacher starting intently behind me to see whether did I cheat. Which I didn't, obviously! Cross my heart!

The lecture quiz is a-okay, but it's the tutorial quiz that killed me. Why oh why am I just so bad at electricity and machinery?! Oh I love toxicity though. The thought of poisoning... details interests me soooo much! :D

I'm glad that the dinner had been moved to supper because...I can get to rest. Rest is important these days (well naturally since term test is just, 4 days away. Oh scratch that. 3 days.)

Will definitely head out later...yeah. Later...if I manage to wake up before then.

Why oh why did I manage to get myself sick before the week of major exams? Beats me.

Sleep is on my top priority now, then studies, then well, generally life itself. Because no matter how hard I try, I always manage to screw up my life prettah badly.

Labels: Daily Rants

From episode 13, this conversation between Ellie and Andy kinda make sense.

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The moment you walk into the house, I relax.
Even on those days that I actually do call a lawyer, I just remind myself how scary it would be to be out there drifting, alone.

It's weird with relationships.
Two people can start off in the same place, and then for whatever reason they split off in different directions.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you and I'm so happy that I'm not out there, having to start over and look for what we have.

Cause it's hard to find, and even harder to keep.
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It's an awwww moment! :D

Okay. I went out to study despite the heavy head and slight fever because the thought of studying at home irks me. Reason would be:

-It's noisy at home (save the reason)
-There's just wayyyy to much distractions at home (bed, laptop, psp, nds, etc.)
-I just couldn't find the concentration I want at home.

So, yeah. I managed to finish one tutorial revision, now two more to go and I'm done for the day. (:

Labels: Daily Rants

Monday: UO1
Tuesday: EM2
Wednesday: OSH
Thursday: ET
Friday: IBM

(: I'm so gonna die for UO, ET and IBM I guess?

I might barely survive for EM2 and OSH. ):

Labels: Daily Rants

Down with acute sinus ):

Currently having headaches, green nasal discharge, and fatigueness.

What's wrong with me?

There's term test next week, and three tests this week (Already missed one).

):

P.S: I just realised that someone have been snooping and sneaking around my blog looking up about my daily life. (: Thank you for caring, but is it a little too late since you peeps declared all of you have no relation with us anymore?

So, this is my say: bugger off (:

But...come to think of it, if you care about us so much, why not donate some cash? We're so strapped of cash now? Thanks to your side de ppl (: My psp is broke and I have ABSOLUTELY no cash to buy it now.

Oh. Just to say, it can be a cat, human or alien. So, if you think that I'm saying you, please. Stop that thought. ;) You might have a serious case of Paranoid Schizophrenia. (: Don't know what it is? Google it ;)

And off I go to rest~~ I love you guys!

Labels: Daily Rants

Got it! Well, finally I remembered to get it lol. It's been out for a few months but I'm procrastinating and procrastinating till now I finally get it.

Okay, today went to school for the JCG sub comm interview, well, all have been said and done and I'll wait for the results with no regrets! (:

So, after that, went to have lunch with junhui and walked around and I bought Bokura ga Ita vol 13 and Shiawasse Kissa Sanchoume vol 15. Ending for it is kinda sucky in a sense, but the front part is v.v. climatic! Overall I still like it!! (:(:

Then went to the Esprit sale with junhui and xinquan with his parents. Thank youu xin's mum! For letting me getting a formal shirt + tee for just $57 bucks!

After that, went to bought cheese cake stick at Icing Room :D it's fantabulous! Haha. And I get a free muffin also! *auntie spirit* :P

Then went to have dinner at 18 chefs, and went home. Having slight sore throat now. ):

And I read Bokura ga Ita vol 13. Uber sad. ): Sigh. Seriously, can't the mangaka provide the protagonists happy endings alr! It's painfully saddening looking at how Nanami suffers in the shadows of Yano and her past. Takeuchi is also suffering too because of this past. *sigh*

Some excerpts from that manga:

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'Time seem to pass so slowly, it'd be nice if I had loads of work to do. I sure hope that the sun will set soon, and I'll have no time to think, and memories wouldn't invade my thoughts...and I wouldn't be so confused anymore...'

'Just like that, you pretend that you feel nothing, covering it all up...acting normally, as if nothing happened at all, do you think at this pace you can carry on with Takeuchi?'

'One has to move on, without listening, without looking, without looking...I can only hope that I won't make anymore mistakes.'

'Letting all those confusing feelings accumulate, letting it taking over your feelings and letting it all out at once, it's not good at all.'

'Never let a moment of wavering in your heart, destroy every bits and pieces of relationships you have.'

'Regret, it's like a curse that will eat your heart while you live and you'll slowly but surely lose all the things you cherish in your heart.'

'Starting to hate someone that you've loved so much, doesn't it sound extremely sad?'

'Back then we gave it our all, we neither lied nor made mistakes, we didn't fail and didn't do anything wrong. It's just that...time has passed and changed it all.'

'Although at that time we did our best, time has changed it all. Promises to tears, vows to wounds, a dear person into a wonderful memory inside the eternity.'

'It's okay to remember him. Lock all those thoughts away in a box and place it in the corner of your heart, and, from time to time, you can open the box and take a look inside.'

'I don't think a relationship that's 'over' exists. Even if you move on and don't ever meet again, it's still a continuing relationship. You remember the person and look at everything a bit differently. But that's natural because we all change with time. The other persons changes as well. Your memories continually change, too.'

'Goodbyes are often so painfully quick, and time really tends to have no meaning at all.'

'What is happiness? I don't know....but i think it means you never cry or get angry....you don't throw things around or beat people up.'

'Yano, where are you now? Who did you meet today? What did you talk about? What did you eat? What kind of places did you go to? Yano, who is the person you love right now?'

'In my mind the memories of when I was 17 continue to play. Why is it that I don't know the 18 year old Yano, the 19 year old Yano, not even the 23 year old Yano? The Yano in my memory is still 17. All I know is the Yano that I spent 2 and half years of my high school life with. Yano is no longer the 17 year old Yano. And I hate to admit that the Yano I knew no longer exists....'

'Hate is not the opposite of love.'
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This series is totally full of quotes, quotes and memorable quotes. Haha! Although it's reallllly boring at the start, the tear wrenching storyline starts from around volume 5/6. ): It's just way too sad! Currently it's out till chapter 58, and rumors have been saying it'll end at chapter 60! Currently, Nana have been pushed away by both Takeuchi and Yano ): I srsly wonder how will this ends!

I totally admire Obata sensei for creating such a story that we could relate! Dammit!!

In the story, someone explained that memories are just a figment of an imagination and creation. Two girls, A and B, remembered looking at the same picture. A remember that the girl is wearing a yellow dress, while B remembered the girl, wearing a red dress. Who's right? Neither it is, as the picture is black and white.

Labels: Daily Rants, Manga, Personal Opinions/Stories/Poems

Well, apparently I didn't have to go to the Open House but since I boarded the bus and it left, well I just went with the flow and went. ;)

I only took a few shots, will be uploadin them to facebook prolly tomorrow! So here are three photos taken during the Open House. Pavi took 2 candid shots which I look utterly weird! ): Haha.

Labels: Daily Rants

What's always in my mind now?

-Study study study, tests tests tests.

What will be in my mind for the next two weeks?

-Study study study, tests tests tests.

What I want to do now?

-Slack slack slack, sleep sleep sleep.

(:

Haha. One moment I'm complaining about school life, the other I'm actually missing school life. Ironic isn't it?

I'm having fun with lessons everyday, it's definitely true that with a busy life, you tend to think more positive stuffs rather than negative stuffs. (: I guess I'm happy with my state of life, and I hope it does not end too soon! I still want my hairrr :D hahaha.

Congratulations to everyone who've graduated in TP (Junhui, Xin, Ben, Chan), and soon to be graduates (Fang and rilynn. Go out someday okayyy?) (: I want ice cream and beach. (:

Tomorrow's it a field trip to Navy Open House (Can you believe it? What does chem engs have to do with NAVY?!) And we're not allowed to wear...slippers and berms...it's a huge booboo. ):

Well, if you wanna ask me about my thoughts about recent graduation, this is my following thoughts. (:

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Well, I'm a sucker for regrets okay. It's hard for me to say that I didn't regret making that choice~ (well if you dunno what happened, it's health + family matters but those who know, knows most details la.)

Haha. My eyes was pretty wet when I saw ppl graduating. (: Overall I'm really, genuinely happy for them, yet on the other hand I was admiring them. Like junhui said, it's my choice hahaha. Ouch.
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Okay IBM test was okay, with some disaster in spelling though.

Ascomysetes became Aycomysetes
Deuteromysetes became Deutereomysetes
Besilusmysetes became Beliusmysetes

At least I got zycomysetes corretly (:

I guess in life, you seriously need five stuffs to be okay and smooth in life.

1.Hope.
2.Faith.
3.Luck.
4.Determination.
5.Hard work.

Sigh. I miss my friends, let's go out soon okay! ;)

ごめなさい。

I realise I'm not really a good person to be friends with ): I'll try to change. ):

Labels: Daily Rants, Emo Me

Okay, so today UO1 was kinda a disaster because I practically messed up the 8 marks question. ):

No time to finish leh!! Haha. Practically there's 3 questions, I guess I spend too much time on the second question. But I have no confidence also. Lol. Die liao. This lecture quiz die liao.

As for ET, well, I am confident. (: And I actually finished earlier >_> How I wished I can use that time for UO1. ):

Haha! And well, French mcq is pretty straightforward. 1minute finish 10 questions. LOL.

Next, IBM tutorial quiz. Well, I hope I listed the correct interaction. (:

Tomorrow is graduation for ASc, therefore classes after 2pm are cancelled. But I have french lecture at 6pm. So it's like, 4 hours of rotting at school. I think I'll be using that time for OSH and IBM test revision.

And, congratulations to those who are graduating in these few days. (: You guys rock! :D

Labels: Daily Rants

So, I was sick for 3 days straight on the most busy days of the week. (Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday).

That leads to me missing all the impt lectures, tutorials, and pbl. Also add on to it, 2 tutorial quizzes.

I asked Theresa about what will be happening next week.

Tuesday: UO1 and ET Quiz. (1 whole chapter.)
Wednesday: EM2 Quiz. (I can cope with maths.)
Thursday: IBM and OSH Quiz (I'll prolly die on both.)

and I have to hand in my ET lab (Done), UO1 tutorial 3 (Not done, due tomorrow), and ET tutorial (Due on wednesday).

Most importantly, I haven't studied for OSH and I don't know shit about the final parts of UO1. ET prolly will get the gist of it by later.

Oh. And let's not forget 2 pre-labs not done since I don't have the worksheet. Oh yeah. How nice. *sarcasm*

After reading that whole chunk of what I've typed out. I realised.

I'm freaking stressed.

And here I am, welcoming depressing thoughts.

Did I give myself too much stress, I wonder? But I don't know why I can't get rid of these stress that I'm giving myself. It's chained onto me. ):

I'm just afraid and insecure about my capabilities, I guess.

P.S: 5 years since I started blogging on blogger. 7 (Included blogdrive, xanga, livejournal). I guess I just can't stop blogging, can I? Lol.

Okay back to study. I seriously need ice cream and chocolates.

Labels: Emo Me

This song from the anime Angel Beats...is pretty nice! ;) That anime is kinda Seitokai Ichizon-ish, but it's much more sad...everyone in there have a pretty bad and harsh life. >.<

Sigh...I guess this kind of anime sure suits my taste pretty well.

Oh yeah! Gonna start to revise tomorrow...after all my headache is pretty much gone.

And...I need 3 more dark matters to complete FF13. Finally. It's been dragging on for way too long. (:

The translated lyrics:

The day ends while I’m searching for where to let out my irritation
The sky turns gray and I can’t see anything ahead
Those who feign common sense laugh; what lies will they tell next?
Can you leave the things gotten that way carefully embellished?
But I have to keep moving forward to tomorrow
So I’ll keep singing like this

It's you who are crying, it's you who are lonely
You’re right; You’re just being human
That’s what the tears I shed say
This is beautiful too; It’s not a lie; Thank you for our true selves

Having dreams you want to come true and dreams you can’t reach
That itself becomes the dream, becomes the hope for people to go on living
There’s a door; it's waiting there
So I’ll hold out my hand

For you who feel crushed, here's the strength and confidence for you to be able to fight again and my song
That’s what the tears I shed say
Thank you to the miracle that we were able to meet in a dirty and ugly world, even like this.

Labels: Daily Rants, Lyrics

You want me to stop? After all of this, after all this freaking mess, you want me to stop?

No one stops. Not until everything is over. It's too late to stop. No one stops. NO ONE.

Once you drag me into this mess, you'll never ever get to stop until it's over.

Capiche?

Labels: ARGH

Well I've read a yahoo artice just now relating to the living standards in Singapore.

It's definitely true that the cash needed just to live in Singapore is really high. Look at the price of MRT and buses. The hated ERP. The price of housing nowadays. A 3 room, mind you, three room flat is approx already 275k - 300k.

So, what will happen to us in the near future?

I can practically see myself slaving away just to earn aboiut 2k-3k per month, while like 10-15% of it will go to CPF, how much have I left, just to get me through the month? Will I even have the bleeding cash to go and buy stuffs that I like?

Oh god. Haha.

Lemme quote something I saw someone write.

'9 to 5 till you're 95!'

Haha. I guess it'll be true, looking at those rich people migrating into our country, buying all those high-end houses.

It's true that Singapore is blooming in economy, but did they, even take a look at those Singaporeans working that hard, just trying to AFFORD a house?

Good gracious. Maybe in the near future, all Singaporeans will be living under the bridges while the PRs live in the comfort of their homes, which were once ours. Humph.

Labels: Daily Rants

Argh this week is so busy! I conked out last night at 9pm and had a really realistic scary nightmare that made me feel afraid of buses. Ask me when you meet me in person. Lolol. Yeah. Dunno la. I just felt that meeting the people you don't really wanna meet on the bust bus is scary in a sense.

Something good to share!! I did not know that there's so many people I know in my course! Yeah. So Asha is one of them, today I met Leelian! My pri school classmate!! Why does everyone look so different from before?! Haha. Shocku okay!

Yeah. Tomorrow there's draft presentation, and I hope there are no QUIZZES OKAY. I never revise UO1 and OSH at all. AT ALL. Period. ):

Today two tutorial quiz are an a-okay for me (: So I'm overall very satisfied that I tried my best for those two quizzes.

Today there's supposed to be a chalet but I forgot, and I couldn't go although I really, really, wanted to because I think it'll be real fun T_T now I'm slaving off tutorials ):

RAHHH. I'm SO GONNA shelf off one of my weekends for gaming. ): Barely touched my ps3 for a week alr! ): I even missed Pangya name change. ): I want my Ryuugamine T_T

Okayokay. Gonna go cont to do my tutorial.

Currently this is my plan:

Friday - Rest (prolly gaming 90%) + study IBM (god cell diagram for Prokaryote and Eukaryote.)
Saturday - Linda's bdae partayyy :D
Sunday - UO1, ET proj research and ET revision. OH SHIT I NEEDA PRINT LAB. MUST RMB TMR. ): ):

And there goes my weekend.

Labels: Daily Rants

I guess a jap song a day manages to take me through the day better. I wonder why though. Maybe because I choose the songs really well? :P (bhb, I know. Haha.)

Yesterday was a sad song, today is a hyper song! Maybe because I feel so tired when I reached home. I didn't have the patience to wait for bus 5 (freaking 20 minutes when it's already 7.15pm), I planned to walk home, but halfway through, I couldn't go on anyyyy longer so I took a cab home. ._."

Yeah. Cabbing home during peak period. Not a smart move. ):

Reached home, bathed, finished my lab, was actually waiting for a call but gave up. Haha. Maybe he found someone else for his lab notes so yeah. Don't feel like waiting anymore and I plan to go to sleep soon! It's been a long, long time since I placed 'sleeping' in the top of my priority list. This just manages to show how tired I am now.

In my list of priorities, studies is currently at the top, but it has been replaced by sleeping today. Haha. Gaming is always second!! No game = no life. Will faint due to boredom hahahaha.

Here's abig big thankyouuu to Junhui for the slippers! Haha. Big enuff? :P

I'll update the day we go shopping like, on, friday? Oh yeah! You wanna go CCN day? My current class is selling Tissue Papers and Drinks! Haha!! (:

Tomorrow after french got project meeting, I guess it's gonna be the same. Shag. ): Wednesday and Thursday got quiz somemore. RAHHH stupid YOG. It's the main reason for such a rushed semester.

-Had a fun day talking with my class ppl. Especially Theresa, Khad, Vincent and Ferne. (: You guys made my day!-



Video I mentioned. Ryuusei Miracle. The MV is just way to hilarious. Esp. the ending. The female singer is kinda good looking, but a little emotionless in this video.

Labels: Daily Rants

Time for a quick update! It's just a music video update, really. Haha. I'll update in detail what happened today, sometime this week I guess? (If I am not that busy.) So, recently I've been searching for this particular anime that I likeeee. It's called Ayakashi Ayashi!! :D

So, the ending song, Winding Road, is pretty meaningful for that anime. It's also a sad, sad, song I guess? But the music is pretty catchy in a weird sense to be (I love weird things. (: )



Lyrics wise translated. I hope that the translator isn't that bad la okies?? I only found the full song version, and I find that the video lyrics and the full song lyrics is a little different, and the full version makes more sense so I'll be posting the full ver. (:

On this long, long journey, I fell in love with you
The rainy moon of the changing seasons softly wets my heart
If time could change something, please, please,
Quietly stop when I'm just walking with you

Do we really suit each other,
Walking under that single, sad umbrella
On the Winding Road continuing near the waterside?

Because I still love you, without honestly reacting to
This rain pouring on me, I laugh again, "this is all a lie"

Our deeply, deeply entwined fingers quietly separate
As my final show of strength for you
But truly, I don't want to go

From now until forever, I doubt I'll ever forget
This eternity which we definitely felt
Even if you or I fall in love

Though my feelings contain no lie, I just love you
We ran past each other someplace
And our buttons became so that they didn't undo

Winter's almost here
Before our fingers numb with frostbite
It would be nice if we separate at last
We're no match for this chilly wind
So if we have any warmth left, let this be where we stop

Sad, sad, really sad T_T

Haha okay la. Just a pang of sadness hahaha. Okies! Gonna stop bloggin~ cause I still have things to revise before I head to bed!

Ciaoosu~

Labels: Daily Rants

Yeah. I have a project discussion on monday, and it's about Bioethanol Production Technology. (:

So, I gotta do some parts of the project! Mainly, everyone is doing the Introduction and Literature Search, and we're gonna compile our research details on Monday. (Today is saturday, and I'm still having a little sore throat and fever.)

Kinda rushing the introduction and research, so that I can get as much rest as possible. But I'm trying to perfect the rush by skimming and taking important parts, but I guess it's not working as intended. ):

This is what I'm supposed to do:

-Briefly describe the Kyoto Protocol in terms of its objectives and key features, linking it to climate change.

-Briefly describe biofuel as a renewable source and how it can help reduce global warming and climate change, in particular, for bioethanol.

-Discuss the first generation bioethanol technology and its negative environmental impacts.

-Describe the various technologies for second generation bioethanol production.

-Your search should address the following points: biomass feedstock, products, pre-treatment/post treatment and resource utilization and environment impacts etc.

): ): ):

So many stuffs and I'm only doing the second part now. I sure hope that I can finish everything by 4pm ):

Labels: ARGH, Daily Rants