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Alias: Yuuki, Haru, Akihiko, Venskye
Name: ZH (:
Age: 21

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This blog is meant to be full of my rants, daily happenings and stuffs like that. Occasional reviews, stories, and opinions. It's my open, unfinished story.

Desires
->Graduate with more than 3.5 GPA.
->Best way to release stress.
->Shut out all depressing thoughts.
->God of War 3
->Castlevania: Lord of Shadow Limited Edition
->DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition
->Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Collectors Edition
->New Renoma Leather Wallet
->Crumpler Bag (Black or Red)
->1TB External Hard Disk
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Cheryl, CzeeTing, ZhiFang, JunHui, MeiTing, PangCheng, Karilynn, Ross, ShiQin, SiYi, WenLiang, Yannchang

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Life sure is hard.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 @ 11:38 PM
This always do happen when you don't expect it to happen.

This sunday...my dear fren, Mr Fever came visiting me again...how nice it is to visit me that often rite?

So alas...didn't went to school on monday and tuesday...finally felt better...so tomorrow going to school le...but alas, tomorrow got lab...and I dun have the prelab notes...so...it's kinda good game mode...where I hafta rush to school super early tomorrow...

Bought Straits Times...but haven't really read any bcos of fever...hais...friday still got impromptu speech..die le lor..

Jap on thurs...although I haven't read any jap notes...I'm CONFIDENT I can manage next tutorial. Heh.

Not being that lucky recently...sick...play games all so unlucky der...maple...item boom boom boom like fireworks...studies scared cannot catch up bcos of sick...den ah...my laptop lost one item...grats to me hor.

Oh well...this sure is not such a good start.

Saw a quote from a picture about "breaking down".

-It might be time to leave this world, it only hurts once...the bones only break once...but I'll be free of troubles afterwards.-

It sure sounds nice. Haha............

Ok I got to do my TD tutorial ler...if not tomorrow trouble ler...

bbz...

-If my world came crashing down on me...-

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There's Hardly Any Second Chance in Life.
Thursday, October 25, 2007 @ 2:14 AM
Well, today there's no lab and TD tutorial...so no nd to go school today...woke up quite late because of the fever...but practically...I'm fine now...just hafta eat my medicine.

Had quite a heated conversation with SL on tuesday...I still kinda felt sad that I wasn't be able to comfort her, although she said that I've help in certain ways. Just hope that she would get some revelation soon.

Some of the things she said let me went into thinking.

Maybe..When I do something...I aso want that certain someone to help me back someday, somewhere, somehow.

Just the thought of this...also made me thinking that maybe...I'm also selfish.

I'm just a selfish guy that I don't deserve anyone.

She told me she's not coming online for a year...as she wants to concentrate in studying...although I don't want her to do this...but...it's for her own good. I can't be selfish to hold her...maybe I should not contact her...so that she could really concentrate in her studies...it's for her own good. Her own good...what am I talking about?

I did have selfish thoughts.

Now I then know...this type of feeling...is unbearable.

I think...I've realli fall in love.

How...

I'm such a jerk.

Later...school's 9am-7pm. With break from 12pm-2pm. 10 hours in school. Just hope that this would keep me busy enough to stop thinking about her...thinking about her makes me feel sad...that I'd not be able to contact her...

Busy....thursday.

-Life is different from a game. If you did something wrong in a game, you could just jolly well press the "reset" button. But...there's no "reset" button in life. There's hardly any second chance in life.-

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Happy 17th~ to me!
Monday, October 22, 2007 @ 12:34 AM
Haha, went out with rilynn, mt, hy, mal, dang and jh on 20th Oct~ had a fun day...we went to have sushi at this ri ben chun (Japanese Village o.O?!) at Tampines Swimming complex, den after that, went to play arcade...finally tried House of The Dead 4...so creepy luh. The zombies so hard to die der...veri fast die ler. After that, went to see the movie time, bought the tickets to watch Mr Woodcock. After that, sugar tooth is craving for sugar, so went to Hagen Daz to have ice cream~ yumyum...

Den mal arrived, and we waited time to pass...so went to TM arcade to play again...after that, watched the movie...even though I've already watched the movie, it's still nice and funny aniways. After the movie, went to Pasir Ris White Sands to slack...and meet up with Jun Hui...after that, went to mac to slack, while mal had his dinner of nuggets meal -.-"

Karilynn fell in love with the bleach game in my psp. She's one of a hell bao li nv ren LOL.

After that, went home...and she wished me happi bdae ard 11.40pm...it's sure veri late =x

Den mapled...to 20%...and went to sleep.

Woke up, mapled...while waiting for qj wedding to start, which is 9pm. So decided to went to py to chill...omg...it's like ice cannon everywhere. It's real CHILLING. After that, went to see my timetable again...which made me feel...stunned again...but I found out that for alternate weeks, on friday, I could reach sch at 9am or 12pm. Wow.

But I still wished, got one day no nd go sch de. Holiday mood still on. How?!?!

Qj wedding is fun~ there's so mani ppl shouting R21 stuffs. It made the chapel unholy already. Such a R21 wedding LOL.

After the wedding, went to try scrolling hino. BOOM BOOM BOOM again. Damn it. Don't they have like, something that can make it pass?!?!

Greeeat I spent 1m. -.-"

Oh well~ later packing bag preparing for school tomorrow, 9am! OMG. I think I should change my wallpaper to have a change of mood.

Gonna print out my timetable~ and maybe...I should get some new clothes. Anyone up for bugis in the weekends?

-Nevertheless, until when u wished me happy birthday...I just felt something isn't right. Is this really love?-

AM first lecture. MATHS!

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Deep.
Thursday, October 18, 2007 @ 4:35 AM
Even the slightest thing hurt me now.

I'm so defenseless.

Life isn't the same as last time, since I fall into a river called...love.

When the time where I should be excited and happy...I didn't feel such thing at all.

What has become of me? I wanna be back to normal, joking with friends, laugh everyday...

Not laughing when being sad inside...feeling sad when the mood is happy...

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Pain of a confession.
@ 2:57 AM
The injury from cutting my hand accidentally when I broke the round bottom flask is getting worse. It's reddish and it itches. Maybe it's got an infection? I dunno. I just know that I can't use that hand as well as before yet.

Broke west wiz record, got -27, and got black paps. It's quite a good day for me. Earned 1m in maple today. Happy happy happy. Maybe.

Introducing you peeps to watch Lovely Complex, an anime. It's nice!

Now I finally understand the pain of a confession where the other party who doesn't know what to do in the confession.

It's awkward, and the emotion running through your mind while waiting for the other party answer, where you would always wished that...

"I should not have confessed my feelings to him/her. Why don't I tell him/her that let's pretend nothing has happened?"

But...even if you said that, what's happened has happened. What's done is done. Nothing could change this cruel fact.

So...love is just a thing that's full of pain. That's what I think. Depressed over this freaking thing over these few days. In the laughter, there's tears inside those laughter...but onli one person saw thru it...and I dun like it...hais.

-In love, the happiness of one, lies in the other's hand.-

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Love.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 @ 3:50 AM
How nice if there's a guidebook to love.

There's alot of problems I do not understand.

How nice if there's a teacher for love.

I'll definitely look for the book and the teacher.

I'm lost in love, love lost me.

I wonder.

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Maple madness~
Monday, October 15, 2007 @ 8:06 PM


Aww. Look at this pic...SAD RITE.


Poor kitty.


It made me feel like reviving my pet. Hahas.


Aniways...jh asked me to blog veri nicely~ So, I'm going to blog.


Firstly, it's maple issues!


Finally, the fire/poison wiz with the name of SnOwRhYtHm, has transformed into a fire/poison mage last week, current lvl is 72.


Starting to get maple siao again LOL.


Py seems to be boring without the usual ppl around joking with me. Paps shop is another disgusting issue. 75k used, no rare items at all.


Unexpectedly, my birthday present is violin lessons~ what I wanted ages ago, bt dare nt mention cause I know, violin lessons is uber ex.


And karilynn, violin is not gay ok! Although I know u want the person who play "that" cello that much HAHAHAHA. Or at least, dui ta you hao gan la.


To let go or not, jh asked me to hold on. LOL. I finally zhi dao what is called..."Lian ai de wei dao."


My mummy say before..."Bei ai hao guo qu ai ren. Ai ren shi hen tong ku de." But she say, if is "liang qing xiang yue", it doesn't matter~


Me: "Ai ren zhen tong ku."

JH : "Tong ku de shi hou, ye you tian mi de shi hou."

Me : "Dan shi, tian me de shi hou, zhen de hao duan, hao duan."


Haha, we're getting quite...emo le lah. Emo-ers can join us pls! HAHAHA.


Den played Mafia with dang, adeline (A.K.A fruitbasket) and her tutor o.O SURPRISE RITE.


My sniping skills ok one luhhh!


There's actually a way to die called Pika Pika-ed?!


Aniways, today went back to sch, Mr Wallace is back~~~ hahahaha.


Tomorrow hving bbq at nite...


5 days to 17...times sure flies fast. I'm getting old. (I dun want that!)


Hais...I want a cross necklace~ Oh my, I'm turning into a christian?!


Anyone knows where got sell cheap cross necklace~ plesase tell mie! LOL-ED.


Who wanna go shopping~~ I need alot of new things, wallet spoil liao~ bag got hole liao~ ez-link card haven make, sch starting next week.


How I sure love last minute things. AND I RMB I OWE JH $20. OMFG.


"Time sure flies in a blink of an eye."


-Doesn't everyone wants the person they love, to look only at them?- Hino Kahoko - La Corda D`Oro.




Hahahaha. I love Shimizu-Kun expression. LOL!
きらめく未来に　あなたと二人でいたいから! Hehe. Gotta go~ cyaz! Mafia-ing, pangya-ing and mapling later~

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I'm really getting old.
Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 4:30 AM
Recently due to family matters, workload in school and some personal struggles within my mind, I've become really exhausted. Exhausted and getting insomia is really a strain to both my body and mind. It just feels like everything is out of control, everything is going the wrong way, everything is just so depressing. I just feel like throwing everything away, and run in a field, or sleep.

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Confused.
Friday, October 05, 2007 @ 3:46 AM
After the fever, finally went to school today. Did second batch of synthesis, but haven do annealing anyways. Wonder will I be able to finish in time?

After that, went home. Played py. The paps shop sucks! No rare items at all. After trying 50 times, decided to go to maple. Oh well, what a bad turn it is. Maple patch extended frm 4 to 6 to 8 to 12! WTH rite?!

So I went to have dinner and played py awhile. Den watched Mahoraba ~Heartful Days~...den finally can patch. Auto patch keep on cannot work, waited for the manual patch. Finally worked and logged into maple. 40% trained to 50%, tomorrow gonna play awhile onli..hafta go to temple to pray...family matters...kinda sad to bring it up anyways.

Even though I had fun with my frens, somewhere in my heart is always empty. I dunno what it is. It's making me confused. I desire for that piece, but yet I fear that piece. I wonder...

We've never smsed for a few days. I dunno why u nvr replied after my last sms that time ._.

Today saw u online, yet u went offline so fast. I dunno what's happening...I feel really confused ler.

Oh well...tomorrow is sure going to be a more tiring day..better rest and dun keep thinking of stuffs ler...gonna stop here...cyaz.

-Take the pain out of love, and then love won't exist. Everything we had, it's no longer there.- The Academy Is - Everything We Had.

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