Shadows of the Moonlight.

999th post

2011-03-07T19:50:00.002+08:00

Haha it's been a damn long time since I blogged here, was addicted to tumblr so...yeah. (:

It's a hectic semester 2.2 for me, and this is what happened all summed up:

Stressed up over new modules.
First time encountering open-book test, pretty sad hahaha.
Had a pretty well christmas :)
Project was !@#$ hard luh.
Had fun during New Year. BABEH YOU'RE A FIREEEEWORK!
MT got a new bf!! Who treats her soooo much better than the...fox eyed fella.
Had a darn well Valentines' Day as a single (: I still have chocs at home :D
Spend CNY at home due to sinus infection.
Lou heiiiiii
Haven't watch It's A Great Great World. ):
Argued with friends >_>" Even though it's 'okay', still aren't talking and treating me as Mr.Invisible. Nice. Why should I even bother now when they do that?
Router is officially dead.
I need new specs.
My PSP is also dead.
Laptop 50% dead T__T
I wanna strike lottery.
I NEED MONEH.
I'm getting old. ):
Working in 3 weeks time.

That sums up what happened since October. (: I'll do a spectacular 1000th post muahaha.

PMO!!!

2011-01-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

Do you think I don't wanna spend on iphone apps instead of getting them for free?
Do you think I don't wanna spend on stuffs I can?
Did you even use your brain to think that I can spend those money somewhere else much more meaningful?
I have the budget to go for OSIP doesn't mean I HAVE TO SPEND THAT MONEY ON SOMETHING I CAN GET FOR FREE.

Don't you save for rainy days? Did you ever have the thought that someday, you might need a huge amount of cash and because you spent it all on things that you can get for free, you'll be there stranded and need cash.

And I'll be the one standing there and say, "You see?"

(:

Phew I feel so much better now!!

Fireworks

2011-01-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

http://www.mediafire.com/?u3krp0l163kfi4z - Part 1

Will update the remaining parts soon (:

Hahahaha.

2011-01-03T01:42:00.002+08:00

Omg I was laughing so madly after seeing facebook notifications!

I just realised that after seeing those notifications, I don't feel angry, sad, or anything, in fact, nothing at all!

Omg right?? I'm finally free from the torture!!

So, this is the best news I get before school starts. ;)

Thank you karilynn! :D

Pekchek!

2010-12-13T01:29:00.002+08:00

What's with the you're supposed to teach me tone? Hello?

When you wanna ask for help or something, please at least be polite.

And, I also have my stuffs to do okay! It's not like I have the time of my life...I also need to study one lor.

=x

2010-12-10T21:00:00.001+08:00

I dunno how to explain this, but it just seems that I feel left out sometimes just because I wasn't part of it.

If this pattern continues I'll feel damn sad plz. ): Nights are unbearable, can't find ppl to watch movie with. Damn sad luh.

I'm talking about studies while others are talking abt NS,
When I'm in NS people are talking abt job/uni,
When I'm out of NS people are working,
It just seems like I'm always a step slower, does that mean that I'll always feel left out and confused? I dunno anymore...is there anyone who can talkk to me abt this? ):

!@#$

2010-12-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

Yeah. I was feeling !@#$ yesterday lor! Tsk!! Shall not comment further. ):): Next week term test!! STRESS AH!!! ):):

Saturday is officially my family day :D:D Went to Kino yesterday and was soo pekchek.

Last week I was told by this staff : "Your book won't be arriving till thursday."

So I thought, thursday, aiya 2 days later only.

What happened?

Sold out. Now I gotta go hunt!! ):): MY AC BROTHERHOOD LIMITED EDITION GUIDEBOOK!

Den went to Nexxx with parents. Note to self. Don't go to Nexxx on weekends. Will die. So crowded!! Had Din Tai Fung for dinner!! :D:D

Hahaha so full after that dinner :D:D I loveee the soup!

There's something that I'm happy about after looking at this...

Not with him in the same group! :D

Don't Care Already.

2010-11-28T23:50:00.001+08:00

I tried to be a pleaser, but as the quote goes: "You can never ever please everyone."

I've decided that I shouldn't care about people opinions anymore, and should just do what I feel right to do. Because, I live for myself, and no one else.

Therefore, I decided to stop thinking about it and just focus on this last thrust of this semester before attachment.

(: GO WONG ZHAO HWEE!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! :D

I dunno

2010-11-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

Just feeling so emo today. ):

Sigh, why do I feel so unwanted suddenly...

Princesses.

2010-11-08T01:15:00.002+08:00

Why was Snow White was given an apple?

To show us that not everyone is gonna be kind, and not everyone is really who they say they are, who they seem to be.

Why did Cinderella run away at midnight?

To remind us that everything does have its limitations, even dreams.

Why did Ariel exchange her fins for feet?

To show us that people are willing to give up anything to be with who they love just to be happy.

Why did Aurora sleep for 100 years?

To tell us that you might have to wait for quite some time for your true love to come along. Sometimes it takes a very long time, but it's worth it.

Why did Jasmine fall for Aladdin?

To let us know that what the heart wants, it wants no matter what.

Why was Belle in love with the Beast?

To remind us that we can't really help what's on the outside, but if the inside is beautiful, then nothing will stand in the way of your love.

After all, inside every woman is a fragile princess, waiting to be saved. (:

Appear Offline

2010-11-08T00:05:00.001+08:00

Now I realised the new msn got this new function "appear offline to this person".

So, are you using this option on me? =x

Dunno liao la.

2010-10-30T20:54:00.003+08:00

Seeing both of them like that is so painful, but what's there to say when there's really nothing left to say without piercing each other with words?

):

Would you rather prolong the pain, or would you rather want to end it immediately?

Studies are more important right now! ):

It's THE END!!! ):

2010-10-24T02:09:00.002+08:00

Cookie rain! :D Omg this picture so cutteeeeeeee :D

The end of my holidays is finally here T_T so fast right!! ): My next holiday is like...December...

I need something sweet to make myself happy =x

Everything

2010-10-22T02:03:00.005+08:00

Question of the day: "When a girl discusses her problems with you, does she want you to listen only, or help her solve it?"

The new term's gonna start, and I'm sick during what should've been a happy birthday (minus the sickness), so I guess I should try to rearrange my emotions and all to welcome a fresh start and another new chapter in my school life.

Currently I can't think straight, because of the recurring headache and the haze that has been making me coughing ever so often.

I missed the BBQ because of the fever. OKAY LETS TALK ABOUT THAT DAMN FEVER.

It was on a beautiful sunday night, when my throat start to itch. It is never a good news when the throat start to itch. Next day, woke up feeling like having a pile driver drilling on my head. Plus I feel so weak and lethargic. ):

Went to the doctor, bam. 37.9 ): Took panadol and went to bed. Woke up at night...

39.7. Fever wouldn't go down for two days. Parents practically freaked out but I don't wanna go to the hospital cause it's freaking 400 bucks! ):

So yeah, went to a 24 hr clinic.

Next day it was better. 38.5. Still having that stupid headache though. Then the temperature is having the mood to take an elevator ride.

38.5 -> 37.2 -> 36.2 -> 37.8 -> 38.

-.-" Seriously?

Now I'm still having slight fever and sore throat T_T why oh whyyyyyyy!

20.10.2010

2010-10-20T00:35:00.001+08:00

Yay I'm 20, and this year is 2010, and my birthday is 1020!

Haha so many 20 and 10 :D

16102010

2010-10-18T02:07:00.006+08:00

Went to play lan with phad and sj in the morning, didn't play much, but I like l4d2 new dlc, The Sacrifice! Very, very, thrilling!! After that, went to met junhui to get my crumpler. (OMG. I love it soooo much thankyou junhui and xin and the others who chipped in!! I'm sooooo happy and ecstatic right now!!)

:D The bold means how happy I am right now with a new bag!! :D:D

Then met fang, sj and phad at bugis, where phad left due to his temperature rising. Take care! Walked to the place where I had steamboat with junhui, xin and phad last time, but this time it's next door haha! There's one food I love! The man tou!! :D Super duper nice! I think I ate 30+ of it hahahaha. Super not worth it just eating man tou but who cares! Chatted and laughed...then went to have dessert! I love the mango sago!! It was uber delicious! :D

We walked back to the mrt station after that, and me and xin tagged along with junhui to meet jikai and hongxiang they all...chatted and went home. Reached home at about midnight. Super tired but happy! I shall let the pictures do the talking. (Actually they're also on facebook.)

Pictures:

Me Likey this Baggy. :D I shall name it CrumpCrump. LOL!

iCon.

2010-10-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

After that day, everything just came back, and it just came again.

Why, oh why, can't I just forget?

Meh.

I'm having fun playing jap mahjong. Woohoo.

Do we learn?

2010-10-14T01:35:00.006+08:00

Law Junhui, we need to go out often! Haha. So that we can gossip!!

Anyone wanna go eat frolick on tuesday? 1-for-1 wor! :D

Experience is a brutal teacher. But you learn; my God, do you learn.

Current Pangya Record.

2010-10-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

Game related post, so don't bother looking because I don't think you'll be interested anyways! :P Just wanted to post it for self motivation... :D

I wanna reach a TCR of -500 soon! Just -9 more...I think I'll find certain courses to try to break...after all I reached the goal of breaking Pink Wind alr! :D

Could've obtained -37 for pink wind...but missed two shots beside the hole ):

Why oh why! D:

Haha...this is my speculation for which courses to aim to get my -9 from...

Blue moon: I think I can get -33 in this course, so -2 from here.
Blue water: -32, -3 from here.
Eastern Valley: -34, -2 form here.
Wizwiz/Ice Cannon: -1 from both of this course!

Hee :D

Eh...really ah...?

2010-10-09T19:00:00.002+08:00

Haha. My affair partner, Miss Han asked me to work up a list of things I want.

But I no mood leh...hahaha after all that has happened within this year. But I better make one la later she smack me if I don't!

There's only three things I need this year:

1.Leather Wallet (Black, Got coin pouch, button one not zip.) Specified okay!
2.Crumpler sling bag~ :D (Black or red, dont want any weird weird color.)
3.A happy day. :D

Yeap that's all :D

I'm kinda happy now because the iphone case is finally here ^^ No need to zip zip zip again!

I can't believe I went to century square just to help my sis print stuffs.
And now I'm heading out there again to watch movie.

Delete.

2010-10-08T19:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, wouldn't you want a delete button in everything you've done?

Like, deleting unhappy memories, deleting certain unhappy events that just happened, etc.

But alas, life doesn't work out that way doesn't it. Haha. It's comforting to live in a fantasy, but it isn't the right way to live.

My router is really having problems right now and I don't know which brand to get!! So pretty much I have to put up with a faulty router atm that sometime works while sometimes it doesn't work at all...dammit!

"Closure doesn't exists. Okay, one day, Don and I are moving in together, and the next thing I know, he's on a plane to Chicago. It just...ended. And no matter how hard I try to forget that it happened, it will have never not happened. Don and I will always be a loose end. We'll always be...unfinished. - Robin"

Got It!

2010-10-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

In times of trouble, in times of dark, who'd be the one you turn to?
Who'd be the one who provide you the shelter you need?

I finally got this game!! :D

A big hole in my wallet though, but definitely worth it!! :D

Yesterday went to have dinner with mt and junhui, it looked like an affair haha! So, my affair with mt ended when I sent her home haha! I'm a little sad though, I gained a few grams of weight. ):

Then, today went to have lunch with junhui, forgot to sms xin about lan was canceled because I was so tired yesterday. =x Had Ajisen for lunch, and went home after that to stone. Pangya was pretty fun, but I couldn't get the widow dresses T_T

Okay I gotta go off now because I wanna watch my drama! I am finishing Season 4 soon! :D Moving to Season 5! :D

This is so funny :D

End of Year Desires!

2010-10-06T16:44:00.002+08:00

Okay, so it's nearing the end of 2010, aww...the special year in my life. Because of my birthday and the year haha. 20/10/2010!! So nice right!

Haha okay I'm drifting off...but yeah there's only 3 more things I really, really want to buy this year:

Assassins Creed : Brotherhood collectors edition. (THE JACK IN THE BOX!)

DJ Max Portable 3 Limited Edition. (Fack it the artbook is worth the money.)

Castlevania Lord of Shadow Limited Edition (Soundtrack + Artbook = Orgasm)

And yea...I think these three items will costs me 450 bucks. ): How sia!

2010-10-05T00:53:00.003+08:00

We love to dream, we love to dance, what we love the most is...
that moment of peace that's hard to get in life.

Went to ECP on Saturday to celebrate Ben's POP! Haha. Ate quite alot, and had fun singing in the dark. Haha! It's these moments that I enjoy in life yeah! :D

The darkness that surrounds us with just a horizon of bright lights for us to see :D

I think my router's finally fixed!! Well, I have to thank the kind lady from linksys for helping me via online chat. Haha. I had to use my old laptop, and since the fan's not working, I can smell the burnt parts and was practically hoping that the lady would be faster if not my laptop will explode!

But yeah I think it's finally fixed, if not, I'll know tomorrow. :D

I want the new Castlevania game and DR2 collector's edition guidebook! Omg. October broke again. ):

If I am what I have and if I lose what I have, who then am I?

Rahhhh.

2010-09-29T22:53:00.002+08:00

Okay recently my internet is going bonkers again, so here I am fretting over what the facking hell is the problem, with no solutions. Now downloading speed is at an all time low, can you believe it? ):

I believe that everything happens for a reason, but seriously, what is the reason for this type of sucky thing to happen?

Sigh, I guess I should try to find a solution soon, before school starts again.

"I guess I’m just looking for it again - for the belief I had back in college, the belief I had when I first met Sarah and it all seemed so right. The belief in happy endings. - Gideon"

Gyoza, Steamboat, Games!

2010-09-26T01:25:00.003+08:00

Are skies really blue, or is it just what the eye wants us to see?

Went for the gyoza making session. Okay. I asked a very stupid question.

"How do you dice spring onions?" -.-" I seriously cannot believe I asked that question hahaha.
Then I feel so...eww when mixing the ingredients together...Massaging the ingredients... It feels like squishing some cold, gooey thingy!!

Made some new friends during the session! So I enjoyed that 2 hour period.

Final product. I know it doesn't look appetizing but it taste pretty okay. (:

This is actually boiled, and not pan-fried. Because there's no oil. ): Unless sesame oil counts? Haha. Okay, I added too little shoyu and it doesn't taste salty at all. But very chewy, and with the crunchy cabbage...omg damn nice! The dipping sauce rocks! Made the gyoza v.v. tasty!!

After the session, went to Century Square with Kirara and Zeke to play jubeat. Okay, I finally went and made an E-Amusement card and I think I'll play jubeat more. Damn fun. I love the song Natsu Matsuri!!

Went home after that, and took a little nap while watching Criminal Minds. Female Jack the Ripper. Wow. Then, head out to have a celebratory dinner for my results :D, steamboat and satay again!

Finally got the Gold Edition and Dead Rising 2!!

Big hole in the wallet! Haha. After getting these two games today. I want playstation move!! It's like wii and I can exercise with it but it's $99 without any games leh ): I finally decided to get RE5 gold edition, and I can finally play that game after so long...(As xboxie is in the storage room)

Restock :D

Went to Kinokuniya also! Sad. Couldn't find the horror novel Shiki...Finally all the busy stuffs is over, and it's time to really seriously enjoy myself! With that, I'll stop here and go watch my Criminal Minds!! I'm finishing season 2 already! :D

Happy guy

2010-09-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

Yay!! Today got my results in sms! And I'm very, very, very, happy and satisfied with my result. :D Now GPA is 3.66 already ^^

It's a damnnnn fun day today! Went out to meet junhui and xin during noon, went to ehub to reserve a room in kbox, and went for lunch at subway! K-session is one helluva fun! XD

After that, went to meet Xin's lil bro together to have dinner. His bro is really, really, cute and fun! Had swensens for dinner!!

Chatted while waiting for the bus and went home...feeling tired haha. That's why this is just a short post! Tomorrow still have to wake up for the gyoza making session...

Let's see how is my cooking skills...xD

because of all these things,
because of all these events,
because of all these changes...
everything's different. (:

Gyoza Making Session :D

2010-09-24T01:22:00.003+08:00

On my way home from TP after paying for the gyoza making session.

I can't believe I signed up for the Gyoza making session on saturday. Guess I'll be cooking after so many years. (: Just hope that I won't screw up badly =x

Haha. (:

I've got little characters running all over my desktop :D

It's a pretty cool program called shimeji! You can have little, chibi like characters running all over your screen, climbing your screen and in addition, kicking your windows if it's small enough! LOL! Dammmmn cute :D

Tomorrow I'm finally going out to have fun!! Kbox :D Whooooo~~~ it's been so long since I went to kbox...

Today is a pretty happy day! I get to watch all the new dramas thanks to Sharlene (:

Okay that's all for today, gonna wake up early tomorrow! And I need time to watch some drama on my phone before sleeping. So shuang can! ^^

iPhone 4

2010-09-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

iphone4, ai fone 4, haiiiiii fone 4. Cannot jailbreak yet. ):

I got the phone I wanted!! (Stacked above mangas, novels and guide books.) :D Teehee. Now I'm a very very happy man. I loved how glossy and smooth it looks! But I still have to wait for the free casing to be shipped to me from US. 3 weeks! And I need to protect it well for 3 weeks. It's tough, as I can imagine how bad I am when it comes to handling a phone.

Scratches within weeks. Haha. I'm still waiting for my results to be out, according to sources results should be out today, but apparently not. And I was so scared of receiving sms-es throughout the day. ): Panic attack whenever the sms tone rings.

If it's not today, it'll be tomorrow I guess. So I have to stay tensed up for another day. Because I don't wanna relieve the experience of waking up, check your phone and see the results that resulted spending a crappy day.

Pretty much what keeps me from continuing to exercise is well, taking a picture after/in the middle of a run. This is my day #1 photo. (: I'm seriously hoping that this would last!! I wanna go below the three digit weight you know!! :D

Hotpot with mt on wednesday and kbox on friday! (I think?)

My life of graphic manipulation. :P

2010-09-20T23:23:00.005+08:00

Well, I decided to clear off some stuffs, and actually managed to find my old works using photoshop. So, I have an idea of trying to compare of past vs present!

Well all of the stuffs are actually...well anime. Because I can't do shit on rl photos. Tell me how! ):

First of the so many I've done... and I realised that it looks pretty bad. ):

Went to this. I think this is a character from rose online I suppose. Was kinda playing the private server of this game. (: Pretty fun :D

And I moved on with fiddling with effects. like motion blur, greyscale, etc.

To brushes, textures, renders and effects in a whole bundle. I kinda like the renders in one corner idea at that time. Until now, I still don't know why.

And to stock image manipulation. I think being someone that's lazy, this is where I settled in. I don't have to do much, yet I can get the effects out. (:

And I did stand still and stuck at that place, holding onto the easy method out. ):

Time.

2010-09-17T02:58:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired but I can't get to sleep at I need to wake up at 6.30am. Die liao lor. ):

Why oh whyyyyyyy ):

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.

Mahhhhhhhhhh.

2010-09-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

Okay practically these few days are boring because there's nothing to do.

Just slacking at home while waiting results to be released on monday.

Can't wait for next friday though!! K-box :D

Oh yeah. Got Way of The Samurai 3 today and Durian Snowskin Mooncake frm Goodwood Park :D

I think I have too many backlogged games to play already:

Ninja Gaiden Sigma 2
Fallout 3 GOTY Edition
Way of The Samurai 3
Dead Rising 2
Kingdom Hearts BBS
Valkyria Chronicles 2
Professor Layton and The Unwound Future.

Let's see how many I can complete in 37 days. :D

Defying Gravity

2010-09-11T20:23:00.002+08:00

Currently at topic 5 only leh. ): Out of 10 topics. Test on Monday somemore!

Because we always want to try the impossible, we end up finding it too hard to complete the job.

):

Because we tend to complicate things, we always forgot that maybe a simpler method is always around.

Why do we always turn a blind eye to things that are helpful to us?

Exams

2010-09-06T01:47:00.004+08:00

Okay so I'm actually supposed to be studying now but I realised that I seriously need a break!! So here I am blogging instead of studying for exams hehehehehe.

Exams, a phase everyone has to go through in their studies.

So, basically I didn't really revise until the last two weeks, and now I'm doing what I usually do during exams, LMC. (Last Minute Cramming).

Apparently it doesn't really work that well because you'd be so tired the next day.

Hey, but what can I say? I deserved it because this is what I did.

What I'm basically doing right now. Fighting spirit is what I need.

Haha. So now I'm basically slaving off reading IBM. I've finished topics 2 and 4, left with 1 and 3 and all the tutorials to memorize, and I'm seriously happy that the paper is during the afternoon and not morning.

FIGHT! (:

Lunch and Shopping!

2010-09-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

So today after revision I meet up with Junhui for lunch at Swensens (Because there's the 1-for-1 lunch treats on!), and well...we ordered way too much and in the end I was so bloated that I had my dinner at 10pm... >_>"

Scary amount of food for 2 people.

This is what we ordered: Swensen's combo platter, Mega burger (Damn I love the bacon, ham, cheese and patty!), Ocean crunch salad (I think?) and Teriyaki Chicken Pasta.

So I was pretty much full after finishing the salad and the patty for the burger...

After that, we shopped around and I want this hoodie from fox!! $39. I find that I looked cool after wearing it. Haha! Then I went home to help my mom do some stuffs and I took a nap.

Went to Kinokuniya after that, dad drove me home so the return trip wasn't that bad. Let me tell you something happened when I'm on the train...uber disgusting!!!

I was reading my IBM notes on the train (Long train rides are always meaningful with something to read.), then this guy sat beside me was looking at his phone intently...so being the curious me I saw what he was reading...skimmed through and I was like OMG.

I saw these few sentences: "she removed my hands from her breast and unbuttoned her shirt...", "I placed my hands on her legs and went into her skirt..." He was apparently reading porn erotica on his phone! (I was thinking, dammit you can read it in the confines of your humble abode, but why here?!)...

And what happened was...ugh. When I was alighting, I looked at that guy and he was sporting an erection!! Dammit that zip area was protruding out! EWWWWW!!

Okay I went shopping after that to forget what happened lol. Bought 6 mangas and 1 guidebook (YES! Fallout 3 GOTY Guidebook!!) :D:D:D

And I also pre-ordered Dead Rising 2 Zombrex Edition. :D So this means September is another month that I have to save money. (:

Summer wars, Skip beat, Amphorism, Aozora Yell, Fallout 3 GOTY edtion guidebook. :D *blissfulness*

Growing Up

2010-08-30T11:40:00.002+08:00

It's a process that we have to live with. It's the sign of maturity, maybe?

I guess that's why growing up feels so tough.

I think it's called growing pains. (:

We're extremely shy, and get hurt easily.
That's why, we've built a castle, to look upon others...
from high above...

Selfless, or selfish?

2010-08-28T02:01:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you'd wonder, in certain situations, is it better to be selfish, or is it better to be selfless? Would you rather hurt others in order to get what you want, or should you let others be happy and in the process, you feel hurt?

Seriously, which one is better? There's definitely no answer to that, because sometimes it's better to be selfish, yet sometimes it's better to be selfless.

You always have to make painful decisions that will ultimately decide between hurting someone you love, or hurting yourself.

Sigh. Why does life forces us to make such choices?

Anal.

2010-08-27T20:31:00.001+08:00

I'm anal about stuffs that most people don't concern. ):

I've just realized that whenever I feel sad, I'd like to have some macadamia ice cream.

The search for something

2010-08-22T21:10:00.001+08:00

It was then I realized that no matter how upset, how sad, or how mad I was...it just wasn't worth to feel sad or mad about such things.

Because is it worth it when others are enjoying their time while you are that sad/angry/whatever negative emotions?

So...yeah. Happy. (:

V.V.Happy cuz I got my 1.5TB external harddisk. OH YEAH. (:

In our lives, we're always searching for something...
be it love, happiness, money, friends,knowledge...
we get some, we lose some...
but...in the end, you'll certainly find the one thing
that you've always wanted in your life. (:

What I've Done Recently

2010-08-20T01:45:00.004+08:00

What I've done recently is just playing, playing and a teenie weenie bit of studying UO1. (:

Went out to try playing LAN (Yes I know it sounds lame but it's my first time playing LAN after a few years...) and tried out L4D2, Killing Floor and Starcraft 2. (btw, marines are awesome.) After that, went to celebrate xin's birthday at hotpot culture. (: Had a great night out, chatted till the shop closes and went home.

Today went out to study, and finished 3 tutorials out of 12 tutorials. ): I will complete all the tutorials next week and den do some past year paper and start my IBM revision already...

Sigh why does the days pass by so fast?!

Okay gonna stop writing and finish HIMYM Season 5 (OMFG I can't believe Robin is with Barney!)

OMFG this picture is so funneh and cool!

I played too much Sengoku Basara...and I like Sasuke :D

This time it's really reallllllly real! :D

2010-08-12T18:43:00.002+08:00

Haha. At first I was pretty pissed off, but after a whole lot of smashing with my full strength (god I realized that tomorrow my arm will be v.v. sore though.), and some ipod games, and the chat during the walk + bus ride back...

Pretty much all the negative and bad feelings since April is gone in an instant. (: I guess I can really say that the old me is back, and yes...everything is back to normal. But pretty much I was gloomy until that instant.

So this is a formal apology to those who've put up my idiocy temper for months, and yes...it's finally over. all it takes is 4 months of rehab period hahahaha.

Another good news!! I got full marks for my lect quiz 2 for EM2!! :D:D:D

I'm gone from the shadows of the past~~ Whoopedo.

Okay I'm gonna go enjoy my sengoku basara 3 and how I met your motha!!

Near Death Experience

2010-08-09T22:24:00.005+08:00

So yeah, had a near death experience yesterday night, which made me realize that life can pretty much end anytime and anywhere. ):

Let's get on with how it happened.

The picture first:

After the whole incident. The fan blade broke and the cover couldn't keep it in. I was practically screaming for help when it happened. Took me a few seconds to reach the switch to turn it off. So after cleaning up the mess and realize that it's a blessing to be safe and sound after such event. Thank you god(:

Got myself a new fan the next day but I still feel a little scared when turning it on. ):

It's National Day, which is also my mum's birthday (Happy Birthday Mum!!), so we headed out to eat and shopped. It's really good to enjoy such moments, which is a little bit of happiness for me! :D

Also finally got this book! Will read it after finish Nights in Rodanthe by Nicholas Sparks. I think Eat Pray Love is a nice book. (:

Went for a brisk walk(Finally!) and my legs are sore after 45minutes. Now I'm blogging and planning to study ET...for the test tomorrow. =x

Wish me luck! :D

Set me free, leave me be...
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

...

2010-08-07T22:58:00.001+08:00

Screw ET.

My mood went from...

^^ to :o to :s to >< to ._." to T_T to x_X".

King of Anything (:

2010-08-07T21:25:00.001+08:00

ET test in 3 days! And mum's birthday in 2! Haha. Still haven't bought a present...all I've been doing is mugging for ET ):

Just finished making notes for chapter 3, 50% for chapter 4, 30% for chapter 5.

Gonna try to complete all by today, and start reading up tomorrow and monday. Gotta prep for this test! Just gonna rush through these few days and I can relax! :D

You sound so innocent,
all full of good intent.
But is it true? :D

Fatigue

2010-08-05T00:55:00.003+08:00

A few hours later there's a lecture quiz on the most dreaded module ever and I have 2 and a half more topics to go while it's already 1am. >_>"

I wanna sleep but I need to study!! ):

On a happier note, starbucks was flooded when I'm in there studying. gg luh.

Getting used to.

2010-08-03T01:11:00.003+08:00

Getting used to something feels very good and comforting, yet there is also this eerie scariness in it.

Let's call that something 'it'. (:

I'm used to having 'it' around me everyday. One day, 'it' vanished. No matter where I go, no matter how high or low I searched, I still couldn't find 'it'. I just couldn't get used to not having 'it' around.

Get what I mean? Getting used to something is always scary.

I'm getting used to being happy. And I want it to last, and I'm scared of it disappearing someday.

Why does one only realize how important something is, when they are at the brink of vanishing?

Quickie. (Not the dirty kind.)

2010-08-02T03:29:00.004+08:00

Okay here's a quick update on what's happening on my life, everything and whatnot :D

This is during the last IBM lab, which most people is just lazing around chatting while waiting for their turn. Look how attentive Grace and Pavi are and didn't even realize I'm taking pictures! ;)

Next up it's class gathering with the 4E2's (Only 7! So sad right ):) But had losta fun watching The Sorcerer's Apprentice, chatting and reminiscing about the past and getting updates about what everyone is doing nowadays. This scene is where Pangcheng is wearing...eyeliner.

That sounds weird, isn't it?

And back to school where this scene is funny! Sukchun and Grace is making up a new hairstyle...:D

Annnnd I decided to get a haircut because I'm turning into a mushroom head. I just don't know how my hair manages to turn into a mushroom head whenever I leave it alone for a few months without cutting. >_>" I srsly want to dye my hair to brown but....): Parents don't allow as they said dyeing is harmful to my hair. (BTW. Dead eyes because I'm tired on that day hahaha.)

Yes! I finally got this game! Okay it's so damn fun and I can play 5 hours straight without feeling bored and wants to play more! (but can't cause I have work to do. Boo.) I'll still get the english version when it comes out and don't ask me why :P Because I'm a sucker for animu style + dynasty warriors hack n slash.

So I spent my thursday watching Tekken with phad. (Awesome movie, btw.) Friday was streetdance (Also another awesome movie. But cliche storyline. Can guess where it headed midway through.) Saturdays was family day, sis went for her bestie birthday party chalet for the day so she wasn't there. ):

Best steamboat dinner ever!! It was at Golden Mile Tower, seems very ulu but apparently that store is so popular. The chicken is awesome!! :D Haha dad is bringing us there again soon! So I can't wait for it!! ;)

After that went to giant to get some stuffs. (Decided to change my cleanser and moisturizer to Neutrogena. :D It apparently works. Also got the Garnier caffeine eye massager. Because I tend to have tired eyes in the morning. Might help me pay attention to lectures yeah? ~~(Just trying to justify my lust for vain.)~~

So it's already monday and there's no school today (yay!), but it's a busy week.

Tuesday: French speaking test. (I am freaking out because of this.)
Thursday: IBM Lecture Quiz. (I need to cram 120-150 slides of stuffs by then.)

After that, it's ET term test on 10th August and OSH lecture quiz on 12th August and I'm free till 6th sept. Not literally free because I still have to study. >_>"

Okay that's all and it's already 4am and I gotta sleep soon so ciao!

P.S Junhui, congrats for finding happiness. (:

Walls

2010-07-28T23:58:00.003+08:00

Is it just me, or do I feel that there's always a wall between me and others? Don't ask me why, but I always find it hard to be the odd one out, and the on e who doesn't have the courage to ask to join them because they seem so good and amicable and it just feels weird that I wanted to join them, and even if I walked with them sometimes I just feel like I'm theodd one out. ):

Okay fine yes I'm lonely and I find it hard to make friends when they already have their own group to begin with. I don't know why, but I'm never good with words. I tend to rub people the wrong way, even though I don't mean it. (Seriously!)

Oh god what should I do? They're reallly really good people and I seriously wanna be good friends with them but I find it so hard to do so! ARGH ):

Listless, Senseless, Needless?

2010-07-28T01:17:00.003+08:00

I'm practically very tired. (physically + mentally) hahaha.

I'm so tired that I have to look at one bleeding equation twice just to realise that it's the same equation. Whatever enters my left ear exits from my right ear and vice versa. That's realllllly bad for lectures haha.

My memory's failing me when I'm tired too lol. I wasn't really thinking about anything this whole day! Okay this is bad.

I guess I should try and sleep early already.

Nevertheless, I'm happy that I settled two lecture quizzes and just one more week! Yes!! One more to the hols, and I can rest officially after 11th August for a week. (Before maniacal mugging again.)

): So yeah. I need my sleep, I need my laughter and joy, and I totally need games. ):

So when will it ends, it goes on and on...
over and over, and over again.

The big L haha!

2010-07-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

Didn't had much progress today. I think I should continue doing maths now. I now den realized there's another quiz this week! Sigh. Monday blues liao la hahahaha.

Den now my modem or router still decides to fack up. ): It's hard to connect you know. When I off my computer, I'm scared that when I on again, I can't connect to the internet. >_>"

Well, this is an excerpt from a manga. Omg I love such stuffs.

----
You know, I always did everything with Ayato.
Our clothes and belongings were always the exact same ones. Twins sure are a strange pair.
When Ayato gets hurt, I'd feel sad.
When Ayato was wounded, I also felt pain on the same spot.
I could feel him even when we were apart, until that day, when Ayato found out that he wouldn't live long.
He started living a life different from me. I tried to mimic him, but...it's not working.
I don't want to feel that again. I'm afraid of losing.
That's why, when I fell in love with you, I tried to do everything together with you.
By doing that, I can understand what's inside your heart.

The one you love, isn't me. It's Ashiya.
Because you're afraid of losing him, that's why you did not say anything.
Love, is a fragile relationship.
But, if you stay on as friends, you know you can be with him forever.
Because, if Ashiya manages to confess to you, you wouldn't be able to reject him, that's why you dated me.
Just so Ashiya couldn't confess to you, isn't that right?
----

At my limit.

2010-07-25T01:45:00.002+08:00

Have you ever experienced a day where it was so awesome yet there's always someone to rain on your parade? And that person, for the day, and for most of my days, are my sister. Wanna know why? Here goes this short, (yet is a draggy story.)

Today, I had this really awesome day going out with my classmates. (Yes 4E2 still rocks!) Had a pretty good dinner, saw Daryl (Ages since I ever saw him), and caught two of the movies that I really really wanted to watch (Sorcerer's Apprentice and Nodame Cantabile: Finale). So, after this whole happy happy day, I went home...and I shouldn't really do that. It was a pretty bad decision.

So, I reached home, and yes, as usual, my sister is still not home (14 only, and she goes out till wee hours during weekends) (Weekly basis okay. Once in awhile still okay.). And whenever my sister is not home, my mum and me usually suffer the wrath of my dad. (Hello? It's not our fault that she doesn't want to come home.) Apparently she still complains that we don't give her enough freedom.

Have you realized that letting you go out so late when you're 14 is already good enough freedom? Do you really want to be grounded to realize that you have no freedom at all?

In addition, whenever my mum calls her, she does not pick up the phone. She'll press the REJECT button. CAN YOU JUST FUCKINGLY PICK UP YOUR STUPID PHONE? If they don't care about you, would they even CALL you?

So this leads to her having to resort to sms-ing her. Yet, she doesn't know how, so what happens? I have to sms her every facking 10 minutes, and have to bear the constant same question by my mum. "She reply already anot? Why so long de? Can send another sms anot?"

HELLO. She even does this when I'm doing work. Not to be rude, but it will sound really rude. I have things to do. I have quizzes to take. I have my grades to get. Can you stop disturbing me when I'm writing tutorials, reading notes, just to get a daughter who don't even know that she have so much freedom home?

I'm fed up. Okay? VERY FED UP. Why. Why do I have to suffer because of someone enjoyment? Why am I burdened with this? Why? If it's because I have a handphone, I'll JOLLY give up mine to get rid of all this.

And yes, I'm waiting for the day that she'd realize how much freedom she already had, yet she still says it isn't enough.

P.S: CAN YOU FUCKINGLY ANSWER THE FUCKING CALL?

P.P.S: CAN YOU JUST COME HOME EARLY? WHY MUST WE SUFFER WHILE YOU ENJOY OUTSIDE?

P.P.P.S: Don't force me to the extent that I really SNAP. That day might come soon if you still act like that.

Tired,

2010-07-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Tired of everything.

That Time of Year.

2010-07-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Everyone have their ups and downs in life, and there are times where you find yourself in the middle of nowhere.

I think the weather is getting into me. I feel so tired, lethargic, and pretty much sick of everything in life. I don't know what happened that made me feel like this, but I just can't find any motivation since...yesterday.

Sometimes I'd wonder, why is it so hard to find something to motivate you to move on? Why the passion that was once here, can disappear in an instant?

It's a mystery that I think I'll never know.

P.S: I think UO was okay :D That's a plus. ;)

P.P.S: I want to get the novel Eat, Pray, Love!! :D

That Time of Year - Sick Puppies
----
Another year
has come and gone again
look around
and think where have you been
trace the lines
on your face tonight
and don't forget
that this will pass in time

It's cold out this morning
you should be getting into bed
can't believe its that time
of year again

Curled up tight
a darker shade of white
thinking back could be
here for a while

Its cold out this morning
and it's getting harder to pretend
can't believe it's that
time of year again

Can you believe the life you led?
did you achieve the goals you set?
did you lose your mind?
now and then

Is there a reason you won't mend?
it is a season that won't end
can't believe its that
time of year again

Another year
has come and gone again
look around
and wonder what happened

It's cold out this morning
you should be getting into bed
can't believe its that time
of year again

We're fresh out of warnings
maybe it's time you called a friend
forget that it's that time
of year again

Forget that it's that time
of year again
----

Poo, Sos. o.O"

2010-07-20T00:47:00.002+08:00

I realised that my blog abbreviation is just so weird.

previous blog: s-o-s.blogspot.com.

current blog: p-o-o.blogspot.com

SOS and POO. Haha.

Okay. This just shows that I'm bored, and I'm stressed up. (:

I have the feeling that I'll screw the paper that starts at 9am so badly.

Wintry Winter

2010-07-19T01:03:00.005+08:00

A weird winter wallpaper that I found in 4-chan. Decided to use it.

With the recent rains and all, Singapore has become a v.v. comfortable place. (So cooling...) Haha. So decided to go with a winter theme and this seems to be the only winter theme I have that looks nice. (:

I'm so stressed right now. ): It's already 1.10am and I still haven't finish doing tutorials for my revision on UO1. Tomorrow there's lab, and I seriously hope that I can place the re-test for lecture quiz 2 on friday. Because:

Monday - Monday blues. And very sudden anyways.
Tuesday - UO1 Lecture Quiz (Can I even make it for this haha? I totally missed the whole Chapter 5 Lectures.)
Wednesday - IBM Tutorial Quiz (Never even studied for it yet.)
Thursday - OSH Tutorial Quiz (I know nuts. Only hazchem and housekeeping)
Friday - Fweedom (I srsly hope ET retest is on this day.)
Saturday - Class gathering (4E2 rawks :D)
Sunday - Study.

I'm afraid of next week because of the French speaking test and EM2. I missed Chapter 4 and 5 for EM2 luh...if come out sure die one haha. No time to study. ):

I better buck up...or it won't be soon before long this happens. iQuit.

Whims.

2010-07-18T01:58:00.003+08:00

Argh I'm so stressed up! There's a lab report to complete, and 4 tests next week!

But it's good nonetheless, I just hope that I can clear everything and enjoy my study break haha. Well not study break, but it should be study month. So I guess I'll take a break for the first week, and chiong like a mad bull for the following three weeks.

I'm kinda sad though. There are so many movies to watch, and so little time! ):

This is just a quick update haha. But I had a realllll good day today! :D Got my mangas, but........the cd I wanted...I didn't get it. ):

Best Formation Arts Evah!

2010-07-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

*Drools*

This is one KH Formation Arts that I'll collect. Especially Namine (Top left). V.V. Cute esp with little Sora, Donald and Goofy running on the stairs. It's out in Sept so I might get this for my bdae (Aiming my mum hahaha.)

Okay back to topic. After 3 days of lying around and taking medicine, I'm better! This bad bout of luck better begone by the end of this week! Cause I'm ready to battle again :D

Although the flu medicine is pretty scary. One of it and I'll get conked out in a hour. If I didn't I'll be semi-awake with no remembrance of what I'm doing.

Vintage is nice. (:

2010-07-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

Random stuffs coming right up:
----
Have you ever experienced a situation where both sides refuse to budge, even for an inch?

Sometimes when such situation happens, there's nothing you can do. Nothing. Everyone wants what they desire so much, who would care about what you want?

Selfless people are hard to find. Seriously. No one can totally be as selfless as they can be. Haha. Thought about this after some things happened in the past that I remembered.
----
Ever thought that love hurts? Actually love doesn't hurt. It's reality that hurts. Which is why certain people decided to live in fantasies, rather than reality because fantasy is a sanctuary.
----
Trust. Something that needs to be present in any kind of relationship. It's like the basic building blocks in a social life. Without it, where would you go? What would you do?
----
Life. What is it that you really want from it? Fame, glamor, fortune, happiness? When you stop asking for more, desiring for more, you'd realise that how simple and beautiful life is just by having little bits and pieces of happiness everyday.
----

And that's all for the random bits and pieces of my thoughts. Haha! :D

Vintage songs are nice. Seriously. For example, Dream A Little Dream of Me.

It's a song where you can just lie down on bed, close your eyes, relax and sleep. I guess I'll try that today cause I'm suffering from insomniac. And I have lessons tomorrow and a lecture quiz on Tuesday and PBL due on Thursday with a ET report due two weeks later (According to Pavi).

._." Busy as hell and I hope that August comes soon. (1mth to study and rest. I guess I'll use 3 weeks to rest lor hahaha.)

I know I'm random but eff that la okay.

I love! (:

2010-07-08T20:06:00.003+08:00

Omg this song is soooo nice (:

----
I love you, from my heart...
I love you forever, we do...

Those wonderful days when you are always by my side,
from morning until night.
When I opened my eyes, you held out a cup of hot coffee,
and I held tightly onto your arm.

I counted down the days on my fingers until I was able to see you again.
The days we spend with each other have overtaken the days that we spend alone.
Who'd ever thought that we'd find this sort of happiness?
But you and me, we did. We fell in love.

I love you, everything about you.
This is the first time I've ever felt this way.
I love you, always and forever.
These feelings will never change.
----

(:

Bad Day.

2010-07-05T21:42:00.002+08:00

I finally got dragged down by all the stress and work lately, and finally, I raised the white flag and got sick. Some part of me thinks that getting sick is actually not a bad thing, as it provides me a way to fully rest before fighting the war called "studies" again.

Yet another part of me worries about all the things I'll miss during these few days. Ironic, isn't it? It's like being in the middle, being dragged by two different people hahaha. Bad metaphor but I thinks it's logical lolz.

Sigh, I guess I'm really tired that I'm having the same recurring dreams again. The kind of dreams that I never wanted to dream, the faces that I never wanted to see again. ):

It just made me realised that deep down, I've never forget about it. It's really hard to forget. (: It's like living a nightmare over and over, and I can never get out of it. That seriously sucks.

So, it's a bad day for me, and this song always manages to make me smirk a little and move on. Sometimes music is what you need for a seriously bad day.

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

'Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
(You had a bad day) ~ 2X

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Ohhh! Holiday!)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Ohhh! you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

'Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
(You had a bad day) ~ 2X

(Had a bad day) ~ 5X.....End (:

When you realise, that you want everything too much,
you must know that, sometimes wanting everything,
might make you lose everything you had.

Ichiban no Takaramono.

2010-06-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

If we see each other’s faces, we always fight.
That’s a good memory too.

You taught me that; I’m not afraid anymore.
No matter how fettered I am, I can grasp happiness. That’s why…

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go, even if it’s difficult.
I’ll definitely bring the dream I had with you.
I’m glad it was with you, and nobody else.
But when I woke up in the morning, you weren’t there.

We’d be able to play forever; that’s the feeling I got.
That was just a feeling I got, that was it, I know.
I don’t regret that I was born anymore.
Like the end of a festival, it’s lonely, but we’ve got to go pretty soon.

I’ll go anywhere with the things I learned here.
I’ll show you that I can make the dream called happiness come true.
Even if I’m separated from you, no matter how far away we go.
I’m going to live in a new morning.

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go, even if I want to die.
I can hear your voice, saying I mustn’t die.
Even if it’s difficult, even if I cry from loneliness...
I can feel warmth from deep inside my heart.

Going around and flowing, time is ever-changing.
I can’t remember what happened anymore, but...
If I try and close my eyes, I can hear someone’s laughing voice
For some reason, now, that is my most precious treasure.

This will be my new blog lyrics hahaha. :D

Blogging in School

2010-06-29T13:05:00.002+08:00

I find it a thrill to blog in school. Dunno why though. Haha. Okay, enough randomness.

I'm v.v. happy that this week will be a fun week I guess? XD Dinner tomorrow with sj and fang, then friday gonna go kbox with junhui, xin, ben(I guess?) and huixian hahaha. :D It's been AGES since I went to kbox. ): (The bathroom was my only place where I can sing without feeling awkward hahaha.) Like, who doesn't hum or sing in the bathroom? :3

Well, I guess after the holidays, I'm having difficulties focusing in my studies, for example, I should be studying for my french test later but here I am blogging, facebooking, twittering, haha tons of temptations preventing me from reading the powerpoing slides (6 different ppt, approximately 50 slides) just for 10, 10 mcq question. A little bit exaggerating right??

Okay, I think I should just stop here. The thrill of blogging have been lost once I realised I have so many slides to read. -.-"

When someone lacks the most basic thing everyone should have,

yet he has everything everyone desired,

will he be happy?

Will he eventually be happy?

We can practically apply this to life.

What we wanted, and what we didn't want...

might be what someone else wanted...yet what he has,

is just what you wanted so badly. ):

Speckle of light

2010-06-27T02:09:00.004+08:00

Oh ho ho ho ho ho ho (: I'm v.v. happy with my term tests result and my french results. Totally unexpected! xD So during this week, I'm a very very happy man. (:

In addition, I managed to catch Knight and Day. Well, I wouldn't say it's a really good movie, but it's funny, and well, it's nice to see the interaction between Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. Utterly hilarious.

Actually I wanted to go to Orchard today to get this cd:

Yes! The live band version!! That I couldn't go to Japan to watch ):

Haha. It should be approximately 40 bucks but I'm going to cross my fingers and pray for a cheaper price. The reason I didn't go was pretty stupid though. Because I went to join the New Hero Tournament in pangya (which of course, didn't get anything lolz.) which was held at 7am GMT +8. I slept at around 3am, woke up at 5.30am >_>" wasn't really in my form. After that, was totally tired. ):

So I decided to slack at home and laze around doing nothing. (: But I must go and get this CD next week!! ): The music so nice and is really good for doing homework!! Haha. Must find excuses to get it. Justify the reason of getting it. XD

Okay! Junhui is coming back today~ can go to kbox soon~~ :D

But wait. I have 3 quizzes this week. Aiya heck care. :P

-No matter how dark your state of life is,
no matter how long the rain in your life does not end,
as long as there is a speckle of light, a glimpse of hope,
everything will end someday,
and a clear sky will appear. (:-

Private Servers

2010-06-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

Well, people who play online games should know this term by now (if not, seriously, do some googling.)

As everyone should know, private servers are getting more and more commercialized recently will all the vote points, donation points, etc. etc.

I know that this would come sooner or later because people would not vote if they don't give some rewards (carrot and stick method). But...that is still okay. What I really don't like is...

Custom items. YES. CUSTOM ITEMS. Because it creates a trouble for you in a huge way.

This is the scenario:

1.I wanted to try this server, so I downloaded the client and installed it.
2.Then, I realised that this server isn't that fun at all, and I changed to another server.
3.But I realised I have to re-download the client because both servers have different custom items and I'll crash if I don't download the new client.
4.Fuck this I don't wanna play anymore.

See? It's so frustrating having to redownload the same game over and over and over again just because they have stupid custom items, and you don't know which file to delete to get rid of the custom items. >_>"

Yet on a lighter note, I got into the semi-finals and lost.

13th in qualifying rounds, 13th in final round. ): If only I didn't ob on h16 T_T

Why...?

2010-06-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

Your inner eye has clouded over so much, that it's impossible for you to see.
Does any emotion still reside within the depths of your heart?

Having the entire world at your fingertips,
Is that what you consider happiness?

Why? Why do look up into the lonely sky?
Why? Can't you laugh a little?
I understand this character of yours,
This disposition that is incapable of putting anything into words.

What was it that came to be in your sequestered past?
These eyes of yours, they refuse to meet the world.

All alone with only the lonely night to cradle you,
Is this the warmth that you have come to know?

Why? Why are you so concerned with the way you look?
Why? Can you not open up your heart a little?
You've been taxed by this heavy burden for so long,
It's time that you learn to accept yourself.
Have more faith in yourself...

It is those who are free that are stumbling...
It is those who are free that are insecure...

Why? Why do you look up at the lonely sky?
Why? Can you not laugh, even slightly?
I can appreciate this reticent character of yours.
You only have to try to believe...

Why... ?

Seriously...why? ):

-It's these times that I look so lost,
not knowing what I really want for my future.-

Lessons and confusions? :D

2010-06-17T17:20:00.002+08:00

This went on during lecture...three times in total lolz.

T:"Remember, there is NO, NO chain rule or quotient rule in integration."
T:"Now, use the chain rule to integrate this question. Sorry. Not chain rule."

Three times. Hahaha.

Had a pretty good lunch, and now I'm at home fretting over how to spend my last three days of holidays. (:

Lazing...around?

2010-06-17T01:35:00.001+08:00

Ahhh holidays are going to be over!!!

And there's still tons of things that's left to be done!!

I JUST WANT TO LAZE AROUND AND RELAX!!!

Argh. >_>"

Constructive Day much?

2010-06-11T23:41:00.004+08:00

Finally got it! Yes~ Yes~ YES!!

Today was considered as a pretty constructive day. I went out to get my laptop connected to TP wireless (Finally, and my battery managed to survive until the process is completed.) and went for ET project, which is due after term break, on Monday 10am (So...evil.)

Finished most of the project, but there's still part of it left, so we'll be meeting again sometime next week. And there's a meeting for UO1 project next Tuesday, EM2 remedial on next Thursday, a lab report to finish before break ends...

Please, can anyone tell me is this a break, or not a break?! Haha.

Spent the rest of my time pangya-ing and enjoying those voices. (Dammit!) Thy shall complete the heavily psychotic game, Heavy Rain before term break is over. I can't believe I managed to complete the chopping of fingers part. I still went to cauterize the wounds after that. Eww. I'm feeling so guilty now.

Okay. Gonna head out for sup sup soon :D

Before that...I'll finish a signature. I'm in love with Episode 10 of Angel Beats. Sad, yet with a touch of bliss and happiness. ): Poor Yui and Hinata.

Dreams, do come true. (: Edited ver by me,　Picture by pcmanaic88~

生まれてきた事も　後悔はしない
祭りの後みたい　寂しいけどそろそろ行こう
何処までも行くよ　ここで知った事
幸せよいう夢を　叶えてみせるよ
君と離れても　どんあに遠くなっても
新しい朝に　私は生きるよ
巡って流れて　時は移ろいで
もう何があったか　思い出せないないけど
目を閉じていれば　誰か側に居て
何故かそれが今　一番の宝物

Weird.

2010-06-11T01:18:00.003+08:00

Disclaimer: This topic is not applicable to everyone, but majority of the humans living in this big, big world.

I guess humans (me, you and everyone else is weird.) We whine, when we want something yet we couldn't get it. (Like me, I whine constantly about things I want yet I have not enough cash.)

We whine, when we have the thing we wanted yet we still want more. (I have A, but I still want B! whinewhinewhine.)

We even whine when we're in a very contended state of life.

Whining seems to be a part and parcel of our life.

But remember, don't let whining get the best of you, or you'll seriously spend the rest of the life whining. (:

And to those who are still whining in such late hours, just go get some sleep and continue whining tomorrow.

It's magical you know? Whenever you put a smiley at the end of something,
you'll feel happy after looking at it. (:

Holidays

2010-06-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

How did I go through the first 6 days of my hols:

1st day- Wake up. Eat. Head out. Watch movie. Sleep.
2nd day- Wake up. Eat. Stone. Play pokemon. Stone somemore. Sleep.
3rd day - Wake up. Eat. Deleted Kingdom Hearts BBS. Played MGS Peace Walker. Eat. Sleep.
4th day - Wake up. Eat. Continue MGS Peace Walker. DLed Hexyz Force. Eat. Sleep.
5th day - Wake up. Eat. Swim. Play Pokemon Heart Gold. Pangya awhile. Eat. Sleep
6th day - Wake up. Went to top up CC. Played gacha. 17 coins and nothing. Emo. Eat. Play Pangya again. Stoning infront of comp.

And I guess it'll continue until the end of the holidays. ): Such a lonely life. (:

Hahaha okay la I'll stop crapping but seriously that's how I went through 6 days of my life with nothing constructional in it.

Well, at least I finished watching about, 3 series of my backlogged anime, and Cougar Town, now am currently still watching Valentines Day, after that it'll be the American Movie Leap Year. (: The movie that I wanted to watch but it is still, yes, STILL not in Singapore.

"My momma always said life was like a box of chocolates…you never know what you're gonna get." - Forrest Gump

Toy Story 3

2010-06-08T21:30:00.004+08:00

This is me, trying out this hoping to get the tickets for the premiere for Toy Story 3! So bear with it!! Haha.

Well, I remember watching Toy Story in the movie when it's out, with a sleeping dad beside me (Yeah he kinda hates cartoon but he went through it with me, so I appreciate that effort!)

So my favourite Toy Story 3 Character (I sure hope it includes the old ones) is of course one of the protagonist, Woody! :D:D

Why? I guess the most important thing where I like is he always makes the right decision in the end, no matter how bad he screwed up in the past. I kind of hate him with his jealousy towards buzz in the first series, but looking at how he's changed a little and become more mature (for a toy, it's cool enuff.), it makes me like him, and he makes me feel that even toys can have human feelings like love, hate and jealousy. (Oh god.)

Heck, it even shows me that two people who totally hate each other at first can be good friends after some trials and tribulations together. ;)

Aww...look how chummy they are! :D

And the favourite scene in the trailer would be when Ken meets Barbie. Totally hilarious! With the bgm "Take my breath away"! Well, it's reasonable since Ken is in the Barbie series but the way he dresses?! Bad dress sense!

Picture taken from facebook! :D

This is the trailer for the movie, Toy Story 3:

Catch Toy Story 3 Movie starting from 17th June 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page! :D:D

Exams are over! (:

2010-06-05T23:59:00.006+08:00

A week ago, I was like this:

Just replace 'High School' with Poly, and 'World History' with my modules.

On the last paper, this is what I was feeling deep down inside:

It was a torture, waiting for the time to finish.

So I have ~~2 weeks of break~~ less than 1 week of break after projects and all...I'm seriously giving my best in taking a break before the whole thing starts over again until September. -.-

To sum up my confidence in all of the papers on a scale of 1-10:

UO1: 8
EM2: 7
OSH: 6
ET: 4
IBM: 6

(: ET was a total disaster in terms of everything. The teacher's alr marking it. -.-

Haha. I can't wait to get my results back and maybe I'll start to get emo emo emo. ):

And when my exams are over, my laptop are giving me problems. Whenever I tried to login to my msn, it will cause my laptop to hang, and I have to hard reset my laptop. ): Now I cannot login to my msn!! T_T

I finally managed to watch Sex and The City 2. It was a total hilarious movie, yet I didn't actually manage to keep up with the storyline because I was busy sleeping due to the fatigue. ): Now I might have to watch it again...so who wanna watch it?!?!

I wanna watch The Killers and Furry Vengeance too! Haha. Before the holidays end.

Today, went to Kinokuniya @ orchard, wanted to find Persona 3 Portable official fanbook but the search function there is not working, and I can;t find the book at the section even though I went through it 3 times checking the names too.

So end up buying Kimi ni Todoke book 10 (They finally got together.), Kyou Kara Maou (Finally being released.), Bokura wa Itsumo (The cover is nice, and I sense that it is kinda like Bokura ga Ita.) and Skip Beat 24 (Which I sold to junhui, a few months back.)

After that, went home, and went to Swensens at T2 to have dinner. Then, went to a temple to pray. Now, am at home, uninstalling Maplestory (I managed to get sick of it), and now am downloading RebirthRO. (: I guess that would bring me to the end of the 'dry season' of games for me.

Come to think of it...I'll be so broke after July...reason is:

I love this this this!! OMG the wooden case look so smexy can!
And with the goodies...$150 SGD ): *orgasm* It's actually a repackaged DJ Max Fever. But since I've never played before so...(:

Thy am a supporter of piracy, joking. I'll be getting this UMD.
$70 SGD ): approx.

I'm also a sucker for cute stuffs and hilarious storyline.
Also a sucker for NIS stuffs. ): (Disgaea 1-3, Phantom Brave, Makai Kingdom, Cross Edge)

I'll be so getting this if I'm not broke. ): But I will prolly get the English Guidebook (If there is one.)

This too!! Omg. The soundtrack is v.v. good. imho.

Anyone who knows where I can get this book, PLEASE TELL ME!! =x

Not forgetting I might be getting this game after looking at how fun it is. (:

So basically now I'm seriously upset because my computer is giving me headaches, and I have so many wants yet I'm dead broke. ): RAWR. Haha. Okay. It's already 2am so I guess I'll stop writing here. (:

Before that, I've got a song where I find the lyrics are quite meaningful. (:

----
Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness...
----

(: Angela Aki rawks! (:

'Later that day, I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that brings up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you, that you love, well, that's just fabulous.'- Carrie Bradshaw.

Ironic isn't it?

2010-05-29T23:05:00.001+08:00

Okay even though I said I will only post after exams are over, I just can't resist the temptation to post more sad stuffs okay?

If I posted these questions, will anyone be able to answer them?

-What I desperately need right now?
-What item do I really want right now?
-What favourite item do I need to get me through right now?

Hiatus

2010-05-29T14:05:00.001+08:00

Away till the ~~end of time.~~ end of exams.

Secrets.

2010-05-27T21:58:00.004+08:00

Well well well I do have a secret blog at blogger, and I've sent invitations out to only 4 person. (My dear, sis, if you want then tell me and I'll add you and only you okay. ;) )

I rarely update at that blog, only when I have things that I want to say yet I can't and I trust these 4 people to never speak anything I write inside to others. Seriously, I trust you guys that you could do this that's why I made this decision.

Okay I do have some doubts but hey, I'll throw caution to the wind and all those mushy stuffs.

(Well only 4 people since those I wanna let them see don't even give a damn about blogs, so yeah.)

It's up to you whether you wanna accept that invitation or not, here's just what I wanna say.

I treasure you guys so much okay?! So I'll place my final and last trust on all of ya! If I find out that this trust is gone, well, I'll never trust anyone ever! (Okay la not that exaggerated but yeah, I will find it hard to trust you anymore.)

I can't give some people the invitation I wanted to give because they are close to someone that I don't really feel good with or something like that. *hint hint* mooooo :D

Destined for...?

2010-05-27T21:37:00.002+08:00

Ohhhhkay. Got back some of my lecture quiz papers (aren't the lectures darn efficient?) It's something that I like and hate about them.

ET: 29.5/30 (0.5 marks gone because I put '=' instead of '>')
EM: 19/20? (Not really that sure cuz Mus had my paper.)
UO1: 16/20 (I hate gauge pressure and atmospheric pressure.)
OSH: ???
IBM: ???

I did the OSH lecture quiz with a heavy heart and a heavy head and the wonders of sleepiness. Oh with the teacher starting intently behind me to see whether did I cheat. Which I didn't, obviously! Cross my heart!

The lecture quiz is a-okay, but it's the tutorial quiz that killed me. Why oh why am I just so bad at electricity and machinery?! Oh I love toxicity though. The ~~thought of poisoning...~~ details interests me soooo much! :D

I'm glad that the dinner had been moved to supper because...I can get to rest. Rest is important these days (well naturally since term test is just, 4 days away. Oh scratch that. 3 days.)

Will definitely head out later...yeah. Later...if I manage to wake up before then.

Why oh why did I manage to get myself sick before the week of major exams? Beats me.

Sleep is on my top priority now, then studies, then well, generally life itself. Because no matter how hard I try, I always manage to screw up my life prettah badly.

"Isn't it a wonder avoidance due to awkwardness
manages to make someone to run in the opposite direction
just due to a moment of thought?" - Pathway to tomorrow

Cougar Town

2010-05-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

From episode 13, this conversation between Ellie and Andy kinda make sense.

----
The moment you walk into the house, I relax.
Even on those days that I actually do call a lawyer, I just remind myself how scary it would be to be out there drifting, alone.

It's weird with relationships.
Two people can start off in the same place, and then for whatever reason they split off in different directions.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you and I'm so happy that I'm not out there, having to start over and look for what we have.

Cause it's hard to find, and even harder to keep.
----

It's an awwww moment! :D

Okay. I went out to study despite the heavy head and slight fever because the thought of studying at home irks me. Reason would be:

-It's noisy at home (save the reason)
-There's just wayyyy to much distractions at home (bed, laptop, psp, nds, etc.)
-I just couldn't find the concentration I want at home.

So, yeah. I managed to finish one tutorial revision, now two more to go and I'm done for the day. (:

What are you doing, starting at the orange juice box so intently.
because, on the box, it says...CONCENTRATE.

pfft. The muttons are soooo funny!

Term Test. ):

2010-05-26T13:58:00.002+08:00

Monday: UO1
Tuesday: EM2
Wednesday: OSH
Thursday: ET
Friday: IBM

(: I'm so gonna die for UO, ET and IBM I guess?

I might barely survive for EM2 and OSH. ):

Sinus

2010-05-25T14:13:00.004+08:00

Down with acute sinus ):

Currently having headaches, green nasal discharge, and fatigueness.

What's wrong with me?

There's term test next week, and three tests this week (Already missed one).

):

P.S: I just realised that someone have been snooping and sneaking around my blog looking up about my daily life. (: Thank you for caring, but is it a little too late since you peeps declared all of you have no relation with us anymore?

So, this is my say: bugger off (:

But...come to think of it, if you care about us so much, why not donate some cash? We're so strapped of cash now? Thanks to your side de ppl (: My psp is broke and I have ABSOLUTELY no cash to buy it now.

Oh. Just to say, it can be a cat, human or alien. So, if you think that I'm saying you, please. Stop that thought. ;) You might have a serious case of Paranoid Schizophrenia. (: Don't know what it is? Google it ;)

And off I go to rest~~ I love you guys!

Bokura ga Ita Vol 13.

2010-05-22T21:25:00.006+08:00

Got it! Well, finally I remembered to get it lol. It's been out for a few months but I'm procrastinating and procrastinating till now I finally get it.

Okay, today went to school for the JCG sub comm interview, well, all have been said and done and I'll wait for the results with no regrets! (:

So, after that, went to have lunch with junhui and walked around and I bought Bokura ga Ita vol 13 and Shiawasse Kissa Sanchoume vol 15. Ending for it is kinda sucky in a sense, but the front part is v.v. climatic! Overall I still like it!! (:(:

Then went to the Esprit sale with junhui and xinquan with his parents. Thank youu xin's mum! For letting me getting a formal shirt + tee for just $57 bucks!

After that, went to bought cheese cake stick at Icing Room :D it's fantabulous! Haha. And I get a free muffin also! *auntie spirit* :P

Then went to have dinner at 18 chefs, and went home. Having slight sore throat now. ):

And I read Bokura ga Ita vol 13. Uber sad. ): Sigh. Seriously, can't the mangaka provide the protagonists happy endings alr! It's painfully saddening looking at how Nanami suffers in the shadows of Yano and her past. Takeuchi is also suffering too because of this past. *sigh*

Some excerpts from that manga:

----
'Time seem to pass so slowly, it'd be nice if I had loads of work to do. I sure hope that the sun will set soon, and I'll have no time to think, and memories wouldn't invade my thoughts...and I wouldn't be so confused anymore...'

'Just like that, you pretend that you feel nothing, covering it all up...acting normally, as if nothing happened at all, do you think at this pace you can carry on with Takeuchi?'

'One has to move on, without listening, without looking, without looking...I can only hope that I won't make anymore mistakes.'

'Letting all those confusing feelings accumulate, letting it taking over your feelings and letting it all out at once, it's not good at all.'

'Never let a moment of wavering in your heart, destroy every bits and pieces of relationships you have.'

'Regret, it's like a curse that will eat your heart while you live and you'll slowly but surely lose all the things you cherish in your heart.'

'Starting to hate someone that you've loved so much, doesn't it sound extremely sad?'

'Back then we gave it our all, we neither lied nor made mistakes, we didn't fail and didn't do anything wrong. It's just that...time has passed and changed it all.'

'Although at that time we did our best, time has changed it all. Promises to tears, vows to wounds, a dear person into a wonderful memory inside the eternity.'

'It's okay to remember him. Lock all those thoughts away in a box and place it in the corner of your heart, and, from time to time, you can open the box and take a look inside.'

'I don't think a relationship that's 'over' exists. Even if you move on and don't ever meet again, it's still a continuing relationship. You remember the person and look at everything a bit differently. But that's natural because we all change with time. The other persons changes as well. Your memories continually change, too.'

'Goodbyes are often so painfully quick, and time really tends to have no meaning at all.'

'What is happiness? I don't know....but i think it means you never cry or get angry....you don't throw things around or beat people up.'

'Yano, where are you now? Who did you meet today? What did you talk about? What did you eat? What kind of places did you go to? Yano, who is the person you love right now?'

'In my mind the memories of when I was 17 continue to play. Why is it that I don't know the 18 year old Yano, the 19 year old Yano, not even the 23 year old Yano? The Yano in my memory is still 17. All I know is the Yano that I spent 2 and half years of my high school life with. Yano is no longer the 17 year old Yano. And I hate to admit that the Yano I knew no longer exists....'

'Hate is not the opposite of love.'
----

This series is totally full of quotes, quotes and memorable quotes. Haha! Although it's reallllly boring at the start, the tear wrenching storyline starts from around volume 5/6. ): It's just way too sad! Currently it's out till chapter 58, and rumors have been saying it'll end at chapter 60! Currently, Nana have been pushed away by both Takeuchi and Yano ): I srsly wonder how will this ends!

I totally admire Obata sensei for creating such a story that we could relate! Dammit!!

In the story, someone explained that memories are just a figment of an imagination and creation. Two girls, A and B, remembered looking at the same picture. A remember that the girl is wearing a yellow dress, while B remembered the girl, wearing a red dress. Who's right? Neither it is, as the picture is black and white.

Why can't I get close to anyone and just find a tiny bit of happiness?
He looked up at the 200 metre tall buildings before him as the red lights blinked.
Such salvation does not come by easily. - 5cm per second novel excerpt.

Navy Open House ;)

2010-05-22T00:17:00.006+08:00

Well, apparently I didn't have to go to the Open House but since I boarded the bus and it left, well I just went with the flow and went. ;)

I only took a few shots, will be uploadin them to facebook prolly tomorrow! So here are three photos taken during the Open House. Pavi took 2 candid shots which I look utterly weird! ): Haha.

Taken with the Navy soldier with Pavi and Ayu :D

Okay I look damn weird in this picture lol!

This too. Candid shots by Pavi is very...powerful.

After that, the way back to the bus is so...humid and tiring. Pretty much slept awhile on the bus, then went home. Found out Red Dead Redemption is out! Spend whatever I have saved this month on it...haha. Still left a little portion for tomorrow's Esprit Sale!! :D I am soo gonna get those clothes! I think I have too much black in my clothes. ):

*drools* Imma a cowboy, I steal horses instead of cars...

Haha yeah. After playing it for awhile (controls still not getting the hang of it), went to meet phad, then went to have dinner with fang, sj and mal. After that, watched Shrek. It is one helluva funny movie. Puss is UTTERLY CUTEEEE in that movie!!

Two of the cutest cartoon characters:

Puss! I just can't resist those eyes.

Stitch! Cute, and he (assuming) gives me alot of aww moments in that movie!

Just found that wallpaper, am gonna use it :D

Alright, I'm having JCG interview tomorrow, wish me luck! ;) Gonna head to bed soon to prepare myself for the interview and sales! *I bet I will go into aunty mode during the sales*

Can't give a damnnn about it ;)

2010-05-20T19:00:00.004+08:00

What's always in my mind now?

-Study study study, tests tests tests.

What will be in my mind for the next two weeks?

-Study study study, tests tests tests.

What I want to do now?

-Slack slack slack, sleep sleep sleep.

(:

Haha. One moment I'm complaining about school life, the other I'm actually missing school life. Ironic isn't it?

I'm having fun with lessons everyday, it's definitely true that with a busy life, you tend to think more positive stuffs rather than negative stuffs. (: I guess I'm happy with my state of life, and I hope it does not end too soon! I still want my hairrr :D hahaha.

Congratulations to everyone who've graduated in TP (Junhui, Xin, Ben, Chan), and soon to be graduates (Fang and rilynn. Go out someday okayyy?) (: I want ice cream and beach. (:

Tomorrow's it a field trip to Navy Open House (Can you believe it? What does chem engs have to do with NAVY?!) And we're not allowed to wear...slippers and berms...it's a huge booboo. ):

Well, if you wanna ask me about my thoughts about recent graduation, this is my following thoughts. (:

----
Well, I'm a sucker for regrets okay. It's hard for me to say that I didn't regret making that choice~ (well if you dunno what happened, it's health + family matters but those who know, knows most details la.)

Haha. My eyes was pretty wet when I saw ppl graduating. (: Overall I'm really, genuinely happy for them, yet on the other hand I was admiring them. Like junhui said, it's my choice hahaha. Ouch.
----
Okay IBM test was okay, with some disaster in spelling though.

Ascomysetes became Aycomysetes
Deuteromysetes became Deutereomysetes
Besilusmysetes became Beliusmysetes

At least I got zycomysetes corretly (:

I guess in life, you seriously need five stuffs to be okay and smooth in life.

1.Hope.
2.Faith.
3.Luck.
4.Determination.
5.Hard work.

Sigh. I miss my friends, let's go out soon okay! ;)

ごめなさい。

I realise I'm not really a good person to be friends with ): I'll try to change. ):

When you turn back,
you'd realise,
you've walked a long way,
yet there's still a long way to the end.
;)

Sha-la-la-la-la.

2010-05-18T18:14:00.003+08:00

Okay, so today UO1 was kinda a disaster because I practically messed up the 8 marks question. ):

No time to finish leh!! Haha. Practically there's 3 questions, I guess I spend too much time on the second question. But I have no confidence also. Lol. Die liao. This lecture quiz die liao.

As for ET, well, I am confident. (: And I actually finished earlier >_> How I wished I can use that time for UO1. ):

Haha! And well, French mcq is pretty straightforward. 1minute finish 10 questions. LOL.

Next, IBM tutorial quiz. Well, I hope I listed the correct interaction. (:

Tomorrow is graduation for ASc, therefore classes after 2pm are cancelled. But I have french lecture at 6pm. So it's like, 4 hours of rotting at school. I think I'll be using that time for OSH and IBM test revision.

And, congratulations to those who are graduating in these few days. (: You guys rock! :D

Falling, falling to the ground.
When the ground disappears, where do I fall to?
I'll be drifting, in this great expanse of universe.
In search of...

Overwhelming Stress

2010-05-16T17:53:00.002+08:00

So, I was sick for 3 days straight on the most busy days of the week. (Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday).

That leads to me missing all the impt lectures, tutorials, and pbl. Also add on to it, 2 tutorial quizzes.

I asked Theresa about what will be happening next week.

Tuesday: UO1 and ET Quiz. (1 whole chapter.)
Wednesday: EM2 Quiz. (I can cope with maths.)
Thursday: IBM and OSH Quiz (I'll prolly die on both.)

and I have to hand in my ET lab (Done), UO1 tutorial 3 (Not done, due tomorrow), and ET tutorial (Due on wednesday).

Most importantly, I haven't studied for OSH and I don't know shit about the final parts of UO1. ET prolly will get the gist of it by later.

Oh. And let's not forget 2 pre-labs not done since I don't have the worksheet. Oh yeah. How nice. *sarcasm*

After reading that whole chunk of what I've typed out. I realised.

I'm freaking stressed.

And here I am, welcoming depressing thoughts.

Did I give myself too much stress, I wonder? But I don't know why I can't get rid of these stress that I'm giving myself. It's chained onto me. ):

I'm just afraid and insecure about my capabilities, I guess.

P.S: 5 years since I started blogging on blogger. 7 (Included blogdrive, xanga, livejournal). I guess I just can't stop blogging, can I? Lol.

Okay back to study. I seriously need ice cream and chocolates.

My song (:

2010-05-13T23:00:00.001+08:00

This song from the anime Angel Beats...is pretty nice! ;) That anime is kinda Seitokai Ichizon-ish, but it's much more sad...everyone in there have a pretty bad and harsh life. >.<

Sigh...I guess this kind of anime sure suits my taste pretty well.

Oh yeah! Gonna start to revise tomorrow...after all my headache is pretty much gone.

And...I need 3 more dark matters to complete FF13. Finally. It's been dragging on for way too long. (:

The translated lyrics:

The day ends while I’m searching for where to let out my irritation
The sky turns gray and I can’t see anything ahead
Those who feign common sense laugh; what lies will they tell next?
Can you leave the things gotten that way carefully embellished?
But I have to keep moving forward to tomorrow
So I’ll keep singing like this

It's you who are crying, it's you who are lonely
You’re right; You’re just being human
That’s what the tears I shed say
This is beautiful too; It’s not a lie; Thank you for our true selves

Having dreams you want to come true and dreams you can’t reach
That itself becomes the dream, becomes the hope for people to go on living
There’s a door; it's waiting there
So I’ll hold out my hand

For you who feel crushed, here's the strength and confidence for you to be able to fight again and my song
That’s what the tears I shed say
Thank you to the miracle that we were able to meet in a dirty and ugly world, even like this.

Stop?

2010-05-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

You want me to stop? After all of this, after all this freaking mess, you want me to stop?

No one stops. Not until everything is over. It's too late to stop. No one stops. NO ONE.

Once you drag me into this mess, you'll never ever get to stop until it's over.

Capiche?

Singaporeans are losing?

2010-05-10T12:44:00.001+08:00

Well I've read a yahoo artice just now relating to the living standards in Singapore.

It's definitely true that the cash needed just to live in Singapore is really high. Look at the price of MRT and buses. The hated ERP. The price of housing nowadays. A 3 room, mind you, three room flat is approx already 275k - 300k.

So, what will happen to us in the near future?

I can practically see myself slaving away just to earn aboiut 2k-3k per month, while like 10-15% of it will go to CPF, how much have I left, just to get me through the month? Will I even have the bleeding cash to go and buy stuffs that I like?

Oh god. Haha.

Lemme quote something I saw someone write.

'9 to 5 till you're 95!'

Haha. I guess it'll be true, looking at those rich people migrating into our country, buying all those high-end houses.

It's true that Singapore is blooming in economy, but did they, even take a look at those Singaporeans working that hard, just trying to AFFORD a house?

Good gracious. Maybe in the near future, all Singaporeans will be living under the bridges while the PRs live in the comfort of their homes, which were once ours. Humph.

Torn Apart Inside.

2010-05-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

Argh this week is so busy! I conked out last night at 9pm and had a really realistic scary nightmare that made me feel afraid of buses. Ask me when you meet me in person. Lolol. Yeah. Dunno la. I just felt that meeting the people you don't really wanna meet on the ~~bust~~ bus is scary in a sense.

Something good to share!! I did not know that there's so many people I know in my course! Yeah. So Asha is one of them, today I met Leelian! My pri school classmate!! Why does everyone look so different from before?! Haha. Shocku okay!

Yeah. Tomorrow there's draft presentation, and I hope there are no QUIZZES OKAY. I never revise UO1 and OSH at all. AT ALL. Period. ):

Today two tutorial quiz are an a-okay for me (: So I'm overall very satisfied that I tried my best for those two quizzes.

Today there's supposed to be a chalet but I forgot, and I couldn't go although I really, really, wanted to because I think it'll be real fun T_T now I'm slaving off tutorials ):

RAHHH. I'm SO GONNA shelf off one of my weekends for gaming. ): Barely touched my ps3 for a week alr! ): I even missed Pangya name change. ): I want my Ryuugamine T_T

Okayokay. Gonna go cont to do my tutorial.

Currently this is my plan:

Friday - Rest (prolly gaming 90%) + study IBM (god cell diagram for Prokaryote and Eukaryote.)
Saturday - Linda's bdae partayyy :D
Sunday - UO1, ET proj research and ET revision. OH SHIT I NEEDA PRINT LAB. MUST RMB TMR. ): ):

And there goes my weekend.

They said, when you think that the world is boring,
you're the one turning boring.
I guess I'm one of them.
(:

Ryuusei Miracle :D

2010-05-03T22:50:00.007+08:00

I guess a jap song a day manages to take me through the day better. I wonder why though. Maybe because I choose the songs really well? :P (bhb, I know. Haha.)

Yesterday was a sad song, today is a hyper song! Maybe because I feel so tired when I reached home. I didn't have the patience to wait for bus 5 (freaking 20 minutes when it's already 7.15pm), I planned to walk home, but halfway through, I couldn't go on anyyyy longer so I took a cab home. ._."

Yeah. Cabbing home during peak period. Not a smart move. ):

Reached home, bathed, finished my lab, was actually waiting for a call but gave up. Haha. Maybe he found someone else for his lab notes so yeah. Don't feel like waiting anymore and I plan to go to sleep soon! It's been a long, long time since I placed 'sleeping' in the top of my priority list. This just manages to show how tired I am now.

In my list of priorities, studies is currently at the top, but it has been replaced by sleeping today. Haha. Gaming is always second!! No game = no life. Will faint due to boredom hahahaha.

Here's abig big thankyouuu to Junhui for the slippers! Haha. Big enuff? :P

I'll update the day we go shopping like, on, friday? Oh yeah! You wanna go CCN day? My current class is selling Tissue Papers and Drinks! Haha!! (:

Tomorrow after french got project meeting, I guess it's gonna be the same. Shag. ): Wednesday and Thursday got quiz somemore. RAHHH stupid YOG. It's the main reason for such a rushed semester.

-Had a fun day talking with my class ppl. Especially Theresa, Khad, Vincent and Ferne. (: You guys made my day!-

Video I mentioned. Ryuusei Miracle. The MV is just way to hilarious. Esp. the ending. The female singer is kinda good looking, but a little emotionless in this video.

Winding Road

2010-05-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

Time for a quick update! It's just a music video update, really. Haha. I'll update in detail what happened today, sometime this week I guess? (If I am not that busy.) So, recently I've been searching for this particular anime that I likeeee. It's called Ayakashi Ayashi!! :D

So, the ending song, Winding Road, is pretty meaningful for that anime. It's also a sad, sad, song I guess? But the music is pretty catchy in a weird sense to be (I love weird things. (: )

Lyrics wise translated. I hope that the translator isn't that bad la okies?? I only found the full song version, and I find that the video lyrics and the full song lyrics is a little different, and the full version makes more sense so I'll be posting the full ver. (:

On this long, long journey, I fell in love with you
The rainy moon of the changing seasons softly wets my heart
If time could change something, please, please,
Quietly stop when I'm just walking with you

Do we really suit each other,
Walking under that single, sad umbrella
On the Winding Road continuing near the waterside?

Because I still love you, without honestly reacting to
This rain pouring on me, I laugh again, "this is all a lie"

Our deeply, deeply entwined fingers quietly separate
As my final show of strength for you
But truly, I don't want to go

From now until forever, I doubt I'll ever forget
This eternity which we definitely felt
Even if you or I fall in love

Though my feelings contain no lie, I just love you
We ran past each other someplace
And our buttons became so that they didn't undo

Winter's almost here
Before our fingers numb with frostbite
It would be nice if we separate at last
We're no match for this chilly wind
So if we have any warmth left, let this be where we stop

Sad, sad, really sad T_T

Haha okay la. Just a pang of sadness hahaha. Okies! Gonna stop bloggin~ cause I still have things to revise before I head to bed!

Ciaoosu~

Projects

2010-05-01T14:22:00.002+08:00

Yeah. I have a project discussion on monday, and it's about Bioethanol Production Technology. (:

So, I gotta do some parts of the project! Mainly, everyone is doing the Introduction and Literature Search, and we're gonna compile our research details on Monday. (Today is saturday, and I'm still having a little sore throat and fever.)

Kinda rushing the introduction and research, so that I can get as much rest as possible. But I'm trying to perfect the rush by skimming and taking important parts, but I guess it's not working as intended. ):

This is what I'm supposed to do:

-Briefly describe the Kyoto Protocol in terms of its objectives and key features, linking it to climate change.

-Briefly describe biofuel as a renewable source and how it can help reduce global warming and climate change, in particular, for bioethanol.

-Discuss the first generation bioethanol technology and its negative environmental impacts.

-Describe the various technologies for second generation bioethanol production.

-Your search should address the following points: biomass feedstock, products, pre-treatment/post treatment and resource utilization and environment impacts etc.

): ): ):

So many stuffs and I'm only doing the second part now. I sure hope that I can finish everything by 4pm ):

Break.

2010-04-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

Why not, just let everything break to pieces?

At least you feel all of the pain at once.

It's so much better than things breaking piece by piece, feeling the pain again and again.

Break. Just let it break. I shall not care any more.

=3=

2010-04-29T18:52:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXNYfDskmyY

It's possible to post this here but the fucking stuff couldn't appear in the forums. Shit.

Belts, Cameras, Subway, Sofa, Meatballs, Esprit!

2010-04-24T22:39:00.004+08:00

My new pet. Name is doggeh :D

Haha! Nah. It's a stuffed toy dog that looks uber cute in ikea. Carried it all the way until the bed section. Left it there, and found many more clones of it. XD

So today is quite an eventful day. First, went to Paya Lebar with junhui to get her belt, and I also got a spare one too. After that, went to Courts because there's a major sale or so I've heard on TV. I saw the dual LCD camera! OMG. Same as what nicole had. Beauty shot!!

After that, went to Ikea to sit on the 1k sofa that I've been aiming at!! Omg. Seriously nice to sit. Must remember to measure see can I manage to put a 2.4m sofa on the side. If can yes!! A new sofa! Finally I can sit on something that isn't that hard, like the table...

I sense a sore throat coming up. The phlegm is stuck in my throat D:

I have things that I need to complete by monday:

1.Tutorials
2.PBL links and summary
3.Revision of modules
4.Lab
5.Sister's artwork. (For the moneh!) Mercernary, aren't I?

Alrighty. That's all for today!! Teehee. I'm perfectly fine nao :D If you get my drift. Life still have to go on :D

This picture looks nice. I have the idea of photoshopping it and make it as my blog header, replacing the current Kimi ni Todoke picture, and I plan to change the lyrics to either Hikari or Sanctuary :D

KH rocks!! :D:D

Fresh Breeze, Rain Fall, Earth Shaker!!!

2010-04-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

I'm practically drooling now because of these 3 things:

Fresh Breeze *nosebleed*

Rain Fall *more nosebleeding*

Pool of blood *squeals*

Credit to playasia~~ OMG. Seriously. I wanna get all this three keyblades!! I got the oblivion keyblade but not Oathkeeper, so now I am v.v. emo. Anyone who can get the Oathkeeper keychain for me in Japan will be my best friend forever and ever and everrrrrr. (:

But now I wanna get these 3! It's like 28 per keychain though. ): so it's like 84 for 3 keyblades. I'm not that tempted to get Earth Shaker, but...but...it's uber nice! I love how detailed the keyblades areeeeeee!!!

Sigh. I have to decide should I get these 3 keyblades, Nier, or Cross Edge, or my harddisk, or my new psp. How. So many wants and needs! T_T

Please just let me pick up 500 bucks on the floor! :D Haha. Just dreaming though ):

So this week is actually busy...

1. I have to decide should I drop Entrepreneurship for French?
2. Research on Hazardous of Electrical Appliances.
3. Complete all tutorials
4. Revision.
5. Sleep.

): ):

How siaaaaa.

But on a lighter note, I had loads of fun today! Especially supper session! Haha. It's always fun meeting friends who we've never met for a long, long time. (: Yayyyy!

And yes, Happy Birthday OPC! (:

Pre-School Panic.

2010-04-20T01:56:00.003+08:00

So I know I'm supposed to be sleeping now since I'll be waking up at 6.30am, (which is like 4hrs and 30 minutes later.) but I just couldn't get to sleep. Maybe I'm just like a child, excited about the first day of my school. In fact, no. It's the opposite. I wonder why does this kind of panic attacks happen, but it does happen at the worst possible timing ever.

A sudden pang of stress just came over. What if I couldn't do well this semester? Well, all these kinds of negative feelings just came wave after wave over this few hours that I couldn't get to sleep, now turning on my computer and just rambling over here like it's nobody's business. (Oh yeah it's my blog so I'm entitled to do this.) :P

So, I did discuss with my mum. (Mum are the best aren't they. They seem to be around you when you need them the most.) She give me the assurance that they aren't expecting that much from me, they just want me to give the best in everything that I do. Well, it is an assurance for me, but I just wanted to excel that badly to make them feel proud. But deep down inside, is that really what they want? I seriously wonder.

After watching a show just now, I realised that while walking through life, we tend to cross paths with many people, yet when have we ever stop down to say hi, to reminisce with everyone that we've meet? I guess that's a bad point in living in such a fast paced city. We tend to overlook the littlest details in life. I guess it's much more worth it to get over anger and sadness with a smile, rather than keeping grudges or feeling discontented. It's much more easier and relaxing to live that way.

Read a story called I wish you enough, and what does that mean? It's actually quite meaningful, and with a tint of bittersweet melancholy.

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I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough helloes to get you through the final good-bye.
----

Why do we always seem to overlook those around us, while walking through life? And when we stop, and tried to care for them, they are already long gone? I guess we really do have to treasure the people around us really well. ):

I guess rambling on my blog do have it uses. I feel so much better now after saying what I wanted to say. I guess bottling things up do make people feel suffocating.

Okay. Gotta go sleep. 4hrs lectures straight. Oh god. >.< I need to stay awake and pay attention!!

Last, last, last. It's the last day!

2010-04-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

Last day of hols ):

But at least monday no school :D

I still feel the blues, ya know? Monday blues...

I have blues ready for everyday except for saturday. =x

Diamonds In My Heart. (:

2010-04-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

The song that always manages to make me feel nostalgic. (: It's a really sweet ending song from Chocobo Racing. (I love this game so much!)

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Do you remember the days
When we had long long ways to go
And you were there for me,
As I was there for you to be around
The sun was shining brightly
Down on us so gently
That we thought we could go on
Or was

Hand in hand, forever and almorn
We would run, we'd never have enough
Did an angel know when it was time to live
Or time to sleep
On and on, the hours tick away
So the memories can go astray
Oh, how I miss the days of golden sun
And please,
I'd rather be with you
I still remember the days
When we had long long time to share
Until I saw you there
Not as tired as I used to feel
Hello I said unsurly
You smiled a little shyly
Soon we knew we would go on
Together on a journey to our dreams

Hand and hand, forever and almorn
We'd run, didn't even care to ask
How far away from home
We'd have to go

On and on, the hours tick away
Oh the memories go astray
Oh I miss the never-ending road,
And sure,
I'd rather be with you
Sweet summer breeze
Or autumn leaves
Through winter skys
And flowers of spring
Friends and their laughter
Precious and kind
Let them shine like diamonds in my heart

All along, I'm here to find the way
To what dreams, we used to have before,
And I hope to see again
Your smiling face along the way somewhere
If you hear me calling out today
And you see the meaning of it all
Come and join me on this way again
You know, tomorrow will be there...
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Nooooo Moreeeee Heroes!

2010-04-17T19:31:00.004+08:00

So I finally managed to get this :D Travis Touchdown rawkssss!! I'll plat this, and get the english version if it does comes out a year later or maybe earlier? I also managed to get Byakuya in the lucky gachapon I tried at toys r'us (: Now squad 6 is beautifully on my psp where buttons are already so cranky. It's time to save for my KH BBS bundle!

One regretful thing I never did. Because of the lack of cash ): I wanan go to this music live last year!!! T_T but not enough cash T_T So I can only watch videos via youtube. The music is damnnnn nice. Uber nice. Super nice. The singers cosplay too. (:

So due to someone who didn't actually reply me when I requested for his aid, I decided to make a ps3 platinum list for my own use. (: Two more plats to my current goal!!

Games that are close to platting would be FF13, Uncharted 2 and Yakuza 3. I think I'll plat NMH too!!! Rawrrrr. ):

Should I get Fatal Frame 3, Resident Evil 4, God of War 3, or Cross Edge? Although I think the current games would be able to last me till the end of June, where another bunch of games (P3P, KHBBS, Nier) would last me even longer.

The name of the clear blue sky.

2010-04-17T02:15:00.002+08:00

Ever wondered? When you feel sad, relieved, at peace...what was the thing you'll actually try to look at?

For me, I guess it's the clear blue sky. I don't really know why, but it seems like the sky have a seriously calming effect to the mind and body.

There's one manga where the protagonist grandma wrote a letter to his dad.

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Whenever you feel sad, or you need some comfort, look at the sky, and think...

"What's the name for this clear blue sky?"
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Whenever i look at the sky, it seems like everything will be okay, there's really nothing impossible.

That's the magic of this sky. The gift from the world.

(: