立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
Nuffnang
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
FUN! Hahas. Unit Operation is just like MEB and TD all over again.
In addition, I became the class rep. Hahas. Need to have alot of responsibility leh~!
First time being class rep...nervous!
Juz a short update as there isn't anything nice to say abt =p
Oh yes, I think I might be dropping CDS this sem, and take two CDS next sem. =)
Today played awhile of audition, heard this song called Could This Be Love...by Victoria Acosta. Although it says Jeff Durand in game >_>
This song has made it way to my blog song~!
Lyrics :
Woke up this morning, Just sat in my bed, 8 a.m first thing in my head, Is a certain someone, Who's always on my mind, He treats me like a lady in everyway, He smiles and warms me through up the day, Should I tell him I love you, Wish I knew what to say!
Chorus: Could this be love that I feel, So strong, so deep and so real, If I lost you would I ever heal, Could this be love that I feel? (2)
The way he looks, So deep in my eyes, Our hearts are so warm, I just wanna cry, Then he's so hardworking, He wants to be someone. Should I tell him that I love you, What if he doesn't say it too, I'm getting so nervous, What should I do
Chorus: Could this be love that I feel, So strong, so deep and so real, If I lost you would I ever heal, Could this be love that I feel? (2)
Will it be my turn, Two hearts beating together as one, No more loneliness, Only love, laughter and fun
Chorus: Could this be love that I feel, So strong, so deep and so real, If I lost you, would I ever heal, Could this be love that I feel? (2) Could this be love that I feel?...
Haha. Today stoned at home like never before. Mum actually asked me to go to bugis with her and sis to shop for a bag that I'd like. But, I didn't want to go, so I asked her to choose one bag for me by giving the description of what type of bag that I want.
In turn, she really BOUGHT back the bag that I described to her. Wowness right? Haha.
Today I pangya-ed again. Haha. I wonder why I just couldn't perform well in Pro1 tourney. So I practically gave up in that tour, and went to audi.
Falling in love with the song called Spain Moonlight. Techno-ish + classical-ish. Weird huh. For me to like techno songs.
Oh yes. Let's go back to the bag awhile. It's grey, with green sides. Additional note.
It's DAMN big.
=)
Ok. I finished downloaded ET notes. Preview see see. But still haven't see. Tired.
I think I'll sleep soon. Tomorrow school is at 12pm, yet I'm sleeping soon. Amazing~!
Today featured song is Better In Time by Leona Lewis. For those who're lonely, heartbroken, this song is dedicated to you people~
It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realise that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[ Chorus: ] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok
[ Chorus: ] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will
[ Chorus: X2 ] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
Ok, before signing off~ I shall share something.
-When we know who we are, we will also know who we are not. Would you still want to know who you are?-
If you ask me, "Is life interesting?", I'd say, no.
But, it changed, when I saw you entering my life. =)
As you people know, today is the starting of 2nd year for me! *applause*
Hahas. Amazingly, I wanted to go to the campus. But, today isn't the day ne.
Cause...first week no lab, tomorrow is totally lab. So means, I can only go to school on tuesday.
Hahas. 2 hours of lecture on tuesday, and I'm off.
Oh yea, I didn't go into detail on my timetable. So let me elaborate.
Monday: On odd weeks : 9am-3pm (Note: No breaks at all.) On even weeks : 3pm-6pm
Tuesday: 12pm-2pm
Wednesday: 9am-6pm (With three hours of break in between. HOW SHOULD I SURVIVE IT?!)
Thursday: 9am-7pm (With two hours of break in between. Better.)
Friday: 9am-6pm (With two hours of break in between. Bummer, I would rather wanted 9am-4pm, save the breaks dude.)
And that, concludes my year 2 sem 1 timetable. Bleh~
My cds is inno-pp. Till know I still dunno what is inno-pp. Mira gave me this..
"Innocent-People!" >_>
Hahas.
yc gave me this.
"Innovative precaution." lol.
I guess it is...
"Innovative presentation." This sounds better right? =p
Ok...
I'm resolved into total muggage this sem to increase my overall GPA.
Yes. MUGGAGE. YES. STUDY.
*trying to influence myself*
Smart ppl, please give me some of your studying genes. LOL.
*I'll give cookies to you~ so give me some genes ok?* *binks and smile friendly*
GIVE ME LARHS. DON'T BE SO SELFISH CAN?!!!!!
Oh, this time I'm taking these modules.
->Unit Operations 1 ->Introduction to Biochemistry and Microbiology ->Environmental Technology ->Occupational Safety and Health ->Engineering Mathematics 2 ->Inno-pp (Still unknown what is the long form.) ->APEL 2 (I think?)
Ok. Tuesday there's Unit Operation 1 Lecture. Wee. Mr U and Dr Jiang Li again. =)
*I am starting to like Mr U. Cause I got A for thermodynamics!* *smile smile smile*
But I am certainly sleepless. Meh. Watched The Hottie and The Nottie with yc and mal, and The Forbidden Kingdom with phad yesterday. And I went home at ard 2am...
Wham. Slept.
Amazingly, I woke up at...6pm >_>
Ok, I dunno what happened.
As always, timetable sucked. Woohoo. Should I be happy? *intense sacarsm*
Shopped for alot of comics yesterday.
+++ I've started to get back into watching anime!
Currently I'm addicted to Special A, and I'm waiting for Junjou Romantica.
P.S. Anyone knows where can I watch xxxHolic online? Please tell me in the tagboard. Thanks!
Isn't it fun to create 3 posts within one hour? Correction, like within 20 minutes? Lol.
Currently sitting in this comfy computer seat infront of my dearrrr desktop~~
Shake shake! I think I've fallen in love with the chair. <3
Haha. I do feel like going to the temple to pray for a good timetable.
Really scary to go sch everyday at 9am leh!
Some students get to go school at like..oh my. 1pm?! FUCK IT MAN!
Argh. Speaking about timetables make me miss my secondary school timetable.
So nice. So regulated. So, good! No need to change classroom or go to lecture hall somemore! Haha.
Everything is soooo spoonfed. Now must study + research more abit. Haha. Totally no slacking at all. Now, I must mugmugmug like mad. I desire and aim to score many As. Yes. I DESIRE AND AIM FOR IT. I MUST GET IT. Haha.
Ok. The greedy side has taken over for me. Woots.
Must go liao. Meeting yc at 1pm. Now wad time le?! Haha.
-Do I need to say out everything, in order for you to kmow what I feel?- Heh.
Wake Up Call.
@ 12:39 PM
Wake Up Call - Maroon 5
I didn't hear what you were saying. I live on raw emotion baby I answer questions never maybe And I'm not kind if you betray me. So who the hell are you to save me I never would have made it babe.
If you needed love Well then ask for love Could have given love Now I'm taking love And it's not my fault Cuz you both deserve What's coming now So don't say a word
[Chorus]
Wake up call Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed Don't you care about me anymore? Don't you care about me? I don't think so. Six foot tall Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead He won't come around here anymore Come around here? I don't think so.
Would have bled to make you happy You didn't need to treat me that way And now you beat me at my own game And now I'm finally sleeping soundly And your lover's screaming loudly I hear a sound and hit the ground
If you needed love Well then ask for love Could have given love Now I'm taking love And it's not my fault Cuz you both deserve What's coming now So don't say a word
[Chorus]
Wake up call Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed Don't you care about me anymore? Don't you care about me? I don't think so. Six foot tall Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead He won't come around here anymore Come around here? I don't feel so bad, I don't feel so bad, I don't feel so bad
I'm so sorry darling Did I do the wrong thing? Oh, what was I thinking? Is his heart still beating?
Woah oh ohh
[Chorus]
Wake up call Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed Don't you care about me anymore? Don't you care about me? I don't think so. Six foot tall Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead He won't come around here anymore Come around here anymore? I don't feel so bad
Wake up call Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed Don't you care about me anymore? Don't you care about me? I don't think so. Six foot tall Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead He won't come around here anymore No, he won't come around here. I don't feel so bad
I don't feel so bad (Wake up call) I don't feel so bad (Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed) I don't feel so bad (Don't you care about me anymore? ) Care about me? I don't feel so bad. Wake up call Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed Don't you care about me anymore?
Tired and more tired.
@ 12:26 PM
Recently dunno why...super tired.
Lazy to do anything at all. Haha. And I think my regular customer is coming to visit me.
Oh well. I'm still waiting for some movies. Bleh. No more movies to watch. >_>
Ok, going to go to CCSS to teach. Oh my.
P.S: Everyone please give me your hp number. I think I lost some contacts during the maintainance period of my handphone.
P.P.S: PangYaSEA seems to be closing soon. Is that true? I hope not.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind. Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide. You treat me like a queen when we go out, Wanna show everyone what our love's about. All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd, But when no ones around;
There's no kindness in your eyes, The way you look at me, it's just not right. I can tell whats going on this time, There's a stranger in my life. You're not the person that I once knew. Are you scared to let them know it's you? If they could only see you like I do, Then they would see a stranger too..
Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you? Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room? You made yourself look perfect in everyway, So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed. Your plan is working so you can just walk away, Baby your secret's safe.
There's no kindness in your eyes, The way you look at me, it's just not right. I can tell whats going on this time, There's a stranger in my life. You're not the person that I once knew. Are you scared to let them know it's you? If they could only see you like I do, Then they would see a stranger too..
Such a long way back, from this place we arrived. When I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry..
There's no kindness in your eyes, The way you look at me, it's just not right. I can tell whats going on this time, There's a stranger in my life. You're not the person that I once knew. Are you scared to let them know it's you? If they could only see you like I do, Then they would see a stranger too..
There's no kindness in your eyes, The way you look at me, it's just not right. I can tell whats going on this time, Theres a stranger in my life. You're not the person i once knew. Are you scared to let them know it's you? If they could only see you like I do, Then they would see a stranger too..
Had a little fever, but felt better after like, 12+ hours sleep? Amazing la. But still decided on going to the doctor. Must be eating too much heaty food lately.
Went to watch a movie with Phad, will be updating it soon.
Decided to go to kbox on some weekend when school starts, since that's the time where most of us have money. Lol.
Next tuesday still have to go back to ccss to help out in chinese. Wow. My chinese standard won't decline that badly le bah...hoho.
Short update, as I have to wake my dad up at around 4am. Hahas.
Who says loving is difficult? It isn't.
Congrats to dardar for getting A for her pw~ jy okays? =)
爱一个人,其实是非常容易的。只是。。。 当爱,与恨,交织在一起时, 就会变得很难,很痛苦。
我在怀疑,我是否真的能让你幸福吗?
-Stop and stare, you're starting to wonder why you're "here", not there.-
Got Lucky~ yahoo!
Tuesday, April 08, 2008 @ 2:32 AM
Ok, at first I was quite pissed off today, as firstly, I kena fever.
Secondly, my dad refused to let me take a job as a tutor. He says that for now, all I need to do is concentrate on my studies and not other stuffs. So, I had no choice, cannot go against him either.
So, I went to alba18 to play. In addition, I tried gacha-ing.
So...I got the SSAF (Silvia Army Uniform) for Hendry, Angelina and Kaz. Didn't take screenies for the other two, but I got the screenie for Kaz. Yahoo!
Hahas. So, it made me happier abit. Now I'm only left with Kooh's SSAF for the full SSAF Set 1! But...no money le larhs. Gonna save for elf ears aso =p
Oh yes! I forgot to post about the Singapore Flyer trip. Will post it tomorrow, I suppose. Taken alot of scenery pictures xD
It's sure nice looking at Singapore with a different view =)
Keep you peeps posted! =)
Three Kingdoms : Resurrection of the Dragon
Saturday, April 05, 2008 @ 2:01 AM
Went to catch this movie with Phad two days ago. Went in with a super excited feeling in watching alot of fighting scenes, after all, due to the influence of the PS2 game Dynasty Warriors, I'm totally interested in the Three Kingdoms. For those who don't know what is the Three Kingdoms, it's a story basically saying how three factions, Wei, led by Cao Cao, Shu, led by Liu Bei, and Wu, led by Sun Jian, fighting each other, trying to be the sole conquerer of the land.
This story, however, only focuses on the life of Zhao Zilong (Andy Lau)(A.K.A Zhao Yun), of Shu. From how he joins the army, until his death.
Basically, some parts of the movie is fictional, like Cao Ying (Maggie Q), who is Cao Cao's grand-daughter. Cao Ying's main aim is to capture Zhao Zilong alive, as Cao Cao didn't manage to catch him alive back then, when he went to save Liu Bei's son.
Personally, I like how the battle works, it's totally made of tactics. Such as Zhuge Liang and Cao Ying, who didn't even hesitate in sacrificing their soldier and generals. The movie portrays Cao Ying as a great leader, as she have learned everything from Cao Cao, who is good at war strategies. Her every move manages to affect Zhao Zilong's army, and in the end, causing him and Luo An Ping (Sammo Hung), his sworn brother, to be the sole survivors in the camp.
In addition, she even went to the extent of sacrificing her own portion of army to just get rid of Zhao Zilong's army. Shrewd! As what Cao Cao teaches her, "I can fail the people, but the people cannot fail me." And the part where she played the musical instrument! Damn it just makes my heart melt. LOL.
I also loved the arrow rain scene...damn I just can't resist such scenes.
Sammo Hung played the role of Luo Ping An well. Due to wanting fame and honour, and wanting the people in his hometown to remember him as a memorable hero, he actually betrayed Zhao Zilong in exchange for a high ranking post in Wei's army. However, he still saved Zhao Zilong during his battle with Cao Ying. It just makes me feeling pity for him, over burdened by guilt in the end.
Andy Lau actually potrayed Zhao Zilong well. With the battle scenes of him escaping the army of Cao Cao in the start, already makes me feel.."wow!". In addition, I can actually feel the emotions of Zhao Zilong at that time. I wonder it is the director's credit or his credit. Lol.
The minor characters just made the story a little bit exciting. I just didn't like that part where, the 5 tiger generals, is being introduced, and within 5 minutes, they're all dead, only leaving Zhao Zilong, the only sole survivor.
In addtion, I wonder why would they have to add in a love scene, where Zhao Zilong fell in love with a girl, yet in the end, they didn't touch on the love topic again. They just mentioned that, in the end, what Zhao Zilong wants didn't get realized.
His wish is actually to "end the war, and build a family." Luo Ping An said, when they have went a round around the country, peace would arrive, and they could return to their country.
I love the scene where he is telling Luo Ping An that...
"I've already walked a round the country, yet, is there peace yet? I've just walked a huge roundabout, without achieving what I want, I just came back to the spot where I started."
That part really hit me alot. It just made me feel that, his life is full of regrets, and the peace he wanted never even arrived.
The ending is Zhao Zilong, himself, faces the whole army of Cao Ying. And vroom! credits rolling. The credits just says that, in the end, it's not Wei, Shu, or Wu, that conquered the land. It's Jin.
In conclusion.
What I liked about this movie : Some scenes that can make me felt what the characters felt, the battle scene, and the shrewdness of the tactics.
What I dislike about this movie : Some scenes are too short, didn't even get a touch on it, and some important parts about his life is not added in. And the narration from the view of Luo Ping An. It just felt like a scene, and it jumped to another scene.
Overall score : 3.8/5 I wanted to give a 4, but due to some parts...nope.
Next movie I wanna watch is The Forbidden Kingdom! =)
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ EDIT : Did anyone notice that their armor looks more jappish den traditional chinese? Compare this two movies armor.
An Empress And The Warriors :
Three Kingdoms : Resurrection of the Dragon :
One looks samurai-ish, the other looks traditional chinese!
Ok, I went to catch this movie, Semi-Pro with phad. Sj couldn't reach in time, so he didn't joined us.
Movie Synopsis : (Credits to http://movieXclusive.com)
Will Ferrell stars in "Semi-Pro," an outrageous comedy set in 1976 against the backdrop of the maverick ABA – a fast-paced, wild and crazy basketball league that rivaled the NBA and made a name for itself with innovations like the three-point shot and slam dunk contest. Ferrell plays Jackie Moon, a one-hit wonder who used the profits from the success of his chart-topping song "Love Me Sexy" to achieve his dream of owning a basketball team. But Moon's franchise, the Flint Michigan Tropics, is the worst team in the league and in danger of folding when the ABA announces its plans to merge with the NBA. If they want to survive, Jackie and the Tropics must now do the seemingly impossible – win.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Recommended for : Those who love crude humors and love hearing fuckfuckfuck all over and over again. Bear wrestling lovers could also catch it!
Personal Opinions on this movie : Got me laughing for the most time, however, some of the jokes, I didn't know the meaning. So, didn't laugh. The acting is quite good, and humorous. With Will Farrell inside, which movie isn't funny.
Since it's in the 1970s, I see alot of afros head. afros head is so...funny! It looks...spongy.
<3 the bear fight part. The bear is so damn funny.
Personally, it somehow touches on some issue such as family love, where Jackie Moon respect and loves his mum. And trust me, you won't believe that his mum, is really his "mum".
So, catch it if you want some laughs, but remember, if you hate crude stuffs, it's better to leave this movie alone! =) -------------------------------------------------------End-------------------------------------------------------------------------
Ok, managed to download the song, Canvas by Hirai Ken. It's the ending song for Honey and Clover Live Action. It's nice, after hearing it twice, I fell in <3 with it, and went to find downloads. Heck, it took me a long time finding it.
Lyrics :
Romanji
itsuno hi ka mata aou to te wo furu kimi no egao wo eien ni yakitsuketa sou da ne to kotaeta boku no kao ha jouzu ni jouzu ni waraete itakana
daisuki to kaita BOORU ha mada watasenai mama boku no mune wo GOROGORO korogari kusugutta inda
kono mama ja irarenekute mo kore kara ni nagasarete mo keshite kawaranai keshite yogosenai bokura dake no KYANBASU
gomen to itta kimi no kotae wo mitsumete sagashite aruite iku kara
daisuki to kaita BOORU no moji ha usurete kukedo kouri nageru tsuyosa mo suteru ZURUsa mo nakute
sugite iku toki no naka de kawari yuku sora no shita de keshite wasurenai keshite hodokenai kizuna ga kitto tsuyosa ni naru kumo no you ni chigire yasukute niji no you ni tsukamenakute keshite modorenai keshite yogosenai bokura no ao KYANBASU
koi mo yume mo shuudensha mo gochamaze oikaketa kimi no te wo nigiru to “itai” to itta koi mo yume mo namidagoe mo ikiru subete data kimi no me wo mite ita honto ga itsumo ienakute…
kono mama ja irarenakute mo kore kara ni nagasarete mo keshite kawaranai keshite uso ja nai bokura ga ima deaeta koto tori no you ni jiyuu na no ni kaze no you ni sabishikatta keshite modorenai keshite yogosenai namida de nutta KYANBASU BOKUra dake no KYANBASU
English-
One of these days when we'll meet again I will wave my hand, your smiling face will be forever burned in my mind. "That's it, eh?" was the response on my face, I wonder if I can smile well and convincingly?
Although I still can't hand over the ball with "I love you" written on it, My heart scatters, tumbles, and tickles.
Even if things can't remain like this, and are drifted away from here on, It'll never change, it'll never be soiled, our only canvas.
Because I am looking, searching, and walking for the "sorry" uttered in your response.
Although the words "I love you" that were written on the ball are fading, I have no strength to throw it away nor the will to cast it aside.
Within the passing time, underneath the ever-changing sky, It'll never be forgotten, it'll never be parted, the bond will surely become stronger.
Scattered easily like the clouds, unreachable like a rainbow, It'll never return, it'll never be soiled, our blue canvas.
Whether it is love, dream, or the last train, I ran after them in confusion. When I grasped your hand, you said "it hurts". Whether it is love, dream, or the last train, they were all alive. When I saw your eyes, it's true that I'm always speechless.
Even if things can't remain like this, and are drifted away from here on, It'll never change, it'll never be a lie, the two of us were able to meet now. As free as a bird, lonesome like the wind, It'll never return, it'll never be soiled, the tears-covered canvas ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Went to find old songs also, like... Almost by Bowling for Soup, Complicated by Avril, Everytime by the famous Brit. These songs are gone from my desktop. Sad. Reformatted my desktop laaa.
I can't even remember still got what old songs. I only remembered I have two Tata Young songs. The whole album, by Maroon 5, Some songs from Hilary Duff. Argh...I want all those old songs, which are nice back! =x
-I wished that you would love me to. Do you?-
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Last part! The song that suits my mood now is by...
Emmy Rossum! The song name is...Slow Me Down! Oh gosh. I really need to slow down. Lyrics are meaningful too...
Rushing and racing and running in circles Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning Getting nowhere
My head and my heart are colliding chaotic Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I've got it together I'm falling apart
Save me Somebody take my hand and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by Just show me how Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flies by I need you to slow me down
Sometimes I fear that I might disappear In the blur of fast forward I falter again Forgetting to breathe I need to sleep I'm getting nowhere
All that I've missed I see in the reflection Pass me while I wasn't paying attention Tired of rushing, racing and running I'm falling apart
Tell me Oh won't you take my hand and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by Just show me how Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flies by I need you to slow me down
Just show me I need you to slow me down Slow me down Slow me down
The noise of the world is getting me caught up Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it Just need to breathe Somebody please Slow me down ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Gonna enjoy my albatross18 before break is over.
Tomorrow gonna earn pangs for paps shop in pysea too. brr.
Currently I'm addicted to Bokura Ga Ita comic series.
The stories just made me realise, long distance relationships is practically...weak.
It turns out that ever since moving into Tokyo, Yano ran into a lot of problems such as financial difficulties, finding a place for his dog, Lalami to live in (but managed to do so thanks to a close classmate, Aki, who later falls for him and even meets Nanami in the company they work at), and his mother's health problems. His mother's health deteriorates both mentally and physically (especially after Yano's dead father's wife shows up with the incline to take Yano back with her). Throughout this time, Yano has kept his problems from Nanami, in hope that she can concentrate on her studies. Twice he made the attempt to return to Hokkaido to see her, but failed to do so because of his mother. This is unknown to Nanami, however. Finally, Yano's mother took her own life (note that this takes place around half a year after Yano's arrival at Tokyo). Since the funeral, it is stated that Yano 'completely vanished'. It is shown that he did see Takeuchi around this time, telling the latter that he is leaving Nanami in his care, and that he has decided to give up everything from his past, even those dearest to him. Yano seems to believe that it was his fault that his mother committed suicide, stating that 'I was the one who killed her'. Roughly half a year later, he made a phone call to Nanami's house which was then picked up by her mother. This too, was not told to Nanami until she was 21 years old. Yano's personality appears to undergo a change. He has since started dating many girls, but states that he "does not treat girls like anything important" anymore. During this whole time, Yamamoto Yuri has not given up on him.
The story continues a year after Nanami realizes the truth, with Aki who now works with Nanami in the same company, suspecting that she may have found Yano. Her suspicions turn out to be correct. However, though Aki finds out that Yano is aware of Nanami's whereabouts and her relationship with Takeuchi, he makes no move to see her. He even states that this is how he wanted it to be. The same goes with Nanami who decides not to meet Yano even after Aki gives her details about his whereabouts and informs her that Yano is currently a designer collaborating with their company. She tearfully admits to Aki that she has no confidence of making a clean break with Yano. It is shown that Yano is now living with Yamamoto Yuri and he also reveals that Nanami is 'different', stating that she will survive even on her own.
On the day of Nanami's birthday, as seen from chapter 50, Takeuchi proposes to her but he rejected by Nanami. In the latest chapter 51, Nanami resolves to look for Yano. Upon being told that he is going on a trip, she ventures to the airport and sees the back of someone who resembles Yano. She calls out his name in tears, but the scene is left with a cliffhanger. Takeuchi, on the other hand, visits Yano's home and comes face to face with Yamamoto Yuri.
After all, both of them cared for each other too much...Yano just wanted the best for Nanami...Nanami just wanted Yano. It just shows that, fate loves to play tricks on lovers? I wonder.
I also admire Yuri's determination to make Yano hers. Practically never give up, even though Yano said if he did break up with Nanami, he will also never love her, or be with her.
Gotta admire her spirit eh?
Can't wait for book 13!
Ok gonna stop here =)
Been there, done that.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 @ 7:37 PM
It's easier to just rip these apart, instead of letting it hanging there, making me feeling bitter, sorrow, melancholic.
That's all I can say, I can give, I can take.
Been there, done that. I'm just a bad player, in a game where everyone might play.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There was someone who said that...
Memories, is made up by linking pieces and pieces of past events that happened in your life, and being further constructed into memories.
Memories, is just a plain illusion.
Another person said...
Every cells in our body changes into a new one once in seven years. All the old cells dies, and is replaced by new ones. Then, what about the memories we had?
It's also being reconstructed, and reconstructed, every 7 years. Every memories becomes more and more like an illusion with every reconstruction, as memories is just a figment of what you build up with your past events.
It just turns more and more into a beautiful illusion.
Which never existed.
Are you sure? Someone said.
Some memories will never, ever change. That's what I can say.
After enjoying this sem break, I will go into overdrive mode.
Work hard for every sem onwards, must get AAAAA or B+B+B+B+B+! Fight!
Cannot la. Must chiong into university. Hence, I shall work very hard, not to fall below my own expectations =)
This sem results is quite sucky...hohoho.
2 C+, 1B, 2B+, 1A.
LOL. I need more A's to cover the 2 C+ I had! =)
I shall work really hard now! muggggggggg.
I shall drop gamings to a minimum, studying to a maximum. ^^ Please, I wanna get into university!
P.S - My hp is sent for repairs, might get it back at friday 3pm. But dun fear, my sis hp is here to rescue my life. LOL.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- EDIT: It was now I then realized that I waited for something that would never come. I just got my feelings wrong, didn't I?
-Your words can rise me to heaven, or plainly, push me to hell.-
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Tuesday, April 01, 2008 @ 12:58 AM
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