立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
Ever since that day, I locked my heart up. I refused any warmth, Any kindness, Any concern.
You said, "It's over." But I wanted it to last.
Where's the love that you provided me? Where's the promise that you gave me? Where's the forever that you said?
As I watched you walk away, Every step you took, means a stab in my heart.
Now, I'm just like a puppet. With a broken heart, Broken smile, Broken tears.
Where's the happy ending that I wanted? Why love is associated with happy colours, Yet mine is all dull? If I had known that loving someone is that sad, I will never, Ever, touch love again.
Random Pic : People. Remember to aim for the stars! (Or rather, SHOOT FOR THE MOON!) Minasan, ganbatte ne?
Saw this vid. Quite....dozo-ish to me.
Oh yes...watched this anime a few months ago...quite nice...
It's called:
Maria-sama ga miteru =)
Yes, some might have guessed it, it's a yuri anime. (Yuri = GirlxGirl Romance) But, don't because of this den scared of watching ok? It's really sweet! =) Might do the episode guides if I've the TIME. But OMFG-ish. I don't have! T_T
Ja~
-Everything happens for a reason...but what is that reason?-
Heyheyhey! I'm going to talk about unconditional love today~~ Tadaaaa~~ =p
Be prepared for a long speech. LOL.
Well, chatted with someone about that, and almost had a volcanic argument. Whew. Scary man.
Well...this happened when J asked me "Is unconditional love really that hard to find in this current society?"
Haha. This realli sparked out something nice to debate about.
First, for people who don't know what is unconditional love. It is:
- Unconditional love is a concept that means showing love towards someone regardless of his or her actions or beliefs. It is a concept comparable to true love, a term which is more frequently used to describe love between lovers.-
Quoted from wikipedia~
Now now now. You'll be curious. What's there to differentiate about love? Love means loving! Hehe. You're wrong! It's not that way!
Further quoting from wikipedia~
-In conditional love: love is 'earned' on the basis of conscious or unconscious conditions being met by the lover, whereas in unconditional love, love is 'given freely' to the loved one 'no matter what'. Conditional love requires some kind of finite exchange whereas unconditional love is seen as infinite and measureless.-
Yes yes yes. It's like that. Simple right? But the problem is.
How many cases of "unconditional love" can you find in this society?
It's rare? It's common?
It's certaintly not the latter. It's really really rare.
Let us see what is the mindset of current teenagers and adults. With the increase of communication and influence of certain thoughts, the world is getting more liberal.
In the past, would you see couples kissing in public doing obscene acts in public? No.
What about now? You see it almost everywhere! Lol.
Yes. I'm going out of topic. Lemme drive it back. *vroom*
Let me analyse the current possible mindset of people when they're looking for love.
I've some possibilities, not all fall in my categorise method. So, sorry if I missed up some. Feel free to shoot me back lol.
Categories:
1.The lonely type: This is the most common types of attitude that people have. "I'm lonely...I need someone to care for me, someone to be there for me." This is definitely conditional love. You need people to love you. You don't desire to love that person back. That's practically finding a pillar of strength.
2.The "Follow the Crowd" type: What do I mean by this? Well. Let's just say when most people are talking about their spouses, while you are the only one who don't have any. Call it peer pressure, influences by other ppl, you'll want a bf/gf. Yeah. Snag one and boast about it! LOL.
3.The "Fantasize" type: What do I mean by this. Example : You read a romance book, you got influenced by the plotline and you'll keep on imagining about stuffs, like: "How nice if I can find someone that loves me that much..." etc.
4.The "Exchange" type: This one is kinda...hard to describe. Well...lemme put it this way. Don't be offended though. It's like. There's some ppl which is like : "Yes, I'll give her my love, and in the end, I'll want to do some **** stuffs with her." If you want my love, exchange it with your body.
Don't be shocked! There's really such examples! Lol.
Ok, that's what I could think about now.
After seeing what I've typed, how many these type of couples were formed with such mindset? I'll bet that's quite a number =)
Well. What's unconditional love?
It's: -I'll love you even you don't love me someday. -Even if you're dying, I won't leave you. -Even if you have passed on, I'll never love anyone anymore. (Yes, this is ridiculous.) -I'll be there for you, like you've always been there for me. -I love you, and I will not ask anything for return. -I'll stay with you, not because I have a duty to, but I want to.
That's all I could think of now.
And this feeling must be mutual. That's the most important.
Last quote from wiki!
-unconditional love -
two souls, destined to help one another.
And!
-Loving is sharing and not demanding.- -When two people argue, that's self-love.-
So in conclusion.
I conclude that. Unconditional love is really hard to find in this society. Not totally/impossible to find. But difficult. How common do you see couples break up after one single minor argument? Haha. Good luck in finding unconditional love. Who knows? You might find one soon! =)
"who cried a river and drowned the whole world." not!
The girl who regretted her actions. Oh boy she is so in love with one guy, lets call him A. A, is a guy who's popular, yes, darn popular. No one in school won't know him. He's also good in sports, and studies. Yes. Which girl won't dream of having such a good person as her boyfriend? While the girl spend all her time staring at him when she sees him. She didn't notice.
There's another pair of eyes staring at her when he sees her. Let's call him B. So, to cut the story short. B decided to confess his love to this girl. But. Due to this oh-so-good-guy around, she wanted him, therefore. She oh-so-cool-and-poised rejected B.
And B went oh-so-freaking-heartbroken. But B, is not the "I will mourn for my broken heart" person. Therefore, he got over it. In the end, the girl finally confess her love to A. Surprisingly, A accepted! She went over the nines, almost reached the tenth. LOL. Yes, but who never heard before things phrase "Good things don't last long?" Yes. It didn't last long.
Soon, the girl found out that A is 3-timing somemore. LOL. One heart makes love true. Two hearts make love sweet. Three hearts? OMFG you're in trouble! Haha.
Ahaha. "Anything can go wrong, will go wrong at the worst possible time."
Even though she find out A was 3-timing, she didn't get to dump him. He dumped her infront of his another gf. Wowness rite?
She thought "Since B likes me that much, why don't I accept him?"
Oh please. Do you think this type of thing would work out?
When she started to get near to B, B avoided her. Because, He decided to concentrate on his studies. Rather to fall in love anyways. In another way, he found out that he didn't realli like her after all.
So, the girl didn't get any guys in the end.
This story teaches us.
Don't treat anything for granted. =)
This story is fictional. If anyone suspects that it's them. Please. Wake up. This isn't true at all! LOL. If u die die wan say it's true. Well..
Okay, today did AM and TD quiz. Woots. AM is a bliss. TD is not realli a bliss. Forgot the conversion part. Haha. Just a short break before I go and study PIPC2. Haha.
Had a wild movie night with wl, zy, hy, xy, leslie and dardar~ altho she had to leave after we watch jumper went jumping >.<
To sum it up, on friday, presentation was counted as successful.(Thank God.) After that, met dardar~ walked ard, had dinner...den watched movie~ Yeap. Enjoyable night! After watching the 2nd movie, went to mac to chitchat and play cards. Hahas. Went home at ard 5am. Reached home at ard 6? Haha. I walked realllll slow that night. Wonder why.
Couldn't get to sleep, played DMC4 for 1 hr, den went to sleep. Woke up at freakingggg 12pm. Met chan and mt for cartel. Chan treating! Hehehe.
LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF FOOD WE ATE! HAHA!
Really. The pork chop thingy is nice with the bbq sauce. But got bones leh. Haha. The lagsane isn't that nice compared to pastamania and pizza hut. The tic-tac-toe platter is quite nice. Prawn cocktail salad? Not realli suits my taste. After that, watched "L Change The World". SUPER NICE! I WANT TO WATCH AGAIN!
Haha. Went home after that. Couldn't find the book I wanted in Times and Sans Bookshop. Sad.
Okay, rest till now, gonna start mugging tomorrow morning! Ja mata!
<3 teh key pouchie =)
P.S : Who free to go to other times bookstore outlet with me? Please tell me kaees? Will thank you LOADS.
This is a song by Christine Glass...Heard it quite often from TVB Dramas.
Here's the lyrics~ kinda sweet music and voice =)
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home. If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home. If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home. When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home. If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home, Boy, my love will get you home.
Yesterday can u believe it? 拜年 until so late den reach home. Shagged. Dad insists of staying at my cous house until it's wee hours...luckily there's computer there...and my cousin got play py...gg.
Kinda upset that dad dun allow me to leave early. Humph. Therefor couldn't go to Leslie house. ARGHHHH.
Got quite alot of ang baooo. But dunno how much lars. Lazy to open aso. Bet not much either.
Revisions, revisions, more revisions.
Ate too much chocolate for the past few days. Heaty + sore throat liao.
Couldn't go to vinvinvin bbq partee today. Gotta visit another family later. Bummer.
I miss dardar leh~ T_T
Hais. Oh yea before this slipped off my mind.
To my dear fwens~
Who is free to go to mal's house tomorrow? Please sms me ok? Many thanks =)
Ok back to revise before going to relative's house.
Damn I'm sick of wearing formal alr. LOL. Kena forced into formal for these few days.
I guess my parents love me in formal dressing. Says that...it's nice.
-It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.-
Movie Plot (Taken from sg.movies.yahoo.com):
Based on a novella by acclaimed writer Catherine Lim, the story is about Li-Ann, a young Singaporean girl who meets her 'special someone' on 29 February. She decides to base her intuition on an Irish leap year tradition that no man will refuse any request of a lady and invites him out for a date. Together, they embark on a romantic journey that spans over 12 years, meeting only thrice in 12 years, on the leap year.
I rmb this ring is dang give me de...lol! super nice lor~ I like the "doggy" shape + metallic look ^^v Although...it's not fixed de...cause it's "free size". But quite nice la. From the anime MÄR. =)
Went out with chanssy and mt to watch...
YES. Ah Long Pte Ltd LOL. Overall, that movie is nice. Alot of super funny scenes. But they use alot of dialects, and most of the people is from M'sia I think. Cause they have that accent when they speak chinese. Waited for like 15mins of commercial time before the movie start. Then the movie ended at like...2.15am I think. Den I dunwan take taxi with chan~ Haha...ps ah. Cause I wan to walk home ba ^^" Kinda wanna stroll home, den woots. Very nice.
During the stroll "small walk" home, thought about of alot of stuffs. Felt a lil weird. Happy yet set. Satisfied yet still desire for things. Complicated feelings + stuffs. Reached home at about 3.30am. LOL. I took a really long walk. So after reach home, sleep le. Tired from the long walk ba.
Woke up with a lil fever. Took medicine. Tomorrow still have to go to paternal side to bai nian. Hais. I dun realli like going there. Cause v.v. sian de lo!
Aniways, 新年快乐！ Gawd. Who wanna watch CJ7, Kungfu Dunk and P.S I Love You? PLEASE WATCH WITH ME! OR CALL ME ALONGGGG!
L (From Death Note) Fans, you can get a L bookmark from 7-11! I got one from there. LOL. Using it for my 公主小妹 book. Haha. bookmark mah. Must utilise it!
Bloghopped and hopped to Mr Brown's blog. Saw this post.
Rejection lines and what the girl really means
Not familiar with rejection lines? Here's what we really mean. So get a hint, ok, guys? Seesh.
10. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me of that f**king pest. And I'm not into incest either.)
9. There's a slight difference in our ages. (You are one jurassic geezer.)
8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way. (You are the ugliest freak I've ever laid eyes upon.)
7. My life is too complicated right now. (I don't want you spending the whole night or else you may hear phone calls from all the other guys I'm seeing.)
6. I've got a boyfriend (He's my male cat and a half gallon of Ben and Jerry's).
5. I don't date men where I work. (Actually, I wouldn't even date you if you were in the same 'solar system', much less the same building.)
4. It's not you, it's me. (It's not me, it's you.)
3. I'm concentrating on my career. (Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)
2. I'm celibate. (I've sworn off only the men like you.)
1. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have fun with. It's that male perspective thing)
Played Taiko no Tatsujin Portable 1...haha...I <3 one of the song inside...it's Natsu Matsuri by Whiteberry (Wooooo. White Berry haha.)
Translated ver: Dunno correct anot la =p
The summer I spent with you, is like a faraway dream the fireworks display that disappeared into the sky.
the scent of your hair (in bubbles) popped up the way you look in your yukata was so bright the night of the festival made my heart pound we almost lost sight of one another in the crowd "don't seperate from me" I said starting to put out my hand but i put back in my pocket, and closed it in a fist.
The summer I spent with you, is like a faraway dream the fireworks display that disappeared into the sky.
Like a child, you got so wrapped up in catching a goldfish, that you let your sleeves get wet, that innocent profile is so cute. you bought your favorite cotton candy, things were going well, but then you saw a friend just over there and put some distance between us, while we walked.
The summer I spent with you, is like a faraway dream the fireworks display that disappeared into the sky.
in the shrine sitting on the stone steps, in the dim light, we could barely hear the commotion far away. light up the toy fireworks with a match, we talked about many things, but i never could say I like you.
The summer I spent with you, is like a faraway dream the fireworks display that disappeared into the sky.
the fireworks display that disappeared into the sky.
Applied for NS deferment. I got defered till March 2010. Hahaha. Sian leh. Cannot defer much longer mehhhh. ARGHHHHHH. Lol.
Ok...this is my finalised New Year Resolutions. (Yes, it came one month late. Don't whine.)
1.Prepare for major major exams. (Semester Exams, Term Exams.) 2.Have a really good sleep. (Sleepless/sleep too late le.) 3.Improve on my time management. 4.Exercise. LOL. 5.Study very very hard. 6.Revise more oftenly. 7.Cut down on slacking time. 8.Get CARTEL from chan. (P.S: See this ok? Chanssy =p) 9.Earn money. 10.Live much more happier. 11.Don't neglect the people around me.
Today, hy and leslie came to visit me! Domo Arigato for taking the time to come~
Chatted with them while playing the drum game on leslie's psp. Due to my isolation from the world, they came to visit me. *touched* =x
Haha...they came at ard 7pm, den left at ard 8.40pm. Haha, they show me picts taken during cip and during CSAS2 presentation. Eugene and vincent looks v.v. nice in formal. Haha. Maybe this is the..."See too long casual effect?" But they realli look v.v. nice.
I do not dare to think of me in formal. Even though I did wear bfore during sec sch grad nite.
Ok gonna go rest le~ the flu still haven ok, dunno why. Maybe it's due to the whole family is being infected with flu, cough and fever? Haha.
