立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
Haha! Nah. It's a stuffed toy dog that looks uber cute in ikea. Carried it all the way until the bed section. Left it there, and found many more clones of it. XD
So today is quite an eventful day. First, went to Paya Lebar with junhui to get her belt, and I also got a spare one too. After that, went to Courts because there's a major sale or so I've heard on TV. I saw the dual LCD camera! OMG. Same as what nicole had. Beauty shot!!
After that, went to Ikea to sit on the 1k sofa that I've been aiming at!! Omg. Seriously nice to sit. Must remember to measure see can I manage to put a 2.4m sofa on the side. If can yes!! A new sofa! Finally I can sit on something that isn't that hard, like the table...
I sense a sore throat coming up. The phlegm is stuck in my throat D:
I have things that I need to complete by monday:
1.Tutorials 2.PBL links and summary 3.Revision of modules 4.Lab 5.Sister's artwork. (For the moneh!) Mercernary, aren't I?
Alrighty. That's all for today!! Teehee. I'm perfectly fine nao :D If you get my drift. Life still have to go on :D
This picture looks nice. I have the idea of photoshopping it and make it as my blog header, replacing the current Kimi ni Todoke picture, and I plan to change the lyrics to either Hikari or Sanctuary :D
I'm practically drooling now because of these 3 things:
Fresh Breeze *nosebleed*
Rain Fall *more nosebleeding*
Pool of blood *squeals*
Credit to playasia~~ OMG. Seriously. I wanna get all this three keyblades!! I got the oblivion keyblade but not Oathkeeper, so now I am v.v. emo. Anyone who can get the Oathkeeper keychain for me in Japan will be my best friend forever and ever and everrrrrr. (:
But now I wanna get these 3! It's like 28 per keychain though. ): so it's like 84 for 3 keyblades. I'm not that tempted to get Earth Shaker, but...but...it's uber nice! I love how detailed the keyblades areeeeeee!!!
Sigh. I have to decide should I get these 3 keyblades, Nier, or Cross Edge, or my harddisk, or my new psp. How. So many wants and needs! T_T
Please just let me pick up 500 bucks on the floor! :D Haha. Just dreaming though ):
So this week is actually busy...
1. I have to decide should I drop Entrepreneurship for French? 2. Research on Hazardous of Electrical Appliances. 3. Complete all tutorials 4. Revision. 5. Sleep.
): ):
How siaaaaa.
But on a lighter note, I had loads of fun today! Especially supper session! Haha. It's always fun meeting friends who we've never met for a long, long time. (: Yayyyy!
So I know I'm supposed to be sleeping now since I'll be waking up at 6.30am, (which is like 4hrs and 30 minutes later.) but I just couldn't get to sleep. Maybe I'm just like a child, excited about the first day of my school. In fact, no. It's the opposite. I wonder why does this kind of panic attacks happen, but it does happen at the worst possible timing ever.
A sudden pang of stress just came over. What if I couldn't do well this semester? Well, all these kinds of negative feelings just came wave after wave over this few hours that I couldn't get to sleep, now turning on my computer and just rambling over here like it's nobody's business. (Oh yeah it's my blog so I'm entitled to do this.) :P
So, I did discuss with my mum. (Mum are the best aren't they. They seem to be around you when you need them the most.) She give me the assurance that they aren't expecting that much from me, they just want me to give the best in everything that I do. Well, it is an assurance for me, but I just wanted to excel that badly to make them feel proud. But deep down inside, is that really what they want? I seriously wonder.
After watching a show just now, I realised that while walking through life, we tend to cross paths with many people, yet when have we ever stop down to say hi, to reminisce with everyone that we've meet? I guess that's a bad point in living in such a fast paced city. We tend to overlook the littlest details in life. I guess it's much more worth it to get over anger and sadness with a smile, rather than keeping grudges or feeling discontented. It's much more easier and relaxing to live that way.
Read a story called I wish you enough, and what does that mean? It's actually quite meaningful, and with a tint of bittersweet melancholy.
---- I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough helloes to get you through the final good-bye. ----
Why do we always seem to overlook those around us, while walking through life? And when we stop, and tried to care for them, they are already long gone? I guess we really do have to treasure the people around us really well. ):
I guess rambling on my blog do have it uses. I feel so much better now after saying what I wanted to say. I guess bottling things up do make people feel suffocating.
Okay. Gotta go sleep. 4hrs lectures straight. Oh god. >.< I need to stay awake and pay attention!!
The song that always manages to make me feel nostalgic. (: It's a really sweet ending song from Chocobo Racing. (I love this game so much!)
---- Do you remember the days When we had long long ways to go And you were there for me, As I was there for you to be around The sun was shining brightly Down on us so gently That we thought we could go on Or was
Hand in hand, forever and almorn We would run, we'd never have enough Did an angel know when it was time to live Or time to sleep On and on, the hours tick away So the memories can go astray Oh, how I miss the days of golden sun And please, I'd rather be with you I still remember the days When we had long long time to share Until I saw you there Not as tired as I used to feel Hello I said unsurly You smiled a little shyly Soon we knew we would go on Together on a journey to our dreams
Hand and hand, forever and almorn We'd run, didn't even care to ask How far away from home We'd have to go
On and on, the hours tick away Oh the memories go astray Oh I miss the never-ending road, And sure, I'd rather be with you Sweet summer breeze Or autumn leaves Through winter skys And flowers of spring Friends and their laughter Precious and kind Let them shine like diamonds in my heart
All along, I'm here to find the way To what dreams, we used to have before, And I hope to see again Your smiling face along the way somewhere If you hear me calling out today And you see the meaning of it all Come and join me on this way again You know, tomorrow will be there... ----
So I finally managed to get this :D Travis Touchdown rawkssss!! I'll plat this, and get the english version if it does comes out a year later or maybe earlier? I also managed to get Byakuya in the lucky gachapon I tried at toys r'us (: Now squad 6 is beautifully on my psp where buttons are already so cranky. It's time to save for my KH BBS bundle!
One regretful thing I never did. Because of the lack of cash ): I wanan go to this music live last year!!! T_T but not enough cash T_T So I can only watch videos via youtube. The music is damnnnn nice. Uber nice. Super nice. The singers cosplay too. (:
So due to someone who didn't actually reply me when I requested for his aid, I decided to make a ps3 platinum list for my own use. (: Two more plats to my current goal!!
Games that are close to platting would be FF13, Uncharted 2 and Yakuza 3. I think I'll plat NMH too!!! Rawrrrr. ):
Should I get Fatal Frame 3, Resident Evil 4, God of War 3, or Cross Edge? Although I think the current games would be able to last me till the end of June, where another bunch of games (P3P, KHBBS, Nier) would last me even longer.
So I finally went to check out my timetable...wholla. Scary. (:
Monday: (Odd Week) IBM Lab 12pm-3pm UO1 Lab 3pm-6pm
Comment: No breaks. ): Hungry howwww? ): Never finish Pre-lab howww?? ):
(Even Week) ET Lab 9am-12pm
Comment: There's a reason to love even weeks now. (:
Tuesday: UO1 Lecture 9am-10am ET Lecture 10am-12pm EM 2 Lecture 12pm-1pm
Comments: I love tuesday. (:
Wednesday: EM2 Lecture 9am-11am ET Tutorial 11am-12pm Break till 1pm IBM Tutorial 1pm-2pm OSH Lecture 2pm-4pm EM2 Tutorial 4pm-6pm
Comments: Busy wednesday. 4 kinds of module notes to bring.
Thursday: UO1 Lecture 9am-11am IBM Lecture 11am-1pm Break till 2pm UO1 Tutorial 2pm-3pm Break till 4pm Entrepreneurship CDS 4pm-6pm
Comments: Should I actually drop Entrepreneurship or change?? But it's my CP de module neh =x
Friday: OSH Tutorial 9am-11am
Comments: I LOVE FRIDAY!! (:
:D:D
So overall I'm happy with this. Even week is kinda a leisure on monday, tuesday and friday. But I must buck up so yeah. Prolly I'll spend breaks in the library. You know, there's a tactic of revising what you learnt today and everything will be easier.
I'm planning to try this method this semester. (:
There's no school on monday and friday for me this week, cuz first week there's no tut/lab :D
(:(:
I guess I can only meet SJ for lunch on tuesday, wednesday and thursday and maybe friday? :X
I'm soooooo gonna get No More Heroes : Eiyuutachi no Rakuen when it reaches the shore of Singapore.
The person cheated my feelings. Told me today it'll be coming, and I went there at night and it is not here yet. ):
P.S: I totally recommend you peeps to watch Shutter Island if you really wanna get your mind messed up. (:
P.P.S: Comedy lovers should really, seriously consider watching B gata H kei. Super funny anime. Stupid, but funny. 100 fuckbuddies? My god. LOL.
Well, I finally decided to get a haircut and to clean up the mess on my table...so I finally started today (Well, things have been piling up since year 2007 so 3 years worth of stuffs.)
So here's the mess of 3 years:
Yes. All the notes/textbooks/files scattered on the table.
So I woke up at 9.30 to clean up >_>" Amazing determination on my part in waking up I guess.
Tip in cleaning: Clear from the sides. It works pretty well.
Next, move away files/manga/stuffs that are not easily scattered around (like foolscap paper that is not stapled, and I can't even make a clue wth it is.)
Clear off magazines/newspaper that you never ever wanted anymore...
This is the whole mess I left before I went to meet junhui for lunch at swensens! (Gosh I love the sirlion steak!) After that, went to the airport with junhui. Totally satisfied. XD Durian ice cream + another mission done (:
Then, went to eastpoint to have a haircut. I loveee the style...but I can't do it so I'll leave my hair gel/wax-less. ):
End of Day 1. It's supposed to be cleaner, but I haven't really sort out the subject of the notes, which will be done today. (Maybe.)
Ignore the stack of comics. It'll be gone once I clear the inner shelves.
OT: Pangya!! XD 39 coins, 5 sets. (:
Didn't took a screenie of Lucia...but I got hers on the 17th coin. Hana's on the 19th.
Cece's 20th.
Crimson 29th! I am so not gonna spend on gacha unless I'm utterly tempted to do so.
Kooh's on 32nd. Where's my Aaaaaarin ):
I totally love CC's new set. Cleavage = drool-town
Is it really that easy to change? When you say change, it doesn't happen immediately. Even if you change to a new environment, you're still the same old you. Did you even change at all? No.
What causes things to change? Effort and time. It takes effort, and time, for things to change.
The more you stay the same, the more you see things around you changing.
Yet when you start to change, you'll actually see things staying the same.
Is it an illusion, or is it the way things work? I guess no one really knows.
No one really knows the answers to everything.
We're just clueless humans walking towards the end of time. Tell me again, why am I the one in charge of finding hentai videos for YT's birthday? *shrugs*
Went to catch the movie: How to Train Your Dragon with Phad (After realizing that there's not much movies to catch anymore), it's actually a pretty good movie! Toothless is darn cute!!
After that, went home. Dl-ed game, pondered over whether should I watch K-On!! Season 2 now or later, don't feel like watching Arakawa under the bridge...sigh ): Hakuoki too ):
Decided to touch photoshop again, and made 4 signatures in a hour. (Approx 15minutes per signature?) Now, currently stoning, staring into space while listening to this particular old song called 'The Circle Game'. Lyrics are kinda meaningful, tune wise, it's relaxing.
---- Yesterday a child came out to wonder Caught a dragonfly inside a jar Fearful when the sky was full of thunder And tearful at the falling of a star And the seasons they go round and round And the painted ponies go up and down We're captive on the carousel of time We can't return we can only look behind From where we came And go round and round and round In the circle game
Then the child moved ten times round the seasons Skated over ten clear frozen streams Words like, when you're older, must appease him And promises of someday make his dreams And the seasons they go round and round And the painted ponies go up and down We're captive on the carousel of time We can't return we can only look behind From where we came And go round and round and round In the circle game
Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town And they tell him, Take your time, it won't be long now Till you drag your feet just to slow the circles down And the seasons they go round and round And the painted ponies go up and down We're captive on the carousel of time We can't return we can only look behind From where we came And go round and round and round In the circle game
So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true There'll be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty Before the last revolving year is through And the seasons they go round and round And the painted ponies go up and down We're captive on the carousel of time We can't return, we can only look behind From where we came And go round and round and round In the circle game ----
We can't return, we can only look behind from where we came... as who, in this whole wide universe, can turn back time?
Had a dinner with mt today...went to kim gary! Okay...the peppermint aloe vera is like sprite aloe vera. The chicken chop with double sauce spaghetti is quite nice though. After that, had a craving for ice cream so we decided to go to Swensen's at T2 for ice cream.
Had my favorite durian ice creammmmmmmm! After that, nua-ed there until 11 to wait for junhui's to finish her job. Haha. Had a fun time reading CLEO magazine.
After that, went to 201 to have slight supper. I gained weight. Haha.
Went home, currently playing facebook games. (:
it's such a dirty mess, imperfect at its best. (: meh...school's starting soon.
This is seriously true. With the recent weather, I'm sleeping the most of my time. Gotta sleep well before school starts soon yeah!
Other than sleeping, it's gaming, eating, exercising. I guess that is what a mundane life sounds huh? I guess I prefer living this way. Thrills and excitement aren't my type after all.
Huat ah. Yes, in the emotion scales sadness have went for a unlimited boost in my life in an instant. (:
So I'm just a petty guy in your eyes? I can assure you that I'm definitely not angry at all, I managed to keep my rationality while typing that huge chunk of words.
I'm just feeling a little bit cold and emotionless after I read that sentence. There's no more fire within me. I gave up.
I'm just utterly disappointed, and it manages to make me realize that you don't understand me.
I am actually happy that you actually care and manage to try to talk, rather than not giving a damn about this, but it's not working when you've already made some conclusions in your mind.
That is all. Chapter closed, I don't wanna talk about it anymore because it'll get really ugly by then, and I know it's hard to change both of our opinions on this matter. I hope this would be the most rational decision I've made in my life.
