立ち止まらない この針だけは Only this clock-hand would pierce through,
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す the sound that engraved my tomorrows, unable to stop.
真実から逃げたら今 If I escape from the truth right now,
現実にも負けたら今 if I would even give up on reality right now,
何が残るの? just what would be left behind?
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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21
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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.
Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA. ->Best way to release stress. ->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3 ->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition ->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition ->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition ->New Renoma Leather Wallet ->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red) ->1TB External Hard Disk
If we see each other’s faces, we always fight. That’s a good memory too.
You taught me that; I’m not afraid anymore. No matter how fettered I am, I can grasp happiness. That’s why…
Even if I’m alone, I’ll go, even if it’s difficult. I’ll definitely bring the dream I had with you. I’m glad it was with you, and nobody else. But when I woke up in the morning, you weren’t there.
We’d be able to play forever; that’s the feeling I got. That was just a feeling I got, that was it, I know. I don’t regret that I was born anymore. Like the end of a festival, it’s lonely, but we’ve got to go pretty soon.
I’ll go anywhere with the things I learned here. I’ll show you that I can make the dream called happiness come true. Even if I’m separated from you, no matter how far away we go. I’m going to live in a new morning.
Even if I’m alone, I’ll go, even if I want to die. I can hear your voice, saying I mustn’t die. Even if it’s difficult, even if I cry from loneliness... I can feel warmth from deep inside my heart.
Going around and flowing, time is ever-changing. I can’t remember what happened anymore, but... If I try and close my eyes, I can hear someone’s laughing voice For some reason, now, that is my most precious treasure.
I find it a thrill to blog in school. Dunno why though. Haha. Okay, enough randomness.
I'm v.v. happy that this week will be a fun week I guess? XD Dinner tomorrow with sj and fang, then friday gonna go kbox with junhui, xin, ben(I guess?) and huixian hahaha. :D It's been AGES since I went to kbox. ): (The bathroom was my only place where I can sing without feeling awkward hahaha.) Like, who doesn't hum or sing in the bathroom? :3
Well, I guess after the holidays, I'm having difficulties focusing in my studies, for example, I should be studying for my french test later but here I am blogging, facebooking, twittering, haha tons of temptations preventing me from reading the powerpoing slides (6 different ppt, approximately 50 slides) just for 10, 10 mcq question. A little bit exaggerating right??
Okay, I think I should just stop here. The thrill of blogging have been lost once I realised I have so many slides to read. -.-"
When someone lacks the most basic thing everyone should have,
yet he has everything everyone desired,
will he be happy?
Will he eventually be happy?
We can practically apply this to life.
What we wanted, and what we didn't want...
might be what someone else wanted...yet what he has,
Oh ho ho ho ho ho ho (: I'm v.v. happy with my term tests result and my french results. Totally unexpected! xD So during this week, I'm a very very happy man. (:
In addition, I managed to catch Knight and Day. Well, I wouldn't say it's a really good movie, but it's funny, and well, it's nice to see the interaction between Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. Utterly hilarious.
Actually I wanted to go to Orchard today to get this cd:
Yes! The live band version!! That I couldn't go to Japan to watch ):
Haha. It should be approximately 40 bucks but I'm going to cross my fingers and pray for a cheaper price. The reason I didn't go was pretty stupid though. Because I went to join the New Hero Tournament in pangya (which of course, didn't get anything lolz.) which was held at 7am GMT +8. I slept at around 3am, woke up at 5.30am >_>" wasn't really in my form. After that, was totally tired. ):
So I decided to slack at home and laze around doing nothing. (: But I must go and get this CD next week!! ): The music so nice and is really good for doing homework!! Haha. Must find excuses to get it. Justify the reason of getting it. XD
Okay! Junhui is coming back today~ can go to kbox soon~~ :D
But wait. I have 3 quizzes this week. Aiya heck care. :P
-No matter how dark your state of life is, no matter how long the rain in your life does not end, as long as there is a speckle of light, a glimpse of hope, everything will end someday, and a clear sky will appear. (:-
Well, people who play online games should know this term by now (if not, seriously, do some googling.)
As everyone should know, private servers are getting more and more commercialized recently will all the vote points, donation points, etc. etc.
I know that this would come sooner or later because people would not vote if they don't give some rewards (carrot and stick method). But...that is still okay. What I really don't like is...
Custom items. YES. CUSTOM ITEMS. Because it creates a trouble for you in a huge way.
This is the scenario:
1.I wanted to try this server, so I downloaded the client and installed it. 2.Then, I realised that this server isn't that fun at all, and I changed to another server. 3.But I realised I have to re-download the client because both servers have different custom items and I'll crash if I don't download the new client. 4.Fuck this I don't wanna play anymore.
See? It's so frustrating having to redownload the same game over and over and over again just because they have stupid custom items, and you don't know which file to delete to get rid of the custom items. >_>"
Yet on a lighter note, I got into the semi-finals and lost.
13th in qualifying rounds, 13th in final round. ): If only I didn't ob on h16 T_T
Why...?
Thursday, June 24, 2010 @ 12:53 AM
Your inner eye has clouded over so much, that it's impossible for you to see. Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?
Having the entire world at your fingertips, Is that what you consider happiness?
Why? Why do look up into the lonely sky? Why? Can't you laugh a little? I understand this character of yours, This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.
What was it that came to be in your sequestered past? These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.
All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you, Is this the warmth that you have come to know?
Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look? Why? Can you not open up your heart a little? You've been taxed by this heavy burden for so long, It's time that you learn to accept yourself. Have more faith in yourself...
It is those who are free that are stumbling... It is those who are free that are insecure...
Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky? Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly? I can appreciate this reticent character of yours. You only have to try to believe...
Why... ?
Seriously...why? ):
-It's these times that I look so lost, not knowing what I really want for my future.-
This went on during lecture...three times in total lolz.
T:"Remember, there is NO, NO chain rule or quotient rule in integration." T:"Now, use the chain rule to integrate this question. Sorry. Not chain rule."
Three times. Hahaha.
Had a pretty good lunch, and now I'm at home fretting over how to spend my last three days of holidays. (:
Today was considered as a pretty constructive day. I went out to get my laptop connected to TP wireless (Finally, and my battery managed to survive until the process is completed.) and went for ET project, which is due after term break, on Monday 10am (So...evil.)
Finished most of the project, but there's still part of it left, so we'll be meeting again sometime next week. And there's a meeting for UO1 project next Tuesday, EM2 remedial on next Thursday, a lab report to finish before break ends...
Please, can anyone tell me is this a break, or not a break?! Haha.
Spent the rest of my time pangya-ing and enjoying those voices. (Dammit!) Thy shall complete the heavily psychotic game, Heavy Rain before term break is over. I can't believe I managed to complete the chopping of fingers part. I still went to cauterize the wounds after that. Eww. I'm feeling so guilty now.
Okay. Gonna head out for sup sup soon :D
Before that...I'll finish a signature. I'm in love with Episode 10 of Angel Beats. Sad, yet with a touch of bliss and happiness. ): Poor Yui and Hinata.
Dreams, do come true. (: Edited ver by me,Picture by pcmanaic88~
Disclaimer: This topic is not applicable to everyone, but majority of the humans living in this big, big world.
I guess humans (me, you and everyone else is weird.) We whine, when we want something yet we couldn't get it. (Like me, I whine constantly about things I want yet I have not enough cash.)
We whine, when we have the thing we wanted yet we still want more. (I have A, but I still want B! whinewhinewhine.)
We even whine when we're in a very contended state of life.
Whining seems to be a part and parcel of our life.
But remember, don't let whining get the best of you, or you'll seriously spend the rest of the life whining. (:
And to those who are still whining in such late hours, just go get some sleep and continue whining tomorrow.
It's magical you know? Whenever you put a smiley at the end of something, you'll feel happy after looking at it. (:
1st day- Wake up. Eat. Head out. Watch movie. Sleep. 2nd day- Wake up. Eat. Stone. Play pokemon. Stone somemore. Sleep. 3rd day - Wake up. Eat. Deleted Kingdom Hearts BBS. Played MGS Peace Walker. Eat. Sleep. 4th day - Wake up. Eat. Continue MGS Peace Walker. DLed Hexyz Force. Eat. Sleep. 5th day - Wake up. Eat. Swim. Play Pokemon Heart Gold. Pangya awhile. Eat. Sleep 6th day - Wake up. Went to top up CC. Played gacha. 17 coins and nothing. Emo. Eat. Play Pangya again. Stoning infront of comp.
And I guess it'll continue until the end of the holidays. ): Such a lonely life. (:
Hahaha okay la I'll stop crapping but seriously that's how I went through 6 days of my life with nothing constructional in it.
Well, at least I finished watching about, 3 series of my backlogged anime, and Cougar Town, now am currently still watching Valentines Day, after that it'll be the American Movie Leap Year. (: The movie that I wanted to watch but it is still, yes, STILL not in Singapore.
"My momma always said life was like a box of chocolates…you never know what you're gonna get." - Forrest Gump
This is me, trying out this hoping to get the tickets for the premiere for Toy Story 3! So bear with it!! Haha.
Well, I remember watching Toy Story in the movie when it's out, with a sleeping dad beside me (Yeah he kinda hates cartoon but he went through it with me, so I appreciate that effort!)
So my favourite Toy Story 3 Character (I sure hope it includes the old ones) is of course one of the protagonist, Woody! :D:D
Why? I guess the most important thing where I like is he always makes the right decision in the end, no matter how bad he screwed up in the past. I kind of hate him with his jealousy towards buzz in the first series, but looking at how he's changed a little and become more mature (for a toy, it's cool enuff.), it makes me like him, and he makes me feel that even toys can have human feelings like love, hate and jealousy. (Oh god.)
Heck, it even shows me that two people who totally hate each other at first can be good friends after some trials and tribulations together. ;)
Aww...look how chummy they are! :D
And the favourite scene in the trailer would be when Ken meets Barbie. Totally hilarious! With the bgm "Take my breath away"! Well, it's reasonable since Ken is in the Barbie series but the way he dresses?! Bad dress sense!
Picture taken from facebook! :D
This is the trailer for the movie, Toy Story 3:
Catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page! :D:D
Just replace 'High School' with Poly, and 'World History' with my modules.
On the last paper, this is what I was feeling deep down inside:
It was a torture, waiting for the time to finish.
So I have 2 weeks of break less than 1 week of break after projects and all...I'm seriously giving my best in taking a break before the whole thing starts over again until September. -.-
To sum up my confidence in all of the papers on a scale of 1-10:
UO1: 8 EM2: 7 OSH: 6 ET: 4 IBM: 6
(: ET was a total disaster in terms of everything. The teacher's alr marking it. -.-
Haha. I can't wait to get my results back and maybe I'll start to get emo emo emo. ):
And when my exams are over, my laptop are giving me problems. Whenever I tried to login to my msn, it will cause my laptop to hang, and I have to hard reset my laptop. ): Now I cannot login to my msn!! T_T
I finally managed to watch Sex and The City 2. It was a total hilarious movie, yet I didn't actually manage to keep up with the storyline because I was busy sleeping due to the fatigue. ): Now I might have to watch it again...so who wanna watch it?!?!
I wanna watch The Killers and Furry Vengeance too! Haha. Before the holidays end.
Today, went to Kinokuniya @ orchard, wanted to find Persona 3 Portable official fanbook but the search function there is not working, and I can;t find the book at the section even though I went through it 3 times checking the names too.
So end up buying Kimi ni Todoke book 10 (They finally got together.), Kyou Kara Maou (Finally being released.), Bokura wa Itsumo (The cover is nice, and I sense that it is kinda like Bokura ga Ita.) and Skip Beat 24 (Which I sold to junhui, a few months back.)
After that, went home, and went to Swensens at T2 to have dinner. Then, went to a temple to pray. Now, am at home, uninstalling Maplestory (I managed to get sick of it), and now am downloading RebirthRO. (: I guess that would bring me to the end of the 'dry season' of games for me.
Come to think of it...I'll be so broke after July...reason is:
I love this this this!! OMG the wooden case look so smexy can! And with the goodies...$150 SGD ): *orgasm* It's actually a repackaged DJ Max Fever. But since I've never played before so...(:
Thy am a supporter of piracy, joking. I'll be getting this UMD. $70 SGD ): approx.
I'm also a sucker for cute stuffs and hilarious storyline. Also a sucker for NIS stuffs. ): (Disgaea 1-3, Phantom Brave, Makai Kingdom, Cross Edge)
I'll be so getting this if I'm not broke. ): But I will prolly get the English Guidebook (If there is one.)
This too!! Omg. The soundtrack is v.v. good. imho.
Anyone who knows where I can get this book, PLEASE TELL ME!! =x
Not forgetting I might be getting this game after looking at how fun it is. (:
So basically now I'm seriously upset because my computer is giving me headaches, and I have so many wants yet I'm dead broke. ): RAWR. Haha. Okay. It's already 2am so I guess I'll stop writing here. (:
Before that, I've got a song where I find the lyrics are quite meaningful. (:
---- Dear you, Who's reading this letter Where are you and what are you doing now?
For me who's 15 years old There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone
If it's a letter addressed to my future self, Surely I can confide truly to myself
Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry For someone who's seemingly about to disappear Whose words should I believe in? This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times In the midst of this pain, I live the present
Dear you, Thank you I have something to tell the 15-year-old you
If you continue asking what and where you should be going You'll be able to see the answer
The rough seas of youth may be tough But row your boat of dreams on Towards the shores of tomorrow
Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear Just believe in your own voice For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt But I'm living the bittersweet present
There's meaning to everything in life So build your dreams without fear Keep on believing
Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry For someone who's seemingly about to disappear Whose words should I believe in?
Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear Just believe in your own voice
No matter era we're in There's no running away from sorrow So show your smile, and go on living the present Go on living the present
Dear you, Who's reading this letter I wish you happiness... ----
(: Angela Aki rawks! (:
'Later that day, I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that brings up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you, that you love, well, that's just fabulous.'- Carrie Bradshaw.
